[font=verdana][color=teal]hiiii :).

sheesh, i wanted to write an entry last night, but for some reason when i got home i kept feeling really frustrated :/ so i just went to bed, haha.

but yesterday was a very educational day for me :D. i worked, but then me & my mom went over to my aunt Kathy's house, and she helped me start looking at colleges :D. up to this point, i've never had any idea on what to look for. for example, most of the art schools that i have EVER even concidered, i found out, only give out certificates, no actual degree. and if i had never known this, i probably would have just gone there and not had anything official, i would have had no idea. so she really helped me out, im glad :D.

so far i've found a few pretty good places in michigan :]. wayne state has a good art program, but it doesnt really look that photography based, but then i found a few good art colleges like Kendall, which looks really nice :] i'd actually LOVE to go to that one. its a few hours away from where i live now, not too bad. then i also found one called Cranbrook, which also looks good :D. i'm going to keep looking though, and start filling out applications. She told me that i should be able to go to my councelor and get him to wave the fee :] concidering they all cost around $30 D: its crazy!

oh, speaking of councelors, my councelor really makes me angry! >.< i think i wrote about having a really screwed up school schedule? missing hours and whatnot. well, i made an appointment yesterday morning to go get all of these things fixed, along with my dual enrollment, because earlier this summer the class that i signed up for got cancelled. when i went earlier this summer, the principle was gone, so i couldn't sign up for a new class because he wasn't there to sign it, URG. that was really frustrating,

so yesterday i was trying to sort these things out. but he is so contradictory! earlier this summer he told me that since the college thing wasn't my fault, he would at least try and get me into a class for 2nd and 3rd trimester. yesterday, he said "oh, well, i dont know, its going to be very tricky since the classes dont line up, i dont know if we can work that out or not." which was frustrating, because i wish he would have told me that in the first place..

then i decided that i could just do co-op for at least the first trimester until i can do college. (co-op is when you get hours taken out of the school day to work more, just in case you werent sure, lol). he told me that i had to come back on september 1st to talk to my economics teacher, and then get back to him (the councelor).

so basically, i still have no 1st hour, and im missing other hours in other trimesters, and i get to talk to my economics teacher to fix it all for me, which i was pretty sure was the councelors job O.o but what can ya do?
oh and they aren't having a french 3 class this year :[. thats annoying too, but its not the councelors fault :P.

but im just kind of frustrated that it's my senior year and things dont seem to be working out on my schedule, and it just kinda sucks :/. but hopefully i can at least do co-op, then i would only have to be at school for 3 hours :). fine with me.


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haha sorry for all the ranting, this has turned into such a long entry D:

but its okay, because today was pretty uneventful.
i went into work early, but i also got to leave early too :D. but it wasn't busy at all, all day, it was really boring. and everyone just seemed in a gloomy mood for some reason :/. that's never fun.

oh and one more thing about college. Binh doesnt like it :/ i can tell. he doesn't like the fact that i might not be living here when i go to college. that kind of bothers me, because here i am excited about it, and he's being all gloomy. but he doesn't understand! i want to be a photographer SO bad, i mean, it is seriously my one true passion. and i know that that sounds lame, but i really mean it, because i seriously NEED to do this for myself. and im going to do everything that i possibly can to go to the best college that i can get into for that field. the better the degree or whatever that i can get, the closer that i can get to doing what i want. and i just wish that he could understand that. i know it's sad, but i mean, i've been wanting this FOREVER. longer then he has been in my life. and i know that might sound bad, but there are some things that are just too important to give up. and this is one of them.. i mean, i dont want to leave him or anything, and that isn't what i would do. but i know he still doesnt "like" it, and just ugh >.<

this entry has been long enough.
sorry guys.


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