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02/23/09 4:43 am

Wow, I've been slacking in updating. Oops! lol. I've been quite busy so it's been hard to get on here. Since my Valentine's Day entry, I've done quite a bit. First couple days after I just had a lot of homework and class. Hung out wiht my bff Skibbe one night trying to put pink in my hair but it didn't really work. I'm going to need to bleach my hair first, I think. It's only showed up in like two spots so we're going to need to fix that lol. Wednesday I had class all day and then I went to Flint for the night to spend the night with Larry. We were both pretty tired so we pretty much just laid around and watched DVDs and smoked a little until we decided to go to bed. It's always nice to fall asleep in someone's arms and wake up next to them...even if we are "just friends". *rolls eyes*

Thursday when we woke up we just laid around for awhile before finally getting dressed and ready for the day. We went to lunch at McDonald's and then I said bye to him and headed downstate to go home for the weekend. Had Taco Bell for dinner with my parents and just took it easy here at my parents' house. Friday was just a relaxing day around the house and then yesterday was the real fun day.

Besides a big blizzard yesterday, last night I went with my family to a Black and White Ball. It was a fundraiser for our church that was a dinner/silent auction/dance/open bar. So I got to get all dressed up and drink A LOT of Sex on the Beach...I think I had a total of like 7 or 8 and then a cranberry and vodka too. It was a lot of fun, though. They even had a photobooth for free which was quite entertaining. I have the originals but they also post them online so, once they do, I'll be sure to share them with you. Quite entertaining. Oh, and at the auction part, I won a signed Chris Osgood hockey puck. Heck yea! :)

Today's basically been recovering from all the Sex on the Beaches and the late night. Larry's coming over in a little bit to go through some of my mom's computer stuff for her. Then the rest of the night is just relaxing, doing last minute errands, and packing up because I go back to Saginaw tomorrow. So, yea, very busy but very fun weekend. Just what I needed. :)

a great candid of my aunt and grandma at the ball

my parents at the ball

my aunt and her boyfriend...yep, she's taking a picture of me taking a picture of her lol

my mom and I :)

dancing with my stepdad

practicing for that big day maybe? lol

pretty girl at the ball :)

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damn Cupid

02/16/09 4:15 am

Happy belated Valentine's Day? I was far too busy to actually post an entry on Valentine's Day so consider it a belated wish lol. Mine was fantastic! :D
For starters, yesterday two of my sisters and I went to TGI Friday's to celebrate Friday the 13th with some drinks and yummy food. It was a great time and made me even more excited to be living with the two of them next semester. So that was a good time. Then, today, I spent Valentine's Day with Larry. It was really sweet and I'm glad that, despite us being "broken up", I chose to spend it with him. He got here around 7:30 and stayed untl shortly before 1 in the morning. I made us a very yummy dinner of broccoli, cheesy salsa potatoes au gratin, and spiced chicken breasts. Mmmm. Then, after dinner, we spent the next few hours just sitting around talking and cuddling. Awwww. It was really nice and, honestly, it was a great Valentine's Day. I even got a kiss on the cheek when he left. :D And we planned for me to go down there Wednesday night and spend the night which is pretty sweet. I enjoy sleeping in bed with him. He said he had considered spending the night tonight but he's been pretty sick so he didn't want to cough and be germy on all my stuff which, yea, I can appreciate lol. But, yea, it was really nice...I missed him! Such a good Valentine's Day. :)

yesterday before going out

Liz, Kim, and I at Friday's waiting for our table

major close up lol

Kim and I being silly :P

formly known as alcohol lol

Valentine's Day

with my Valentine :)

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from bad to evil

02/13/09 9:55 pm

So, as if yesterday's entry wasn't bad enough, it got worse. I gave Kyle head last night. For those who don't need a fill in, Kyle is my ex. Kyle has also been with a girl for the past 6 months who he loves a lot and has been very faithful to and who, oh yea, i've met and have become friends with. Shit. We've sworn to keep it between each other and not tell anyone but fucccck I don't even know what happened! I'm not going to lie, I still have some old feelings for him and have wanted to mess around with him again but, shit, I didn't think it would really happen! But, I spent from about 2 in the morning to 4 in the morning Wednesday night at his place making out with him and giving him head while he fingered me and played with my boobs. SHIIIIIIIIIIIIT! i like don't even know what to say I'm so shocked. And I talked to him today through text and he's totally cool and our friendship is still fine, no big deal. But holy hell, I don't even know. So so SOOO bad!
Aside from that, though, everything's cool. Went to the on campus showing of "Role Models" tonight with some sisters and then went back to my sister Liz's room and enjoyed some yummy Taco Bell. But, damn, I can't get over last night. It's all I've been thinking about all day. He's officially cheated on every girlfriend since me with me. What the fuck?

me: dude, i want to see you like together forever. but if you don't, for some reason..... oh lord lol
me: it could be bad
him: lol
him: are you trying to proposition me for sex?
him: because it won't happen
him: sorry
me: lol i said if you were single! i'm not THAT much of a homewrecker. godddd
him: i really could use some fun, but i'm not losing this relationship
him: friends with benifits can go a long way, but i can't do that anymore
him: even tho a bj sounds amazing right now, but no

him: idk, idk if i could really do it anymore, we have a past.... and idk if its good to revisit that or not
him: i have been in a position where i was dating someone else and it didn't go well
him: but we have grown up since then, and that was emotional

him: too bad i've got something keeping me up
me: i'd help but, ya know...
him: yea, you are there and it would take you 10 mins to get here
me: i drive fast
him: yea but idk if i made up my mind if its a good idea or not yet either

him: ok, make you a deal, we tell no one, EVER. not even people you think you can trust, like me, b/c holly is coming here next year. and we'll work out what you get in return when you get here and be very quiet about it

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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she's been a bad bad girl, the devil's advocate

02/13/09 2:58 am

Oops. That can sum up the early morning hours of my day "today" (aka Wednesday). Kati had a booty call last night lol. I don't know if any of my frequent responders remember Josh but, let's take a trip down memory lane for a refresher course. Josh is a boy that I met back in November through a party at Kyle's (the ex I'm friends with). We started talking and very quickly started to have a fling. It wasn't meant to be a serious relationship or anything, just some good sex. About two weeks in I found out he was engaged. Needless to say I was like "yeaaa we can be friends but sex is no more". So, whatever. Well, he left his fiance and got a girlfriend up here at school. Okay, great. Thing is his girlfriend won't even make out with him, just sweet kisses. As for me, well, I haven't gotten laid in awhile and am dying. Josh has been super good about being loyal to this girl but I apparently got to him last night. He'll text me sometimes and "talk the talk" all dirty and all but will never go through with it cuz he's been really good at being loyal to this new girl. Yea, well, I fucked that up last night. We were texting and all "talking the talk" and he decided it was time to "walk the walk" too. So, at around 2 in the morning, he showed up at my front door. He ended up staying 'til around 4 and it was sex almost the entire time. Oops. :X But, damn, no lie, I'd do it again cuz he's just that good and that hot. I didn't feel guilty even though I'm sure I should. I guess I've lost my morals after Ryan. Oh well. And, not to be all TMI here, but daaaamn the way that boy bucked and moaned when I gave him head was enough to let me know that this was a good idea. I have a feeling it'll happen again and, ya know what, I don't think I mind at all. But, damn, am I going to hell!

Josh

me this morning

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distance is my worst enemy

02/12/09 4:54 am

Oops, I really should update this more. My bad! :P Not much has happened to really update on. Same old schedule of school and all that fun stuff. This past weekend I did go home with one of my sorority sister's for a day. She lives by me and her sub division is across the road from Ryan's (yes, we did a driveby lol) so I know the neighborhood well. It was fun, though, and we ate at my favorite resturant so that was pretty awesome. Then the next day I went to Flint for dinner at the Sigma Nu house with Larry and the boys. It was Larry's turn to cook and he was sooo worried cuz he's not a good cook but I thought he did amazing. And I ended up spending the night which wasn't planned but we were watching movies and, before we knew it, it was late and I was sleepy so I stayed. Which was kind of awkward cuz, well, it's awkward to sleep cuddled up wiht someone who doesn't have feelings for you. And, yes, he did cuddle with me. Gahdfsjhgsgdjd!!!

Other than that, though, not much has happened. There is a boy I'm talking to that I find quite cute and charming. I won't say too much about him because I actually "met" him on here so just in case he reads this...lol. But he knows who he is. ;) The sad part is he lives 5.5 hours away but we're trying really hard to save up some funds for him to come up here (perhaps while I'm on Spring Break) and meet. Which would be awesome because he is soooooo amazing! :D

So, yea, that about sums up my not very exciting life. This weekend is Valentine's Day which I think I'm spending with Larry (random, I know) but that's about it. Hopefully my life gets more interesting soon so I can make some better updates. :P