GumonyerShoe , 27

12:30 AM

Well I don't really know what all to write about but I feel like I've kind of abandoned Kiwi...

School's going fairly well, though I'm kind of behind in some readings. Didn't realize they were assigned in the syllabus and she wasn't telling us to read them. So I've been kind of trying to get caught up with that.

Romeo and Juliet is coming along farily well. We open on Friday. I hope that we have everything together before then!!

I'm going to Vermont with my drama ministry team over Spring Break.

Quick guy note:
Planning on going to meet Mike during Easter Break (different from Spring Break). Mike said that he didn't want to make us "official" until we had met in person, but other than that I'd say that we basically are. We talked on the phone for the first time recently. Didn't talk much 'cause neither of us likes the phone much and we were both on our cellphones and mine's a pre-paid, so I didn't really have a lot of time I could use on mine. And we were both still at our computers... video confrencing kind of 'cause we had our web cams turned on. He bought a phone card for us to share so that while I'm on Spring Break we can still talk. Oh, he has a very nice voice. :o) I can't wait to hang out with him for real!!
Right now he's off with friends at a movie or something. :op Augh! It's terrible being so far away!!

I guess that'll be it for now. that's basically all that's up in my life any how.

Oh, parents are going to go to a new church in the morning. BJ and I are going to go to our old church. I didn't care either way so I left the decision on where BJ and I would go up to BJ 'cause I didn't want him to get stuck with a decision being forced on him.

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TheMomma : yep yep. and I've not had time to really read anyone's journals... :o(

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..*Mike* Holds the key to my heart.. <3
..Who Holds the key to yours?..

2:30 PM

It's been a hugely long time since I've written... I guess I'll just kind of rough over view "I'm alive this is basically what I've been doing."

So... I've been schooling it... talking with Mike and Ben a lot... Working... *shrugs* Uhm... Nothing overly exciting.

Mike and I have grown really close, but he has said that we can't become "official" or anything other than just good friends until after we meet in person. Kevin (friend from Brasil) tells me I need to take a break from all guys for a while... I wouldn't mind having an excuse to "get rid" of Ben and some of the others but the last thing I ever wanna do is "get rid" of Mike.

School's going great though... I like all my classes. Bible Study's getting started again. OOMITS is going again.

*thinking* Yeah... I guess that's basically it. Nothing exciting.

I keep my diaryland diary more up to date though I've been slacking there too...

Oh, we had snow... Got out of school for snow... might've written about that already...

I didn't go to school this past Thursday because of snow... There was classes but I didn't go. :op

Well I think I am going to close 'cause I'm boring myself.

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..*Mike* Holds the key to my heart.. <3
..Who Holds the key to yours?..

7:36 PM

I don't know what I wanna write about...

so much for my silence from Mark. I've been talking with him for the past couple days but I've been holding firm and not giving in and playing around and stuff. He's back on block. I just don't know if I can resist all the time. and he really has to get over me because while I do care about him, we cannot be together. And Mike is so much better for me.

Talked with Ben over web cam night before last. His beard has come in so well. I have always liked how he looked but now he's like really "cute" in my opinion. He said that I'm the only one who seems to like his beard though. :op

Spring Break is going to be incredible if I can manage to get out of going with my drama team and go to Memphis. 'casue I'll have like a week with Mike and then if Ben still comes to my house for his Spring Break then I'll have a week with Ben.

I really like Mike. We've been getting really close lately it seems. Talking a lot. And about stuff that he doesn't share with everyone. And we took all those quizzes today and were telling each other the results we got and stuff.

And last night we were going to watch Who's Line "together" but my mom was playing Nintendo so I couldn't. :op But he told me what was happening and stuff.

I slipped and called him "hun" the other day (like I use it and 'dear' when I'm playing around and being sarcastic and stuff. But I had held back from using them becasue I didn't know if it'd make him uncomfortable or whatever) But he kinda teased me about it and then said he didn't mind and called me hun back. :o)

Oh man we'd have so much fun together. We've just talked about so many things and he's talked about like when he does stuff that I think is totally fun (like quoting movies and stuff) and people look at him like he's crazy and I'm just like "DUDE! That's so much fun!" and aww man.

If anyone discovers how to teleport, let us know 'cause we really wanna be with each other.

8:43 PM

Grr. Mike and I were talking all day so that's cool and everything. But he's "away" right now and I'm sitting here alone watching music videos, playing with my web cam and editing the pictures. Why oh why do I have to live so dumping far away?

Ever hear of a Texas de Brazil? Me neither. But Mike talked about it earlier and said that'd be a good place to go when I get to go visit him. :o)

7:13 PM

Thursday my boss sent me home an hour early because of the snow and stuff was getting bad out. She scared me though 'cause I wasn't expecting anyone to come in and I had my headphones on and music turned up to help keep me awake and I had message windows with Mike and Ben up on my screen. She didn't say anything about it jsut said that I needed to head home before it got bad out.

Then Friday they canceled classes 'cause it was too bad out. That's just like crazyness. Colleges hardly ever cancel classes!

We had like maybe 3 inches? I don't know but it was/is a lot.

So I've been home and online a lot the past couple days. Been talking with Mike a lot. Good stuff. :o)

That's basically all that's been going on. Just talking with Mike a lot.

Been messing around with Diaryland some...

Mike and I took a bunch of quizzes today... Fun stuff.

I'm trying to figure out how to get out of going to Vermont with my drama team over Spring Break so that I can go to Memphis to be with Mike instead. I think my parents would rather me go to Vermont if possible though. But I really want to be with Mike. We've been waiting so long!
Then Ben's spring break starts right after mine and he's planning on coming here so that'll be cool and crazy at the same time. A week with Mike and then a week with Ben!

Well I guess there really isn't much to talk about with out going to the guy journal... Don't know if I'll go write there or not.

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shampoo10 : That stinks that your school restricts those sites. But I can also understand. I guess the reason they don't for mine is because it's a college and they can't restrict it as much... Well they could, but it'd be a bigger deal.

TheMomma : yep yep.

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I took the first part of this from my diaryland diary 'cause I'm just too lazy to write another diary entry for here and for my fysh diary. So this part in ... uhm... this aqua-ie blue colour is from diaryland. The purple part is new and just for this journal.

Ok while I'm at work I tend to get sleepy. I discovered with Kevin and expounded upon it with BJ that this is perhaps due to lack of mental stimulation. See, my job I enter children and spouses and such into the computer data base. I don't see anyone and no one sees or talks with me. I just close myself up in my office and type away and that's that.

When I was in the basement, before the new web development guy came, my area was near the department fridge. The department fridge is a wonderful thing. There are drinks in there and sodas are a quarter and bottles of water are 30 cents. So when I started to get sleepy I'd just go grab me a drink. Well, then my area was moved. I now have my own office and people aren't going through it all the time. But I also don't have the fridge. So I've been trying to figure out what I'm going to do to stay awake.

When I was in the basement I had brought my CD player and headpohones and power cord and stuff, but there aren't any plugs near where my computer is now.

I tried "Annaka Boredom Buster" e-mails... sent a couple of those... but those take me away from my actual job for good hunks of time and they really don't help that much because there's still no constant "mental stimulation" with another human being (because you see, whether I (or you) like it or not, humans are social creatures.)

Well, I began to think. Mike got a cool phone that has AIM on it. I looked some online into that but they don't have service in my area or something stupid like that. Besides, I don't have enough money to keep that up. I looked around my computer for MSN messenger but it's a NT so it doesn't have it already installed (XP comes with it installed. I found it on the computer lab computers. They hide it, but they can't hide it from someone who even remotely knows what they're doing. bwhahaha) MSN messenger wouldn't really help a whole lot though. I mean, Ben uses MSN sometimes but Mike doesn't as far as I know.

So I continued to think. I needed some way to use AIM, but I didn't want to download anything on my computer. That could be bad since it isn't really my computer, it's the Advancement office's.

Then it occurred to me (!), AIM Express! That's what you use when you can't use a downloaded AIM, right? Right. So, bada bing, bada boom I signed in (luckily I could remember my password. I was a little worried about that since I just have it locked in on my computer).

Talked with Mike and he told me he was glad that I remembered the rule about IMing him while he was away. And I said "Yeah, well I was commanded to IM you." or something like that and he smiled and said "Yeah" or something like that.

So today I did it again. We had a conversation running like the whole time I was at work (I actually ended up signing on around 1 I think and stayed until 4:15) We talked about all sorts of things. Lunch, what was going on around his office, a little about his ex... He asked me if talking about his ex made me uncomfortable. I admitted that it did a little bit on the one hand, but on the other hand I was glad that he was comfortable enough with me to discuss such things.

I was trying to figure out how to explain what my "problem" with it was. I guess I just hear about them and stuff and I worry that they'll get back together or something before I even have a chance since she's still in the area and stuff. He told me though "That bridge burned completely." So I guess I don't need to worry... and then again, I'm clear on the other side of the state. But I've decided that he's the one I care about most and most want a "chance" with. And I like him a lot. I mean we've always talked a lot and stuff. There's been very few times in the 6 1/2 months we've known each other that we've not talked at least once a day. But lately we've been talking a lot more since he has his phone with AIM and I'm online a lot too. And... I don't know. I just... I guess I shouldn't get jealous... I mean he's not "mine."

That's the funny thing... Like Ben, I don't think I'm jealous at the thought of him having other close female friends or whatever. And I mean it's hypocritical of me to think jealously of Mike when I have close guy friends other than him... Actually I don't even think that's the issue... I don't know how to put into words what it is that my issue is. *sighs*

Oh, and it's not like he's been hanging out with her or anything. Or even seen her. He was just telling me about how one song brings back good memories about her...

On another note, have you tried the coffee oreos? They're good. So are the mint ones.

As for school, it's going GREAT! I love my classes. Even my Tuesday/Thursday 8 AM speech class. I continue to love Mr Robertson. I should write some about what he said to me today... I'll write about that later I guess.

I have Intro to Sociology, American Minorities (same professor same classroom, with an hour break between. Kind of confusing since so far they're dealing with similar stuff), an introductionish computer course (right now we're still going over stuff like "No, the thing that looks like a TV is called a monitor.") which I had to take for a general education requirement and before I took any other computer classes if I wanted to take any others. And I have a speech class and basic acting. A good schedule. Not real difficult.

My speech class has a bit of a conflict with my acting class in that my speech teacher (who is MrRobertson's wife) prefers for females to wear skirts, but MrRobertson was rather pleased that none of the girls were wearing skirts. When I present a speech she would prefer I wear a skirt. *sighs* So that's ... interesting. Mrs Robertson is a bit of a... control freak? Regardless... She's OK, but I much prefer Mr Robertson. And I do think she'll probably be my least favourite teacher. My soc. teacher is my advisor and I like him. Mr Robertson is my other advisor though... and I like him too. My computer prof is...crazy. But cool...

Any way... I think that's basically it... *sighs* Kinda tired...

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The Faithful Two

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shampoo10 : His phone is cool. And that's cool that you guys kept in touch! That's part of what I've loved about school being back. Seeing all my friends!

TheMomma : hehe Well, I was helping my parents with AIM... That was interesting. Guess new technology can just be difficult to understand and get sometimes.

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