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...................entry number: 003

Hey, what's up everybody?? I just turned 18 yesterday. Now I'm officially legal. The only thing that sucked about yesterday is, I got sick. Then I didn't go to school today, b/c I felt like shit. Ugh,,,I hate being sick.

Anyway, what's been going on lately?? Hmm,,,let's see. Sean is still being stupid. He won't talk to me very much, and when he does, he's always sad or upset about something. Maybe I should break up with him. I don't want to though, we've been together for a year and a half. I don't know what I would do if I lost him. But it's been causing me so many problems lately thinking about what I could do to help him get over whatever his problem is.

Also, the stupid fucking idiots that keep snapping at me and calling me a bitch in the Qbooks because I like Bush, are getting on my nerves. Half the people on here think I'm some kind of retard because I'm standing up for what I believe in, not what everyone else thinks I should do. All I want to say is, if you are one of them, please don't do it anymore, because I respect your opinion, you should respect mine.

Oh, my best friend Jessica just had a baby. Her name is Jaselyn, and she's so cute. She was only 3 lbs. 13 ozs. when she was born, b/c she was 4 weeks early. I got to hold her for the first time the other day, and she is possibly the cutest baby I've ever seen. I can't wait until I have a baby, I will be so excited. I think I am ready if I would get pregnant now, ecspecially since I'm graduating soon. I will be going to college, but I still want to have a child soon.

Ok well I'm out. Peace.

Oh yea, and I only have 1 subby people!! Please subby, and I will subby to your journal. Pretty please with a cherry on top? lol.

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kareemsbaby

Hey, what's up, peeps? It is one more day until my birthday, whoo hoo!! I'm gonna be 18. Finally legal after tomorrow. I can't wait. Well, I just had the greatest weekend. I went to see "Johnson Vacation" at the theater. It was hilarious!! I am supposed to go to prom this Saturday, but Sean can't go, and it really sucks. I am so sad. This year was supposed to be the only time I would get to go, but now I will never go to prom. ;-( I feel like crying now, I honestly do.

Sean has been so grouchy lately. He hardly wants to come near me anymore. Don't get me wrong, he still treats me like a princess,,,,it's just that he never wants to talk to me about anything that's bothering him (and I know something is bothering him). Why can't he just change back into the man I love? One of the reasons I fell in love with him is because we have such open communication between us. We have always been able to talk about things that have bothered us. We used to sit up in the wee hours of the morning just talking. Cuddling and talking. Nothing physical. No sex, just talking. I miss those days. Don't get me wrong, I love the sex and everything, it is wonderful. But I want the communication back more than anything. You need all aspects of the relationship to make it work. But I don't want to lose him, he is the love of my life. My first love, my first partner, my best friend, everything. He is everything to me. A girl could never ask for a better friend or lover than him. I know how lucky I am, and I'm not about to let that go for this stupid bullshit. I don't want to say that, but that's what it is. Bullshit. Hopefully things will get better soon. I hope, or I'm about to go over the edge. Everything seems to suck lately.

Well, I'm out. Peace.

*~*Serena*~*
AKA Princess

Hey, what's up, journal?? Guess what?? It's 4 days until my birthday. I'm gonna be 18. Go Serena, Go Serena, it's your birthday!!! lol,,,,sorry i'm feeling just a little crazy today. Anyway, just thought I'd update you on what's happening. Sean is acting kinda strange lately and I don't know what's wrong with him. He never seems to want to talk to anyone, including me!! I mean, come on, he's my boyfriend, he needs to talk to me,,,,ugh!!! Normally, he's so easy to read. Normally, it's me that's hard to read. But lately, it's like he won't let anybody in to tell what's wrong with him. It's really starting to get to me. I'm starting to get really worried. I just want my baby to be normal again!! ;-( Never since I've known him (for almost 2 years) have I seen him like this. He says and thinks that he has nothing good in his life anymore. Well, he has me!! He says he's losing his sanity. He's already lost it, so how can he be losing it now?? lol. Anyway, I just don't know what's going on. I hope it can be solved soon,,,,,