BSBANGEL32288 , 24

Yesterday was a decent day. Radio show went well, except at one point when I turned on the wrong mike. My apprentice has good taste in music. I may consider creating a group for my show, but at the same time, I'm scared no one would join and leave me feeling sad. So, probably not. Later I tried taking a nap, failed, and wasted time til class. As a result I was just barely awake in Politics of the EU. It was kind of bad. Political Anthropology was better. We finished up some old stuff, and started on the new book. Break. Then Medieval Magic, which was interesting. Then food. Spent the rest of the night watching stuff. First disk of Buffy season 6. Then I decided to watch both my Netflix movies so I could return it. Alex Rider: Stormbreaker was entertaining. I'm all for fun spy movie, as long as they're fun. Outsourced was adorable- I love culture clash. I want to go to India now. Yep.

Today was shit. I've been PMSing for a few days, and today I just woke up feeling really cranky. Class wasn't bad, except for the fact that the 2008 US State Department report is up, and we won't have assignments until next week. It would've been nice to at least have the option of starting this weekend. Also the exercise was frustrating since women don't really have a clear cut section, and since I was working with paper copies, CTRL+F was out of the option. Then I went to the campus post office, and realized that I'd lost the $3 I'd brought with me for it. Not a disaster, but it's still money, and I was still cranky. So I decided to get some comfort food. Ice cream and a hamburger and some fried ravioli. I pay for it, go to get some ketchup, and proceed to drop the whole tray. It was like the last straw of that moment. I really hate crying in public. I have nothing against crying in general- it's a stress mechanism for me, and it helps me cope- but I hate getting attention because of it. People were really nice about it. They let me get new food. Afterward, I really didn't want to go to work- I seriously considered calling out. In the end, I decided that there wasn't a good enough reason to give up $30, but work was miserable. Usually I can be pretty good natured, but it's hard to even feign cheerfulness when you're kind of miserable. For a bit, I was scared that I wouldn't have Maggie to help me clean, but she was there, so it was okay. Watched Lost. Now I just feel tired and still a little miserable. I don't think I'm going to do any work tonight, but I just can't see myself getting into the zone. Fuck.

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Chicadee_A, kareemsbaby

Yesterday. Woke up and went to have breakfast with my English Conversation partner (a program in my school where international students have a chance to practice their English skills with native speakers). She seems really sweet, and she actually seems interested in the program. The last two partners I had weren't: I only met with them once or twice, and never heard from them again. We should be meeting again next week. After that, I went to the mall. I bought myself a new pair of jeans and pajama bottoms. Then Wegmans again, mostly for fruit. Once I got back, I got called to work, though I needed to get some work done before I went. I really should have gone at 5 *headdesk* I spent the whole first hour running around like a crazy chicken trying to get everything in order. I was slightly irritated with the girl I was working with. She'd been stuck at the station by herself all day, which sucks, but she sounded overly proud of managing it all by herself, considering it was in completely disarray when I got there. And she takes forever to clean up. I mean, she's nice enough, but... yeah. I'm also irritated a little at Patrick, since apparently he was really mean to her. She's learning. You can't just do everything perfectly just like that. Gah. Night... stuff. I went to the study lounge and read. If I put myself in a different environment, I don't waste time on my laptop.

Today- woke up early to get tickets for Jon Stewart (who's coming to my school next month!). The line was insane, and once the booths opened it just didn't move. Juin and I ended up having to leave our money with Mike so we could go to class: almost an hour, and the only movement was the line basically squishing itself. Class was supposed to be important, but it wasn't. An old student of our professors, who is now in the Israeli army, talked to us. It was interesting, but not the thing we were supposed to be doing. After that, I wasted some time, but did some reading, so go me. Work was pleasant. Cleaned up in record time- 26 minutes. I felt bad running out of there, but I have a shitload of stuff to do tonight. I could not be roped into staying there until 9:30. As soon as I finish this, I am showering and going downstairs to read. 50 pages left, so hopefully it doesn't take me more than 3-4 hours (I'm an insanely slow reader). Also, I'm kind of in love with the Word highlight feature. I can save so much money now!

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kareemsbaby

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I forgot to mention that I had a strange dream a few days ago. In this one, I was going to Shelly's house and I got bored while walking, so I decided to basically put myself of autopilot or something. When I came out of it, I'd gone too far- I was near Mt. Vernon High and the border between Mount Vernon and the Bronx (which are no where near each other, let alone Shelly's house). So I turned around. Going back it was all uphill, and really steep. I think I talked to someone. I was getting really close to Shelly's house when I woke up. Yep.

Anyway... yesterday. History discussion. I've been participating a lot in that class. Makes me feel smart. Research: stuff. I was going to see my apartment, but when I called the landlady wasn't there, so I didn't. It's not a bad trip, but it would be annoying to go there for nothing. Later on, I realized that I could have gone to the mall for jeans, but then it was too late. So, I ended up going to a power yoga class at the gym. It was really fun, but when I woke up this morning, I was sore all over. Still am. I think that's supposed to be a good thing. Then I cooked. Not as good as the store bought kopytka, but not poisonous. Then TV. Finished season 5 of Buffy (and cried, because it was still upsetting seeing her die even when I knew she'd come back). Dollhouse. It's not Joss Whedon's best, but still enjoyable. Battlestar Galactica. Ellen Tigh may or may not do be a bitch; miscarriages make me sad; why have Athena and Helo been MIA for so long? Nothing else too exciting.

Today... woke up, went to work. So far, it seems like Saturdays are determined to suck. I got all excited when the grills weren't sticking, only to have crap tortillas. They kept breaking ;-; Nothing exciting. Got back around 8 and now I'm doing laundry.

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Chicadee_A, kareemsbaby

Yesterday, being Wednesday... I went to Research in Human Rights and Development. We did this exercise on labor rights that was a bit annoying, because I didn't have that coding guide with me. After that, there was time and it was wasted. There was Buffy involved. Work was. It was by at a nice pace. We made strawberry taco samples, and that made me happy. Granted, it doesn't take much to make my happy. Dinner was good- a bean burrito and a bowl of strawberries with whipped cream. And I got out of there real quick. Watched Lost, watched Buffy, wasted time. And then... did actual schoolwork. It wasn't much, but I still feel insanely proud of myself.

Today. I moved my usual Sunday grocery run to today, due to desperate need for milk and yogurt and the like. I also got kielbasa and pears and really delicious bread and stuff. They have Prince Polos now, which made me mad. I go out and buy a box, and then they decide to start selling them. Anyway, got lunch from there too. I love dumplings and dim sum. I also like vermicelli noodles, but these weren't great. Didn't miss the bus, which is a good sign. Class. Politics of the EU was slightly less dull than usual. He showed a film, and then used a powerpoint presentation. I like that: it gives me something to do other than be confused. I am so happy he still thinks class ends early. Political Anthro: finished watching Hitler in Color, and talked about it. Stuff. Medieval Magic was good too. Magic v superstition v miracles from a Christian perspective. Then, Amnesty. Stayed for an hour. Then I started to make kopytka. I got the potatoes boiled and mashed, but I just didn't want to have to go down to the kitchette to fry the kielbasa and onions, so I made chili instead. Now I'm eating cheesecake, which is delicious.

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Chicadee_A

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Yesterday. I got up at 12:30, and only because I had an alarm. I totally overslept: about 10 hours. I really hate how when you do that, you end up feeling so tired. Wasted the afternoon a bit, and went to work at 4. Work was kind of miserable, to be honest. There was nothing for me to do for an hour, and then the station was just dead for the night. And then, even though we were finished cleaning at 8:30, I had to spend another hour helping salad close down. So yeah: not fun. The rest of the night... busy-ness. I had to make a playlist for my show, finish about 25 pages of reading, and write a response. I managed to get it all done before 2 though!

Today... I've just been insanely exhausted. I have no idea why: I didn't get that much less sleep than usual. Radio show went decent. Met my apprentice. She seems nice. After that, I ate and went to sign the lease for the apartment I'm living in next year. Fun. I'm going to go back on Friday to see the actual apartment. At least I'm set. Now I just need to find a subleter. I ended up skipping Politics of the EU, since I missed a good portion of it. In Political Anthropology, we watched color footage of Hitler and WWII. Two things: his mustache looks absolutely ridiculous in color. It probably looks ridiculous all the time, but it just processed right then. Second, there's something about WWII that just really breaks my heart. It doesn't interest me as much as WWI, but watching footage leave me feeling sad. Yeah. Medieval Magic was horrible, because I was so insanely tired. I just kind of wanted to taken a nap. Now here. Later, I'm going to watch stuff and whatnot. I'm too tired to do work, but if I were to go to bed soon, I'd end up waking up at like 5 in the morning. Blah.

Later:
I just watched "The Body", the episode of Buffy in which Joyce Summers dies. It literally hurt to watch it. I never deal with seeing character's grieve, and I spent at least half the episode crying (in contrast to my roommate and her boyfriend, who were watching Boy Meets World and laughing). I don't remember it being this heartbreaking. I think a large part of it has to do with the fact that I'm a different person than I was when it first aired. Just the way everyone reacted- the crying, the freaking out, the anger, all of it: it was perfect. That's probably why I love and hate Joss Whedon so much. This was seriously the saddest episode of anything that I've ever seen.

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Chicadee_A, kareemsbaby