AWA_IN_NJ , 26

I'm really trying to get amazon gift cards so I can buy diapers, especially since we're about to lose over half of our income not long after he comes. And since we bought most of his things (I got a couple gifts from 3 people and some hand me downs from my sister).

Anyway, a $5 amazon gift card is 450 points, I signed up yesterday and already have 291 points. I didn't pay for any of them either, I did all the free stuff. So it's pretty easy to get.

Here's the link: http://www.swagbucks.com/refer/jayv85

There's a bunch of prizes but I'm just looking for the amazon gift cards.

If you want to read any previous posts you can read them here http://jayv85.livejournal.com/

So I was wrong, my sister actually spent $40 on the baby stuff she sent us. It was bought off babies r us, I found the invoice in our box of stuff to be shredded. I still don't understand why if she bought stuff off babies r us to begin with why she didn't get something off our registry. It's kind of irritating, but I guess it's a beggers can't be choosers thing. So instead she got us this lion snuggle blanket thing that wasn't on my registry and I already have 2 snuggle blankets that are way cuter.

Here's a picture

It may look kind of cute, but this is what's wrong with it. There's no color, so it's very boring, babies usually like things with colors. The eyes aren't black, they're grey, so they king of blend into the head which makes it creepy looking. It's not even that nice. She could have saved her $10.99 it cost, or at least spent that money on something from our registry.

So my mom and Eddie are going to go to toys r us in the mall here (babies r us is over an hour away, while toys r us is 10 minutes) and see if they can return it. I don't know if it's possible because there's no packaging, but I hope so. Though I think the money goes back to her debit card, so that sucks too. I'm just going to tell her it was creepy looking.

I just realized it's got free shipping. Nevermind, I just looked up the order number and with tax and shipping it was $50. Which is still and hell of a lot less than we spent on my niece. I don't even count the Christmas stuff she got us because we bought her baby stuff for our niece when she was pregnant with her, then we spent another $200 on baby stuff for her shower. At first we spent a little over $100, then I felt bad for spending that little so I asked what she didn't get and she points out the swing that was over $100, so I found it $90 on amazon with free shipping. She probably forgot how much we spent on her, I wouldn't doubt it. I forget what we bought exactly, I wish I knew. But $200 when we were only making about $17k a year was a lot of money for us. And I know my sister and BIL make way more than that.

My mom and I got the baby's room together the other day, but we just need a shelf and to get her out of there and a couple other things. I'm glad my mom's here to help, but I really wish I could get our house back, and since she's here she's sleeping on a twin bed in the baby's room and all I really want to do is finish setting up the room. It's nice but then it's frustrating.

Eddie only gets 10 days of paternity leave too with the baby and I bet my mom will be here all 10 days and maybe some more, so that's going to suck because we won't be able to use his room (yea he'll sleep in a bassinet in our room, but we can't get in his room at night to get new clothes if he needs it or use the changing table if we wanted to), and I really just want to be able to have just the 3 of us together as a family without someone over us the whole time while he's got the days off. I know that's really going to irritate me. Then his family is coming up I think a couple weeks after the baby is born (thankfully they're getting a hotel room) so we're really going to be bombarded with family for 4 weeks and I'm only going to get 6 weeks with my baby before I go back to work. IF the baby isn't early and in the NICU, otherwise I may only get a couple days or nothing with him after he's born. I'm already stressed about it and the baby isn't even here yet.

I'm already so frustrated because I just want some time alone in my house while on bedrest and I'm not getting that. My mom doesn't get the hint of maybe you should go look around the mall or something when I say it either. Then Eddie's going to go with her on his day off to return the creepy blanket hopefully. Ugh. I really wish she'd just go alone so that we can get maybe an hour together. I hate that the only alone time I get with my husband is when we go hide out in our bedroom. So I guess we won't get any time alone before the baby is born.

I can't stand Eddie's unit either. There's less than half of them that can work the road, so Eddie and this other guy switch on and off with working the road since a SGT or above has to always be on the road. Well, about 99% of the time he has a weekday off when he has days off. Except his freaking PSG will call telling him he needs to get this or that done so he's off to work on his day off. I can't even tell you the last day he's actually had a day off, and I know he's getting really stressed out because of it too.

I'm going crazy, I need some alone time. My mom's either bitching about stuff or telling me stuff I could really care less about. Which, normally I wouldn't mind, but when you're around someone 24/7 because they never do anything it drives me insane. You'd think she was on bedrest too because she NEVER goes out.

Since I've been going crazy with my mom and being stuck in the house I decided to buy some stuff to pamper myself. So I bought some face wash and eye cream from Origins because I love their skincare line. I was debating some lipstick, but I really would like to try it first before getting any. So I think I'll stick with drugstore stuff, or I might just try to find something on clinique that I like. I want a kind of sheer lipstick so it doesn't really look like I'm wearing any. I want to find a tinted moisturizer too since I think that'll be a lot nicer for summer. And faster with a baby. Though I have that foundation that comes out white and will change to match your skin tone too, so I might just stick with that for summer.

I'm spoiled. lol.

So, yea, not much is going on today. Sitting at home like usual. So is my mom. I don't know why she doesn't go do anything ever. I can't stand sitting at home this entire time, I need to get out and do something at some point. Heck, she has base access and there's a gym with a bunch of exercise equipment that she can use for free. Yet she doesn't, but she'll say she needs to get back to working out.

And she's annoying me with the dog too. I really hate that she'll call him macarooni or macadoodle. And he just took the squeeker out of his toy and my mom goes "there he goes he's going to squeek it now." Uh, no he's not, he's going to eat it, so I had to get it away from him. Besides the laundry and vacuuming I think I'd be fine without her because some days I cook dinner and I let the dog out and feed him too. Plus she feeds my dog "people food" which I don't want him to have because it can cause problems in dogs and I really don't want to deal with it if it could be prevented. There was gravy stuff left over from dinner yesterday and she was going to feed it to him, I threw it out. He doesn't need all the damn food, it's pissing me off. I'm about to throw a fit about it. I don't mind once in a while, but not every damn day. He expects food in his bowl after dinner now because of it. When I threw the stuff out yesterday she acted like he was so damn deprived too. I just wanted to tell her to shut up, he gets fed and everything, he's not deprived.

I can't stand having to drink tons of water all day either. I know the doctors told me to, but it makes me feel sick sometimes.

I want to wax my eyebrows, I have the stuff to wax them, but I don't want to do it in front of my mom who's going to be annoying. Maybe I'll bring the stuff in my room and do it once my mom goes to bed tonight. I have a zit right under my one eyebrow too, I've never had a zit there before. I think it was from getting them waxed at the one place last month, they weren't very sanitary I don't think. I can't wait for this zit to go away.

I can't wait to have this baby so that I can get in shape again. I hate being out of shape.

I really wish I could figure out how my baby is laying. I want to know if he's head down or not. I think he is because his feet are usually up higher, but it's hard to tell. They say feel for his head and it'll fell like a ball, but I can't really tell either. I felt something that felt maybe like a butt earlier, but I can't tell. I hope he stays head down (he was 3 weeks ago) so I don't have to get a csection just because he was breech (I'd rather there be a better reason).

Anyway, I think this is long enough. I want to go wipe the baby bassinet down with some clorox wipes and put the sheet on then maybe take a nap. I'm so glad the heater is running a little more since it's getting darker out (it runs more at night for some reason) because I was freezing and I'm being too lazy to go

I'm still torn between whether I want to use kiwibox anymore or if I just want to make the permanent move to livejournal. *sigh. Kiwibox isn't like it used to be, but it feels like I'm giving up that part of me since I joined in the beginning of 2000. I kind of miss the points, it was fun seeing them go up and working torwards prizes. And I never got the Ipod nano that I cashed points in for, so that sucks.

 

Not much else going on.

Almost 9 weeks at least.  I should be 9 weeks tomorrow. Which is exciting. I still haven't had an appointment because the Army is retarded and they call you to schedule the first appointment. I've been waiting for a week now. Hopefully they call tomorrow. I really want to have the first ultrasound to make sure that the baby is actually ok in there. I think it is, but I'm still worried until I hear a heartbeat. Too bad Eddie won't be able to be there because he's in WLC.

Tomorrow we're supposed to get flu shots in pregnancy pt, but I already got mine, so it's pointless. I think I'm going to skip it and go to sick call. I've been trying to ignore it for about 2 years now, but I think I have asthma now. Which is weird because I never used to have it, and it only flares up when I'm really forcing myself to work out. I thought it was because I wasn't in good enough shape, or I kept telling myself that, but now I know it's not because I used to run 6 miles a day 6 days a week and still had this. Then I ran the other day and my chest got tight and I was coughing when I was done, and I would wheeze when I breathed in. I finally decided that maybe I should get it taken care of. That's probably why my run's gotten horrible in the past couple years. Hopefully this helps me, that'd be nice.

So we're less than 3 months until Christmas now. Someone asked what the limit on spending was for people in your families, and I thought about it. I spent about $150 on the babies (my niece and nephew), $100 on my sisters and BIL (that's $100 per couple) and then $100 for each parent. I don't think I'm going that crazy this year. Maybe for the parents, but I think we're only going to buy for the babies this year, and I don't think it's going to be as much because we're making less now (Eddie not being deployed) and because last year brought everything into perspective. Eddie's family always does a grab bag and have about a $25 limit, so since we're most likely going there for Christmas then we'll do that. Maybe give his brother some money, but that's it.

But, yea, my middle sister and BIL just had their baby in the hospital because of his genetic disorder, so I knew they would have no money and I didn't care to get anything from them last year. I don't ever care to get anything, but when you so blantantly spend maybe $5 and didn't try I would rather just get a card and that's it. My oldest sister and BIL did that. They spent over $500 on my niece for Christmas (they bragged how much they spent on each other) and then probably another $1000 for each other so they spent over $1500 on themselves. Which it's their money, so yea, they can spend it how they want. But they were living with my parents, making more than I make a paycheck, only had a car and cell phone payment, and weren't paying anything else. Yep, no rent or helping with utilities. Which I couldn't do. So they couldn't say they didn't have money (they spend it on useless shit all the time).

Anyway, I open mine (Eddie and my gift, he was deployed so he wasn't there) and they got us a picture of my niece and a picture frame. At that rate they could have just bought us a card at least and put a picture in it since I have picture frames that I don't use. My middle sister and BIL spent more than that on us and THEY really shouldn't have. So, yea, it was definitely put in perspective for me, I'm only buying for my niece and nephew from now on. My middle sister won't care, I'll probably still get her and my BIL something little, but my oldest sister and BIL I'm skipping and just buying for my niece. They live in FL now anyway. Plus I'm not spending as much since we have a baby on the way and will be spending money getting ready for that.

And I spent $200 on my niece (w/o shipping) before she was born for my sister's baby shower (this was when we were struggling for money and lived far away), so I'm really curious how much she'll spend on stuff and shipping for our baby. I have a feeling it won't be as much or close to it because we're  not putting expensive stuff on our registry. My middle sister is giving us her bassinet, playpen, bounce chair, car seat base (if it fits ours), and breast pump (which is an expensive one). They're all like brand new because my nephew barely used any, so we're pretty set with stuff there. We've already got a car seat and stroller that's an exensive item. We found a bedroom set we like, so we'll probably buy that in a couple months. I set aside $2000 for baby stuff so it should definitely cover a swing and bedroom set and whatever we don't get from a baby shower.

I've been trying to figure out how much money to keep in checking to cover bills and just living. I think we'll be ok with $2500 as long as we don't go crazy with buying stuff anymore (I like to have a chunk left over just in case). We went shopping yesterday and spent way too much, so now I'm just going to stop spending anything. Well, I kind of needed pants because I'm starting to not fit mine, so I bought 2 different sizes that are bigger, and 1 of those pregnancy band things so you can wear your pants longer, and then some yoga pants because they'll stretch with my stomach. I might buy a few more of those. I haven't been able to find pregnancy pants, which sucks, but I don't need them right now. I don't know what I'm going to do when I am going to need them. Then we went to target and I got some makeup brushes and tweezers, and we got candy for halloween for trick or treaters, or we were supposed to and my husband ended up getting a ton of candy that he wants to eat. lol.

Eddie told me not to clean today, but I think I'm going to. I need to find what to cook for dinner tonight. Maybe lasagna, I got one of the frozen ones so it'd be an easy cook, and I got some pillsbury biscuits I can make with it. That's my plan then. Lasagna tonight.

Alright, time to go. Bye bye.