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Heyyyy. How's everybody doing? I'm good here. Had a kickass day, for sure. Got lots of sleep and had a huge bowl of cereal when I got up. Then I drove my ass over to Alison's house and we went in my car to pick up Alex about 20-30 minutes away. Then we picked up Angela and met Andrzej at the beach near Alison's house. The five of us ran around and played at the beach and ran into Colleen and some of her friends who we talked to for awhile. Eventually we were getting kind of cold so we met up with Alison's mom and some of her family at Lonestar for food. Sat at our own table across the resturant and just had a frickin' hilarrious time. That same group needs to hang out some more. Eventually Andrzej and Alex left and I came home around 6 for dinner with my mom. Now I'm just chillin' reminiscing the fun we had. We're thinking of crashing Laura's someday to hit the hot tub and, oh shit, the boys are coming. I can't lie, Andrzej is very hot. I'd so do him lol. But it was hella fun. Aww and he just called me too. :) He's a cutie.

But yea lol. Tomorrow is Max's last day home so he's calling me whenever he's up and wants to go out. Then he's gonna come get me and we're gonna spend the day together. Will be kind of sad cuz I'll miss him when he's at school and we're just fixing everything and making everything work out and now he's leaving. It sucks cuz it's kinda like leaving "us" incomplete. But maybe we can make it all work out tomorrow so it'll be all good when he goes back Saturday morning.

Well, I guess that's the deali-o from here. I'll leave you with just a couple pictures of the cool people I hung with today. Have a good one and I'll talk to y'all later. Adios!

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Alison in my car at the beach today

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I didn't get a picture of Alex but yea...that's Alex lol

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Andrzej at the beach today *drool inserted here*

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Angela at Lonestar

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in case you missed it yesterday, my Prom dress

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the bust of my dress

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the back

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the dress with the shawl it came with

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me!



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So if you didn't read yesterday's entry...go read it!! And now on to today. Today was pretty fun, actually. First time I've gone out for Spring Break this week, woohoo! My grandma came and picked me up at 10 this morning and we went to the mall for the day. Had breakfast at Denny's and walked around looking at all kinds of stuff. I left with some body milk that's honey scented and really nice and a PROM DRESS! I, of course, enclosed pictures. It's really pretty and was only (with tax) $105. Not bad at all! So yay for getting a Prom dress.

Tomorrow I'm hanging out with Alison, my Prom date (Alex), her Prom date (Andrzej) I think, Angela, and Erin. Should be a pretty crazy time. Then Friday I'm going to spend like the entire day with Max.

Speaking of Max...everything's all better. We talked this morning and we're back together. And, trust me, I couldn't be happier. :D So yay for everything looking up.

Well, I think that's it. I'm off to watch American Idol. I'll talk to y'all later. Have a good one. Adios.

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picture me...

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...in this

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a close up of the top of it

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the back so you can see the ties

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and it even came with a cute little shawl!

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Hello again. First of all, I want to say thanks to those of you who left such sweet comments yesterday. You definitely helped me feel a lot better. I don't like the break but I've decided that I'm just going to keep on living and eventually maybe he'll realize how stupid of an idea a break was and he'll come back. And he knows I'll take him back easily. So I guess we'll just let nature run its course, so-to-speak. But, in the meantime, it's Spring Break so I'm gonna have funnnnn! Sitting at home moping won't change a thing, so screw that! I shed my tears yesterday and now I'm done. So pssssh lol.

So today I just took a shower and have played it lazy today. Just sounded nice so I thought why not!? Tomorrow I'm going to the mall with my grandma to get presents for my cousin's bridal shower to give to the guests and to look at prom dresses, graduation dresses, and prom/graduation shoes. Not to mention we're going out to eat too. So it'll be some nice bonding time. Will keep my mind of stupid boys too so much needed. Then Thursday I'm going out with my girl, Alison, and our Prom dates and others so we can all get to know each other before we all go to Prom together. I talked to my date, Alex, today and he said he was free Thursday so woohoo for that! Should be a fun time. Lots of hot guys lol. Then Friday will be the interesting day. Max is coming to get me and we're going back to his house. That will be a very emotional day. He goes back to school Saturday morning so he wants to see me, but I think there's just going to be so much running through my head that I'll probably cry a lot. But I know he expects it. He called me last night and 95% of the conversation had me in tears and a really shaky voice. It was horrible. The worst part was telling him not to say he loves me or anything because if we're "taking a break" then I can't be his girlfriend right now, I have to just be a friend. That was hard to say. Supposedly he's going to email me when he gets home from work to try and explain what he's thinking and what's going on. I'll be sure to share that with you guys. So Friday should be interesting. I took my ring off and I told him I'll give it back on Friday. I'm not really looking forward to Friday lol. But then Saturday I'm going to a jewelry party with my mom and she said she'd buy me something to make me happy. So yay for that. It's really pretty jewelry too so it should be real nice. Then Sunday will probably just be sitting at home getting ready to go back to school. Fun fun.

So I guess that's about it from here. I'm just listening to "mood music" and eating lots of unhealthy stuff to cheer myself up. And I'm talking to this guy that I like and that's helping a lot. He's definitely special to me. :)

Well, I guess that covers it from here. Have a good one and I'll talk to y'all later. Adios!

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Alison and I at Homecoming this year

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my Prom date, Alex, and I at play practice

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me as a little girl

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me all grown up


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Well, it's Spring Break and I'm just sitting at home chilling. It's 53*, sunny, and just so damn nice. Unfortunately, I don't feel peppy like I should with such nice weather but that's not really in my control. Max and I split up. Well, I guess I shouldn't say we split up cuz we didn't really break up or anything. We're "taking a break". It wasn't my decision, but I guess it had to be done. He's been pulling away from everyone lately. He said himself that for the past two months something's been bothering him but he just doesn't really know what it is. Well, I talked to Christian about it because I've found he makes a good person to go to when down or confused or whatever. So I talked to him and he really made things make sense. Max is basically burning out. He's got too much on his plate at one time. He can't quit work, he can't quit school, and he can't quit the frat. The only thing he can really "get rid of" so-to-speak is me. He has no time to himself. It was a long conversation with Christian, over an hour, but in the end it all made sense and I knew what had to be done. So I talked to Max and told him that I want him to be happy and if he needs to take a break so he has time to himself to think and figure out what he really wants, then I have to respect that because I love him and love is about making sacrifices. I think that conversation was the hardest thing I've ever done.

me(2:14:11 PM): i just want you to be happy
max(2:17:07 PM): i know, i might want to take a break
me(2:17:23 PM): i know
me(2:17:28 PM): i could see it coming
me(2:17:41 PM): you just have to do what's best for you
me(2:17:47 PM): and if that doesn't include me, then oh well
max(2:19:26 PM): im sorry, but i think i need to do it
me(2:20:30 PM): honestly, i think you do too. you worry about me too much. do what's right for you.
max(2:20:49 PM): i am worried about you though
me(2:21:06 PM): don't be
max(2:21:44 PM): you cant tell me your not upset
me(2:21:55 PM): you're right, i can't
me(2:24:40 PM): nor will i try to
max(2:32:58 PM): i gotta go to the store
max(2:34:54 PM): i still love you
max(2:34:59 PM): i just need some time right now
me(2:35:13 PM): i know
max(2:35:22 PM): im sorry
me(2:35:26 PM): ok
max(2:35:58 PM): i love you
max 2:35:59 PM): bye
me(2:36:11 PM): bye

I couldn't say I love you back. Not because I don't but because I'm too close to tears right now. I can't lie, it hurts really bad. All I can do is hope and pray that this break won't last long and we'll be back together soon and happy. I guess all I can do now is cross my fingers, say a couple prayers, and try not to worry about it. :\ Easier said then done, though, sadly.

But let's try to think of happier thoughts. Ummm...I'm going shopping on Wednesday with my grandma. We're going to get gifts for my cousin's bridal shower to give the guests and look at prom dresses and graduation dresses/shoes for me just so I know where to look at stuff when I go to buy one with my mom. And we're gonna have breakfast and lunch out too. Gets me out of the house and my grandma's fun and it'll keep me busy which I guess I need now even more than when she invited me. So that's cool.

What else? I think that's it. Guess I'm a single girl now...not sure if I like that or not. I just really hope this doesn't stay this way forever. But I'm done now. I leave you with pictures just to make me feel better. I'll talk to y'all later. Have a good one. Adios.

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our first date, August of 2003

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Homecoming 2003

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January 2004

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Homecoming 2004

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September 2004

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Halloween 2004

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completely trashed (lol) Thanksgiving of 2004

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Valentine's Day of this year

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last month...the last picture of the two of us I have

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my favorite picture of me so I'm posting it again to make me smile

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being a seducer...is it working? ;)

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don't you love the sheets on my bed?

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I was faking looking sad...now I really look like that :
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reposting this for my favorite subby ;)

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the last big smile I've had

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my belly button in the mirror...I think it's healing good...I hope it's healing good lol

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you can tell a lot when you look in someone's eyes

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and, lastly, in the sun



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Happy Easter! It's kIwIKT6 on a new screen name. Somehow all my journals got deleted from my old name so I decided it gave me an excuse for a fresh start. So here I am. For those who never read my old journal, I'll make today's entry a basic rundown of who I am and give you some pictures for an idea too. Let's see...my name's Kati. I'm 17 (almost 18) and from Michigan, near Detroit. I have a boyfriend named Max (he's 20) who I've been with for a year and a half. I'm a senior in high school and have only one month left (woohoo!) before I graduate. Ummm...I don't really know what else to say about me. Hopefully I can get all my old subbies back and make many new ones too! So welcome to my journal and enjoy!

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me

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me again

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easter eggs!

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my boyfriend (at my house)

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boyfriend again (in his room)

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my belly button that I just got pierced on Thursday

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today in my Easter outfit