so me and thuy had our "fun day" yesterday :p. since schools starting and all that nonsense. bleh :/. we went school shoppinggg :D. which was fun, but i found no jeans, i dont know why i have such bad luck with them :[ and the jeans that DO fit me are way to expensive to buy D: ugh. but i did find a bunch of shirts :D and i have at least 4 pairs of jeans, so i'll be okay for now :]. we also went and saw tropic thunder with her brotherr. and it was okay:]. it wasn't as funny as a thought... but it wasnt bad a guess:]. i really want to see some other movies coming out though, like death race! and this one called the infinite playlist of nick and nora, it looks so goodd.

oh and im trying to teach her how to play guitar :p. im not an expert myself, but i've taught myself quite a bit, so im trying to teach her the basics. but its kind of hard because she doesnt have an electic yet, so im trying to teach her on an accoustic, which is extremely different :/ but it works.

and today we were trying to get some community service done, but we didn't end up doing anything. buttttt, we're doing service at the senior center all this week [except wed. because we have orientation], and then the library for awhile tomorrow, and then her church. so that should get us close to 3O hours, and it'll make me super busy lol because i've been pretty lazy these last couple weeks, not gonna lie. D:

so anywhoo, thats about it. friday im going to rachels party, which im thinking i wont have too much fun at D: but she's one of my bestfriends, so she'll definatly just have to appreciate me being there. heh :p.


peace<3.

ugh. i dont really feel that great today :/. and why? because of my stupid ex. and the fact that im supidly letting the fact of him and his new girlfriend bug me. seriously? i dont even know why, because i dont even like him anymore, not one bit, but for some reason their relationship still stings. its weird and i hate it, because it puts me in this rediculous mood where i feel all hopeless and crap. i think what hit me was seeing his sister comment one of his new girlfriends pictures, saying like, your so pretty love ya sis! or something like that. idk why, but that just killed me? i got a long with his family but now i feel all insecure that i was probably a drag and they all hated me or something, idk. i think i just feel like i wasn't good enough or something, and that's why im here now all alone and stuff. well not alone.. that sounded dramatic lol. but you know what i mean. it makes me feel like i just sucked or something, because i know the reason he broke up with me was her. i mean he fed me some bullshit about just missing his friends? but he has like.. two. and i was the one always encouraging to go see them instead of me, because he ALWAYS wnted to hangout. so no, that was not the right excuse.

i dont even know why im thinking about this! it was like three months ago and im supposed to be done and over with it now and forget it. but its not even working :/ and i dont even know why. he's an idiot, and why im letting him upset me is beyond the friggin sun.

i think im just pathetic. idk. whatever.


blahhhhhhhh.:/