LuzObscura , 31

*Twiddles thumbs* Ok, I should have wrote an entry yesterday. I have no excuse really. I was supposed to do something last night, but that fell through. The only reason that I even made those plans is because Jen is not around. She was working last night and today is out of town with her family. They are having a family reunion. That is why I wanted to make that night at the airport a little more special. So...i made plans to go out tonight and well what do you know.....I'm here by myself.

I also have a "Thank You" to extend not only from my self, but from Jen as well. She says, "Tell them thanks for keeping you sane while I'm away and for all the lovely comments." Yes, she reads it, but only when we have the same day off. She is very respectful and trusts me completely. She knows that I would not write anything in here about her that was not true. I love and respect her, so there are certain areas of our relationship that I wont write about in this journal. I know I say this all the time, but I'm so lucky to be with her. I only wish I would have found her earlier.

I have heard people compare to life to a roller coaster. I would like to put my spin on it. I think it's more than just up's and down's. Plus not all that exciting when trying to compare it to life. You know when you are a kid and you see the "big kids" roller coaster. I could not wait to be tall enough to go on it. I think this is part of the life where you can't wait to date or your first kiss. You get all excited. Then you finally get on that ride and you are climbing up for the ride. Then you get done and either you are way excited and want to go again or you go....that was it. This is part of the life where you find someone that you like and want to keep seeing them, or the ones you that leave you thinking man that was a mistake. Then you get a little older and the roller coaster seems to be the same old story all the time, and soon you decided to stop going on it. This is the part in life where you seem to find the same significant other over and over again. Until it becomes so old you decided to stop. The people notice a decline and paint it a new color and change the name making it sound so awesome, so you go back and it's the same. That is what I call....the I can't believe I talked myself into thinking this person is different phase. Then there is the roller coaster that you find that you can't get enough of and you want to keep going back. This is the phase that i call.....finding the right person. This is where I know I'm at in my roller coaster experience. I have paid my dues and put up with a lot of crappy roller coaster rides. This is the roller coaster you buy all the tickets they have, because you know you will never need to see another one.

I went to Wally World yesterday, and I got food, and I bought True Blood. I have seen a little, and wanted to see the rest of it. It's a rather interesting take on vampires. I have always been a fan of any movie or book that has to do with them. Granted some are better than others.

I was looking at my schedule for the next little while. You see my boss has put out the schedule until Aug. Lets just say I'm going to have a lot of overtime. One example is on the 3rd and 4th of July I will be working from 5AM to 10PM. We are moving our department, and I have been put in charge of moving for those days. The good news is that I am working with some fun people. Also...my boss is buying us breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Should be a lot of fun.

I was thinking of something earlier that I really wanted to write about, but now that I'm writing I can't think of what it is.

Anyway...Have a great night ladies.

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
and sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am


Aaron

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Shoutouts to people who responded

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crazycanuck : awe sweet :)
KraZii_BlueZ : awwww glad your surprise for jennifer went so well! :)
MissMurder : Omg, that is so fairy tale like. You make my hopes seem not too far...
That is soooooo cuuuuuuteeeee. :]

-Kali.
pink_dreams : you are so nice
SatansGift666 : This story was just a wee bit different than the one you told me. =P teeheee. but, it still sounds freaking amazing. I wish I had surprises like that. I usually say I hate surprises. but... some like that, I would not mind. teeheee

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Yawns.....I'm so tired. However it is worth being tired. I went and saw Jennifer last night. She called me like she normally would and we talked as she was walking outside. She almost dropped her phone when she saw me outside waiting for her. She ran over and jumped on me. No worries I caught her just fine. She kissed me for a very long time. After I erased the tear running down her face I kissed her back. I think she was a little excited. I gave her flowers and she gave me a hug and a kiss. We ate and talked under the stars and luminous glow of airport lighting. We had a good time. ;)

I hope that everyone has a good day. We are going to see if we can make it to the Arts fest. that is going on this week.

Aaron

And now back to your regularly scheduled program. I know you all tuned in yesterday for an entry, and found nothing. Just like when you go to watch you tune in to watch your favorite show, and then get stuck watching a Presidential message. I understand if you were mad, sad, or just didn't care.

I am so glad that I'm not going crazy, or maybe I am crazy and I just have a lot of company. Either way I'm good. Thank you for getting back to the questions. I have random thoughts that sometime pop into my head.

The reason that I didn't make an entry yesterday is because my Dad's cousin is in the hospital. He is in the Huntsman Cancer Hospital. It is part of the hospital that I work for. It is behind the hospital that I work for. He doesn't have cancer. This hospital has a good diagnostic program apart from being a leading cancer hospital. His platelet levels were almost non existent. They are doing tests on him and I will be the first family member to know because I know people. His mental state is great, so he is doing well.

Tonight...well early morning I am going to surprise Jennifer between flights. She is going to be there in the early morning. I am going to see her and take her some flowers, chocolates, and something to eat. She doesn't know that I will be there. We will have it outside in a little break area that way it's not a security risk.

Ok, so I was at work and my boss told me that someone I work with made a comment that she is really offended by the people that are swearing. She is one of these fake HOLIER THAN THOU people. Also, we don't swear like sailors. Some people made it a point to swear in around her. I thought it was funny. Even my boss did which really made me laugh. Then she pretended like it slipped and tried not to laugh.

I hope you all have a great night.

Aaron

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Shoutouts to people who responded

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crazycanuck : yeah i look to see if anyone is coming OFF the bus or elevator. just because, but i try to avoid elevators at all costs haha they freak me out. ugh i hate terrible servers. i went to pizza hut and they totally gave one of us a dirty fork, and burnt our fuckin pizza haha. sucks you got shitty service.
awe thats cute wheat you guys do for each other since you guys havent been able to spend time together. :)
KraZii_BlueZ : i always wait to see if anyone looks like they're going to get off and then i get on. it just seems polite and less likely for people to crash into each other. you and jennifer are way too cute, i swear! you sound like my boyfriend and i...we tend to make people want to gag we're so cute lol
pink_dreams : Sounds like you had fun with your parents.
pinklove04 : I hate it when we don't have a good server and never checks on us while were eating. Thats when I don't tip them much. sorry if they can't do their job right you aint getting a big tip from me especially if you aren't very nice either.
I always wait for the people to get off or see if anyone is getting off first. I think it's the right thing to do ya know?
anywayz, glad ur good.
SatansGift666 : I would def wait to see if anyone comes out and/or whose in there before I even went in. haha. Cause yah never know what/who could pop outta there and it'd be kinda awkward to bump into someone er whatever. I think the people in there should be waiting to and taking their time cause yah never know what could happen. but, maybe thats just being overly cautious. idk. lol. or just.... normal. teehee.

I hate bad servers. It's kind of an awkward situation cause you feel like you HAVE to tip them, good or bad. but you really dont wanna tip them when they are horrible servers. lol. I sure wouldn't. or I'd just leave like a small portion of money for the person. hah. and that's mean, but they're not doing their job so its on them. Most servers I have are very nice though. I guess its cause most of the time there's like 8 of us.. so we NEED attention. but even when it's just the boy and I.. they always come and check on us. I'd prob not leave anything or just report her. haha.

oy. you have the same problem as me, eh? I was wondering how come you havent been mentioning her lately. That really is a bummer though. =[ Im changing my schedule as of tomorrow so I have the same days off as my boy, like I normally should. cause thats crap. I hate not seeing him. and I bet its even suckier cause you guys live close by and you still dont see each other. bleh. or.. have time together anyways. thats lame. i hate it. i hate work sometimes for that reason. boooo.

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SO I had another presentation to make to the nurses today. I also went with my Boss to tour our new part of the hospital and tell her where I think things should be set up like. We start moving everything on the 3rd and 4th.

I have a question for you all, but to get your answer I need to describe the situation. Ok, say you are getting onto an elevator or a bus. Do you when the door opens just walk in like they are there just for you or do you first look to make sure no one is getting off then get on? Personally I wait to see if someone is getting off. I do this for two reasons...1) They are in a hurry to get where they are going it seems like most of the time. Besides the buss or elevator is not going to leave any sooner if I dash in there knocking people over. 2) I just think its common courtesy. Just something that was on my mind today.

Yesterday my parents came up, and I took them out to dinner. They decided that they wanted to go to Sizzler. I haven't been there for a really long time. The food was good, but the server was terrible. She would walk by and never see how things were going and she just was not very attentive. I have another question. What do you think is tip worthy and would you leave a tip for someone that doesn't pay attention to you while you are there or if your order was completely wrong?

With Jennifer and I's work schedule it has been kind of hard to spend time together. We know its just for the moment and we will be like before. She will send me the sweetest texts while I'm at work or call me on breaks. I like how she will send me them to let me know she is thinking about me. I will leave her notes on her car on my way to work. She even called me while I was working and sang me a song on my voice mail. Here is the song that she sang.

Firehouse
When I look into your eyes

I see forever when I look in your eyes
You're all I've ever wanted
I always want you to be mine
Let's make a promise to the end of time
We'll always be together
And our love will never die

So here we are face to face and heart to heart
I want you to know we will never be apart
Now I believe that wishes can come true
'Cause when I see my whole world
I see only you

(Chorus) When I look into your eyes
I can see how much I love you
And it makes me realize
When I look into your eyes
I see all my dreams come true
When I look into your eyes

I've looked for you all of my life
Now that I've found you
We will never say good-bye
Can't stop this feelin'
And there's nothing I can do
'Cause I see everything
When I look at you

Repeat 2X (Chorus)

Aaron

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Shoutouts to people who responded

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crazycanuck : any guy can be a man but it takes a real man to be a father. when i cant get up its cause of no motivation haha, but thats good you got all your stuff done. have a great night with your parents! <3
JazzlikeMraz : You're right, dude. A father is one who sticks around and takes care of their spawn. Whether they're with the mother or not doesn't matter. If they support financially, physically, emotionally, and mentally, then that is a true father.
KraZii_BlueZ : totally agree as someone whose dad bailed as soon as he found out my mom was pregnant. definitely just a sperm donor in my eyes. hope you made it out bed! :P
MissMurder : I really don't care about father's day.. My father is dumb. Hope you all have a good time.
-Kali.
pink_dreams : You're totally right. I love your views on things.
pinklove04 : my siste is a single mother of 4 and she is doing a real good job raising her kids on her own.I agree with u.

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I know today is fathers day. I want to wish those men out there that are really fathers a happy fathers day. Just because some one lost control and a child was form does not make that person a father. They are only donors. Those guys that are willing to stick around and support and be their for the family, that is a father. Now that may be my opinion, but I will stick by that notion. There are way to many deadbeats that think because they show up once in awhile that makes them a father. I would like to say good job to those that are making a valiant effort to become that person.

Anyway off of fathers day.

I hope that you all are having a good day. I could not bring myself to get out of bed this morning. It wasn't that I was tired or anything. I was just really comfortable. I think it was also because I really didn't want to do my laundry or clean the floors today. That is all done now, so I don't have to worry about it anyway.

My mom and dad are on their way down here. They want to go out to eat and I think they want to see a movie...not actually sure on that one.

Have a great day.

Aaron