Fizzykiss , 32

Sleep is something i'm not getting much of tonight. I went to bed around 11, and woke up at 1:30 and I've been up since. Its 3 right now and I gave up on sleeping and decided to get online for a bit to see if this would help me.

This couldn't come at a worst time. I have so much I need to do today.

[(k)]Jazzy has to be at school at 8:30.
[(k)]I gotta go pick D's check up and take it to the bank around 9.
[(k)]I have to get oil change on D's car.
[(k)]Drop D's car off at his work and pick mine up so he can go home and pack everything into the car.
[(k)]I have to run to Target for 2 christmas presents for this weekend
[(k)]I need take the portable oxygen tank to be filled
[(k)]I need to pick up dry cleaning since my husband forgot to do it last night.
[(k)]I'm supposed to have lunch with D's mom today.
[(k)]Pick Jazzy up at 1, and we are planning on leaving right away after that.

oh what fun.

I went to the doctors today after finding out that I bought some contaminated water which is most likely the reason I've been so sick and no one else is. Oh joy.


Tomorrow we are supposed to be leaving for Laughlin, NV. As of right now that all depends on how I am feeling tomorrow at noon. If I'm feeling up to it we will be leaving when we pick Jazzy up from school at 1. Otherwise we won't be leaving until Saturday morning.

Less than 1 week now until I get my test results. I'm so stressed about this and all these lovely dreams I've been having aren't helping. Not to mention everyone playing doctor and bringing up things that it could possibly be. Why can't people just humor me and let me think its my thyroid.

I'm still not feeling good. I'm starving but know if I eat anything I'm going to be sick again.

I wasn't feeling good last night so I went to bed at 7. Felt a little better around noon so Robbie, Jay, and I walked up to get Jazzy from school and on the way home I got sick again and have been sick since. I slept from like 4 to almost 7 and gonna go back to bed soon. UGH!

Glad its now and not this weekend since we are going to Laughlin for Christmas party with my best friend and her family.

Then next Wed (hopefully) we are leaving for Oregon.

SO we sat down and talked yesterday. Patrick was alot calmer than I had expected. He told me that he was going to talk to the people from the band and see if they would be willing to confront his brother with him, but that he needs to find a place to stay first.

I feel kind of bad for him because he doesn't want to move in with his mom, because of the way she is, and the fact that she can't be around the kids (at all, per court order). His grandmother lives 100 miles away so she's really not an option.

He said the same thing I did. This was the final straw for his brother. He was there for him the last time, saw him through rehab, but he's back into this scene. Not for the drugs but for the money. If it was an addiction to the drugs would be one thing, but he's putting himself and family in danger because he's addicted to having money and all.

Anyway, and today my husband is pissing me off.