DivineEssence , 26

For some reason I feel like my boss's boss doesn't like me. I asked her a simple question just today and she is looking at me like I am crazy. "Hey bitch I can't help it if i am motivated and you are not." Thats what I think. There is better way to express yourself.
Also I got a lil disgusted with one of my co-workers today. telling me how to do shit. And then telling me what another person told me wouldn't tell me something like and that it wasn't true. I was so hot.
Other then that I am good.
It all was very unprofessional.
People please don't mistake my kindness for weakness. I hate that shit yes i may be nice but i got another side to me too.

I am learning not to let the small things get to me. Even though I am learning this, I am still human and things w . . . (he's so cute, OMG I would rape his ass) ANYWHO!!! will bother me sometimes. But I know I am crazy, and I have too much fun in life to be bummed out. I got a lot of stuff going for myself, a good life . . . EVERYTHING.

I got a lot of "haterz." Sh!t my life must be good, if i got people higher ranking, and of good standing jealous of me. Those people need to stay in their own bussiness, and get out of mine. Let me carry on . . . You know?

I am very sure, my jealous co-worker Who is n a higher position will try to get me into trouble. (he does everyday) But aww well sorry for him. Ain't shit happening to me, because i tell everybody everything. Except of course about my personal life. JEALOUS ASS MOTHERFUCKER. And he a he, actin like a bitch.

My gangsta is hot. Leave me the fuck a lone. Not you guys . . . it a /rant.

ANYWHO!!! LOL I love irony. It's funny.

Just the other day I was thinking, why is my life so bad? And why do I treat people like shit? Why haven't I killed myself yet? Or better yet, why hasn't god been done with me, yet!?
Sometimes, I just get so tired of the same old, same old.

Then, I realized . . .My life is as bad as I make it. If I have fun and live to my fullest potential. Then I would be the happiest person in the world. Why? Because I'm me. All I can be. For myself. And I won't leave room for people to fail me. Because I do what I want, when I want.

I treat people like shit because I'm real like that. I will not let ANYBODY get by with shit. You ditch me for some friends when you know I got your back! Oh you got another thing coming to you! (you know what I mean!) Just be real with me, you know? It's not like I don't communicate with you! Oh that pisses me off. And yes I know it sounds immature . . .but like I always say. "God Bless." And also, maybe I'm here to make other friends realize . . . "hey, you are my world." Or "I love you so much." You know? "Or your better then Amber!" Stuff like that.

I haven't killed myself, because I know I can be more. I know I'm here for reason. Especially if god isn't done with me yet! You know? And then it's like maybe I'm other peoples blessings. You know? Like I have high ultimate respect for old people. I hold doors open, even for old males. LOL Life is so beautiful. And of course I ain't done!!!! I can see myself being 60, and running 2 miles in 18 mins.
Life can be so hard, but it's worth every minute. It's so beautiful.

Growing up for me is hard, and I'm still learning who I am, I'm 19 almost 20. Yet I'm such a baby to society, in so many ways. And It's heart breaking to have to go through it personally, being so old, and not have anybody to help me. It's like trying to quit smoking, cold turkey lol. For real tho, I have to get use to a life that is so different.

Yet wonderful, at the same time.