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10/29/09 2:43 am

I get the feeling I'm not going to like the new Kiwibox because I'm already having all kinds of problems with the site. Hmmm we'll see.
A quick update seeing I never use Kiwi anymore. I'm a semester and a half away from graduating college. So surreal! After graduation I will be moving with Frank to whichever Air Force Base he gets stationed at. We're hoping for Ohio seeing it's still near home but we'll find out in about a month when they give him his orders. He leaves for 3 long months of Officer School in January and I'm already so sad about it. Not looking forward to it at all. :(
Butttt he's been ring shopping! :D We've talked a lot about marriage and, once he has the money saved up, we'll be engaged. Which means by January because he said he wants to leave for training with a ring on my finger. I'm way too excited! I love him so much and I know this is who I want to spend forever with. :)
Other than that, life's been the same routine pretty much. Been having a great time :) Now for some pictures to update you girls!

my second trip to West Virginia over Labor Day break

my sorority minus the new class of 13

moving into my dorm

with my two littles in the sorority

boyfriend, me, sorority sister, and boyfriend's sister when we spent a weekend working at Cedar Point

the roses Frank got me for Sweetest Day :)

visiting the Air Force Base in Dayton, Ohio that Frank might get stationed at (at least we're hoping he does!)

I love my fiance <3

my most favorite picture of us ever

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CCtheActress, essencexofxtear, mashuki, megan247, popluver, SatansGift666, Sugar_xxx, thumper68, x_anyotherway_x

help!

09/21/09 3:39 am

Can you please help me compare these pictures? I have a huge decision to make and I don't know what to do. Someone told me I look happier with my current boyfriend than my ex, but I'm not so sure... :/

Oops!

08/25/09 1:55 am

Oops.....I posted at 11:59 instead of midnight so go back and read yesterday's entry please. It's important! Thanks! :)

- Kati

I'd be lying if I told you losing you was something I could handle

08/24/09 3:59 am

Wow I have a lot of updating to do. So much has changed since the last entry...not all of it is entirely good, either. We'll start with the simple things: my summer job is wrapping up so I'm looking for a school year but, so far, no luck...my internship is done which is sad but kind of relaxing too as I now have time to breathe...and I move back to campus on Saturday and definitely still have a TON of packing to do because I hate packing so I keep putting it off.

Now for the not so simple. I know this will sound completely out of nowhere but Frank and I broke up....it was my idea. I don't quite know how to put it. For a little while I've been feeling like something just wasn't quite right. I couldn't really place my finger on it but it felt like something was missing, like my heart wasn't fully in it. Then along came one of my guy friends, who's been my friend for awhile now. We started talking a bit more and it came out that he was a little interested in me. He knew I had a boyfriend and he had a girlfriend so I figured it was harmless and we decided to hang out. Well, I guess it wasn't so harmless. We hung out and had a great time together. He had me smiling and laughing constantly and it felt like whatever was missing with Frank and my relationship was found with my friend. Before I knew it, he was telling me about how he felt the same way with his girlfriend; he knew it wasn't working but just didn't know what to do. I couldn't explain it but it was like he was completing that void for me. I also began to realize that I was terrified about Frank going away to the Air Force and I didn't want to be forced to move away from here and try to find a career where he was. I wanted to have the freedom to do whatever I wanted wherever I wanted, not be trapped at an Air Force base. All this combined equalled a ton of panic and I found myself starting to lean more and more toward my friend and less and less toward Frank. So, finally, I knew I had to make a choice...I chose my friend.

The pain is overwhelming. I really think Cory (my friend) is a great guy and he makes me so happy but I miss Frank and I hate knowing how much I tore his world apart. He and I still talk a little so I'm reminded every day of how destroyed he is. I broke his heart into a million tiny pieces and I can't really put it back together. It hurts me so much to know how much he's suffering. But, at the same time, I can't seem to convince myself to walk away from Cory and get back with Frank because I know I'd still be trapped in that Air Force life and the bigger issues of whatever was making me feel like my heart wasn't in it would still be there. But it's like my whole being wants to deny that he isn't the one. I hate this so much and I really don't know what to do. I just want the pain to stop. My heart chose Cory so why am I hurting so much over Frank?

my current favorite picture of me

riding a giant inflatable lizard at my internship lol

the summer 2009 interns

meeting Thriving Ivory

meeting Sean Kingston

meeting Jesse James

meeting Boys Like Girls

meeting Flo Rida (who I also drove to the airport at 4am that night)

this would be Cory...dying from a 2000 piece puzzle we were trying to do

me dead from the same puzzle

Cory and I

what do you think?

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essencexofxtear, popluver, Sugar_xxx, x_anyotherway_x

but I know one thing, that I love you <3

08/11/09 3:47 am

Yea, I'm really bad at this updating thing lol. Oh well, I have a good excuse. For being summer vacation, I haven't really relaxed at all. It's been super busy! My internship is almost done, though, and my summer class has it's final on Tuesday so hopefully then I can relax for the last two weeks of my summer vacation before classes start back up.

This past weekend I had my summer retreat with my sorority. It wasn't quite as fun as last year because we had it at a new place but it was a good time. I enjoy hanging out with my sisters and I missed them! So that was a nice time.

Been spending lots of time with the boyfriend too. Our three month anniversary is coming up on the 20th. I must admit, I've fallen hard for that boy. I don't think I can really picture life without him. I hope I never have to!

I guess that's really all the blab for now. I leave you with some pictures of what I've been up to the past few weeks. Enjoy! :)