Cutie9865 , 23

well my friend and i finally called it quites. we arn't going to be freinds anymore. which is fine with me. if he wants to act like a jerk he can i'm not going to go through the same shit over and over again and he doesn't want to either. it's going to be hard at first b/c i see him alot and want to talk to him but eventually i'll be totaly over him.

ok my friend and i are fighting again. it's kinda a really long story but i guess i should tell so you can understand. last year my freind and i started likeing eachother as more than that. we were at a sports weekend and i was going to ask him out. he thought i still like my ex and him so he thought i was playing the both of them. afterewards we got into a huge fight and didn't talk to eachother for 3 months. after that sports weekend we get into fights pretty much everytime we see eachother . either we hate eachother or we are so close u cant seperate us. we have never dated eachother in our lives. i still like him alot. i don't know how he feels about me. but anyways now we're fighting again b/c i lied to him about something. my best friend and him went out 4 times and he wants to go out with her again and i told her. they both kinda liked eachother but i kinda told her that he was jelous of her and her ex from before. it's kinda comlicated so bare wit me.
so yah. he got pissed off at me cuz i ruined his chance with my best freind and i lied to him. he won't let me explain to him wat i did. i'm sick and tired of fighting with him all the time but no matter how hard i try i do something to screw it up between us.i just wish he could understand me and tell me how he feels about me but whenever i ask he changes teh subject and this weekend we went to a camp out and he was like flirting with me and my best freind and this other chick and he wondered why my best friend and i were pissed off but w/e he's the biggest jerk in the world. but then again i've been a bitch to him. when we both get mad we're pissed off for a long time to eachother cuz we;re to stubborn to talk. i don't know wat to do about him. should i ignore him , should i try to mend our relationship, should i just say fuckit and just not try to be freinds with him ever again. i'm so confused right now and i don't know wat to do about it.