BloodBerry , 23

Well, this WAS a pretty boring day. Nothing intreasting..But I can say tha I can wait 'til school starts up again. I feel bad for my friend, Ricky though. Some person I know kinda hurt him a lot..But the worst part was that I told him about it and he didn't really believe me and started acting like an asshole. Well..Today he started to talk to me again and was being REALLY nice to me. It was kina scarying me. Then he just said that he was sorry for being such an asshole and all that nice stuff. I actually felt BETTER about being treated like shit. I guess you really do take what you get with no questions..

Like I said,just boring talk.

I went to a amusment park yesterday. I went with my darlin parents and my lil stepsis. It was okay until we decieded to eat lunch (Or,whatever.).I said something that got my mom pissed. (I happen to do that a lot) And suddenly she was talking about sending me away. She even said something about hating me. The onlt thought that was going thru my mind was,"Oh,great. Now I'm finally alone in this world. There is no one out there that doesn't hate me." I mean,come on. My family hates me. My friends hate me (All but like two) And everyone else just HATES me. Ain't tha wonderful. Oh,and I don't have to move out. She kinda changed her mind..Yippie.

Nothing too intreasting..Except the fact that last night my cousin started hating me. She keeps saying that I don't care about her. And that's when I talk to her! If I don't talk to her..Then talk to her again,she says the same thing! I was gettin' annoyed. (I mean,who wouldn't?!) SO I finally told her what I was thinking and she BLEW UP I didn't really say anything and now she's telling me I don't have friends..And so what if I don't?! ..Hmph..

Lemme start at the end of the school year. It was the last week and suddenly all my "good" friends ditched me.It sucked..A lot. But I lived thru the start of the summer. I think it was cuz I had a sorta new guy. Then I went to my cousin's house in Flordia,so I left all my troubles totally behind. But then my cousin was on the internet and one of our friends told her that my boyfriend was thinking up a reason to dump me! So she ran to find me and then told me that it would be better if I dumped him first. I did. I thought I was perfectly fine with the idea. And for about a week afterward I WAS fine. But I'm starting to think that I might miss him. But I'm also not sure if I'm missing HIM..I thin kI could just be missing his..personaility. See,he was a lil odd. Or I think I might want to say that he was just a rude jerk. I guess he was nice to me and all..But a lot of people are just finally telling me that they thought for the three months that we went out that they thought that I should've broke up with him! FOR THREE MONTHS! It's kinda intreasting, I think anyway. A few people kept asking me if I was okay. I just kinda glared and said, "Of course I'm okay! Just leave me alone!" Sadly..I'm not quite sure if I am okay.