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37.

  • 08/12/09 4:24 am



[font=century gothic]Brian, my lizard, died today :(.

ugh.

but i went bowling,
it was okayyy. i didnt really feel like going,
but binh always makes me feel better :).

i played animal crossing a lot too :P,
i missed that game.

X3
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36. go on, go on, go on, the stars are watching..

  • 08/11/09 4:39 am


[font=georgia]just say, just say, just say what your feeling.
its okay.[/font]


[font=century gothic][color=black]Hello =].


Well, here I am eight months later :P. Weird, i was looking at my entries and my last entry was right on the first day of 2009! Everything has FLOWN by since then, o.o; odd.

Anyway, where to begin?!

I honestly don't even know what to update on XD who knows what has happened since last time?

I guess i will just give a quick summary of how life is now :].

Well i'm 17 years old. I live with my friend, Thuy and her family. I still go see my parents, though. They seem to be okay for the time being. Still not great enough for me to feel like moving back there, though >< sadly. My dad still drinks quite a bit, and yes, he still has that nasty temper, too. But i try to keep my mom happy as much as i can :D. I'm going to be a senior this year!

I'm really excited :D. trust me, im not going to miss highschool, haha. I really just can't wait until i'm done with it and have no worries X3 that will be THE DAY. Ha. I still work at subway (eat fresh ;D). I also have another job though, i'm a dishwasher/table busser at american pie. which is a pizza buffet place :D. i work everyday.

Today was my first day off :D. haha. and i didn't even do anything special OR productive.

As a matter of fact, i've been worrying about my lizard Brian all day :( [yes i still have him, too for those that remember :P]. I'm afraid he's sick, or something. So i've been running to the pet store and trying to look online for things all day. hopefully i can do something to make him better D: otherwise i don't know what i'll do. Urg.

I still take pictures all the time :]. I took pictures of my friend Carly and her boyfriend chad for their one year anniversary :D they turned out realllly nice, i think. Her cousin saw them, then requested that i come to her wedding to take pictures :D i'm so exicted that someone actually like them <3 it made my month, haha.

Binh and me are still good, too :D. he gave me a promise ring! its so pretty :] no one has ever given me a ring before. i really like it. and we've almost been together for a year :D weird, haha. we dont have an actual date though :P but oh well. just a rough general month.

And i think that's pretty much everything?
Sheesh how can i sum up a year so quickly?

Well quite frankly i really don't have much of a life anymore o.o; it's so weird.
I was just reading some past journal entries from my old journal, and i realize that i had much more of a life when i was younger than i do now! its sad :[
I actually had friends, XD. I really don't anymore :/ i mean, i do, but it isn't the same as before. I don't ever hangout with people anymore, it's really weird. But at the same time the people that i do see, i absolutely love them :D. So i guess I can't really complain.

The people that i used to talk to , i just think that something inside me lost interest in them. Them and their drama, yes they STILL have drama. all the time. and im much happier to be rid of that :D. i love it.

Haha i dont mean to sound depressed or anything. I'm not even sure if i do, i think i just think i sound that way? If that makes sense at all, ha. I think i'm really just having a flashback day, which brought me to kiwibox :P. I feel like this website has been my friend through basically my whole teenage life, which is weird, but funny =D.

But i think i'm going to start writing in here more often :] I kind of miss it. And looking back at my old entries, i realized that I'd really like to have more to look at later on during this time, not just a huge blank during this part of my life. Honestly, it might be the most important :].

I feel like there is no going back now, you know? No going back to the old days. I have jobs now, responsibilities, and i'm almost done with highschool. Then i'll be moving on to college, starting my life o.o; scary thoughts. but it's reality :].

and i'd like to write about it :D.

so, tata for now <3.
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35. down down.

  • 01/12/09 5:28 am
[font=terminal]


ever have those times where
you just beat yourself up
about everything? even if its
something you haven't really
thought about in awhile, but
you still feel like such a
horrid person?



o.o

34. i'll take you for who you are.

  • 12/31/08 9:16 am
[font=verdana]ALMOST 2OO9....[/font]


[font=terminal][color=black]so its new years day :]. well sort of, its 4 am. haha.

and its super super windy out by the way o.o i can hear it like CRAZY. it's been like this every night though now that i think about it.... kind of weird. it might be snowing too? thats what my weather thingy says :x who knowsss.

anyways. i miss him so much guys :[. i'm going to be seventeen pretty soon here, but we still have another year :[. i can't stand never being able to spend a whole lot of time with him without having to worry about it not being obvious to anyone else. it sucks that there are only so many hours in the night when we can sit up and talk, but yet were both oh so tired :/ or like right now when im awake and he's sleeping :[. ughh.

i've never found someone so perfect for me, but why is it that it doesn't seem to be able to work out because no one wants it to, for now? :/ ughhhh. but yet at the same time ive never been happier, cause i am glad :]. i understand why it has to be this way, and its so worth the wait, its just hard sometimes i guess. but i'd wait forever if i had to, honest. it'll just make that one day so much better :] right?

oh i bought a book thats specifically for my camera :]. i've been reading it and found out so many things i had no idea it could do, lol, im so excited :].


p.s. sleepwalking is a creepy thing.

33.

  • 12/28/08 7:06 pm
[font=terminal]

i can't believe this year is almost over o.o
its so weird! and in a month i'm going to be SEVENTEEN,
SEVENTEEN!? wtf, i feel like i just turned 16.
sheeeeeesh.

i mean im excited don't get me wrong :) its just so odd!

And christmas pretty much FLEWW by. but it wasn't exactly the best christmas i've ever had :/.

I spent christmas eve crying on my grandpas shoulder for about an hour. he has cancer :/ and i haven't even gone to see him. i felt so so so so so bad, so bad, but i was so scared to see him so sick like that, because he's always been so healthy and strong, it makes me so sad to see him suffering :[. but i think he'll be okay, they got most of it out, but he has to go through some kemo(sp?).

but christmas day was a little better. i went with my mom and we saw her biological family, and me and thuy played rock band :D my little cousin got it for christmas lol. then we went to see my dad's mom, which was nice i guess. i didn't want to go so much, because sometimes my grandma bothers me >.< but then i felt bad because she got me a giftcard and was nice when we went there, lol. she's just said some things about my mom that i didnt like >.< in the past. but oh well.

then me and thuy went and saw the curious case of benjamin button <3. i love it! it was really depressing though :X but i really did like it it was a good movie :] different too.

oh and i bought batman begins and the dark knight yesterday :) i had a walmart giftcard. haha, i love the batman movies, i don't know why <3. i mostly just wanted batman begins though, but i figured i might as well get the dark knight, cause it's not bad :).

nothing much else is newwww. we just got back from church awhile ago, and im RELAXING :] because there is no work today or tomorrow, back again on teusday >.< but i want more hours, really bad.

bleh.

anyway, nothing much else is new :].
merry christmas to everyone!
even though its over :P.
oh well, it can still be merry.



byeeeee!
:)

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