LuzObscura , 32

Going to put a song at the begining and at the end. They are songs that I have liked for a long time.

Open Arms
Journey

Lying beside you
Here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper
You're so sincere
How could our love be so blind

We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side

So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me
Open arms

Living without you
Living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you
Wanting you near
How much I wanted you home

But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay

So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me
Open arms


So I am feeling a little empty today. Yesterday I was talking to Wrangler on the computer. I told her that I had to help a friend out, but I would be back here when she got back from visiting her mom.

Well I came back and I started to listen to a CD that I had made for her. She sent me a message saying that she was talking to a friend and would talk to me later. Well she didn't really feel up to talking when she got done. Which made me feel pretty sad. Even though I understand what she is going through, it would have been nice just to hear her voice.

So when I awoke this morning their was no sweet voice to greet me to today. I love waking up to her voice and falling asleep to it as well. So needless to say my day wasn't quite the same.

She is being kind of distant right now and it's really hard. All I want to do is be there for her and to care for her, but it's hard when she doesn't want to be. So right now I feel lost.

I did send her Valentine's gift today. So it should be there soon. Well thats all I really have to say.

Always
Bon Jovi

This Romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up.

It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up.

Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's ment to be
Well I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby that's just me.

And I will love you baby always
And I'll be there forever and a day always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
And I know when I die you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you always.

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh
Some that made us cry
One that made you have to say good bye.

What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes I'm just a man.

When he holds you close
When he pulls you near
When he says the words
You've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him, that his words were mine
To say to you till the end of time.

That I will love you baby always
And I'll be there forever and a day always
If you told me to cry for you I could
If you told me to die for you I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you.

Well there ain't no luck in these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams and our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines.

And I will love you baby always
And I'll be there forever and a day always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
And I know when I die you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you always.


Love,
Aaron

I just thought today I would put some lyrics to a band that I have come to enjoy. If you haven't already check them out.



This Is Home
I Am Ghost

Close Your Eyes it's easier that way
A golden cup and a toast to kings
Lost and decayed we are cut beyond our saving
But we are home now, the room is still warm

Fell in love with an angel, a heart that isn't cold
Say goodnight, we are dieing just hold on
I've blessed these shadows and tasted every one
They can't steal our love tonight

A century of open arms that shield the light
This battle scar is healing
Cast all the pain to the tourniquest that blinds me
We are home now, the sun wont hurt you anymore

Fell in love with an angel a heart that isn't cold
Say goodnight, we are dieing just hold on
I've blessed these shadows and tasted everyone
They can't steal our love tonight

Love has given me a reason to live
And love has givin me a reason to die

Fell in love with an angel, a heart that isn't cold
Say goodnight we are dieing just hold on
I've blessed these shadows and tasted everyone
They can't steal our love tonight
Fell in love with an angel, a heart that isn't cold
I can feel the pain of the sun as it lights up the air
I can taste the hope, its everywhere...

Love has givin me a reason to live
And love has givin me a reason to die

Ok so my brother stoped by the other day to pick up a disc for his computer that he had apperntly left here. I didn't even know that it was here. I wouldn't have found it had I not been looking for a movie. He told me that he left me something for finding it for him. I was like ok thanks see you later. Well not until last night did I find what he had left. He had bought me a 12 pack of soda. Which normally would be just fine, but I have stopped drinking soda. So I am unsure at the moment what to do with it.

Last night after Wrangler came back we watched The Simpsons Movie while she did some vocabulary. Well I didn't realize how tired I was. I awoke and noticed it was at the title screen. So I took out the movie, knowing that she had to be asleep by now I decided to go back to sleep. When we were talking this morning. I asked her when I feel asleep. She said it was around 11:30 P.M. I was shocked. I haven't been to sleep that early in a long time. I apologized for falling asleep and told here that I hope I didn't snore to loud. We talked until she had to get to school.

I got a phone call yesterday telling me that my Uncle Pete had and emergency yesterday. Come to find out he was taking out the trash and had lost his footing and on his way down the trash went up in the air and hit him on the head. I guess it cut it left a good gash on his head. All is well though a few stiches later and he is himself again.

I am going to try to put quotes in here that have inspired me. Will see how that goes.

"...Just as despair can come to one another only from other human beings, hope, too, can be given to one only by other human beings." --Elie Wiesel

Ok so today I awoke with a pain in my stomach. I'm still unsure as to where it came from. I thought it could be sympathy pains. LOL! It was enough that I didn't want to go to work. But as it is hard to find someone to fill in for a serial killer McDonald worker. So, I worked what I was suppost to. I felt better as the day went on, so I am glad that I did work.

Yesterday was day of a little mixed emotions. I know everyone is talking about the Packers game. Yeah that was truely upsetting. I was also upset that the cheating Patriots managed to sneak out another win. Blehhhh! Well as much as I don't want to I am going to cheer for NY. I don't know as of yet if I want to watch the Super Bowl. As I don't believe that neither deserve to be there.

On a happier note. Things are going well with Wrangler. I was fortunate to have the last two days off. I spent time with her watching movies and talking. We watched one of my favorite Hillary Swank movies called Freedom Writers. For those that haven't seen it...should watch it. It is fantastic story and very touching.

I didn't have to go through quite the extrem that went on at that school. However I did expierence some of what they went through. I had teachers in elementry that had similar attitudes as the teachers in this movie. Even through parts of school students where the same as them. I was told that I would fall in to the stereotypical Indian. Which for those that havent heared a few....drunk, lazy, lacking ambition, worthless..... Yeah to say the least that's a lot to take as a teenager. Racism is such a terrible thing and I can't believe that some people have not moved on. Well, I decided that I would never conform to what people thought I should be. I would be what I wanted to be. So today I am who I am no regrets.

So just a few quick thoughts for today.

Love,
Aaron

Ok So I decided to start off this entry with a song. Instead of putting it at the end. This song is a song from Roger Miller's Broadway Musical titled Big River: The Adventures of Huckleverry Fin.

Worlds Apart

I see the same stars through my window
You see through yours
But we're worlds apart
Worlds apart
I see the same sky through brown eyes
That you see through blue
But we're worlds apart
Just like the earth
Just like the sun
Two worlds together are better than one
I see the sunrise in your eyes
That you see in mine
But we're worlds apart, worlds apart

I see the same stars through my window
That you see through yours
But we're worlds apart, worlds apart
And you see the same skies through brown eyes
That I see through blue
But we're worlds apart
Just like the earth
Just like the sun
Two worlds together are better than one
I see the friendship in your eyes
That you see in mine
But we're worlds apart, worlds apart
Together, but worlds apart
And a mockingbird sings in the ol' yonder tree
Twaddlee-ee ah dee dee dah dee dee dee

Just know Wrangler even though it may seem like we are way too far apart from each other. It doesn't have to be like that at all. As long as we can look up at the stars, moon, or sun. Then we are never as far apart as it may seem. Besides you are closer to me than anyone that lives here. I thank God everyday that I get to talk to you on the phone, AIM, or on live. It has been a great so far and I look forward to future time together. I can't believe that this is happening to me. I still feel like this is a dream. But I'm so glad that it isn't.

Yesterday we after talking had made plans to watch movies together. I had to go get one from Wal Mart which I had seen their on my previous trips. Well, come to find out that they didn't have it, so I called her and asked her what it is that I should get instead. We decided on the Wedding Date. It is a really cute show. I hadn't seen it in a long time. After which we were going to watch Troy. Which I had earlier in the week, but couldn't locate the movie. I recommended that we watch The Wedding Singer. A little bit into the movie. She said next time no wedding movies. Not in a mean way by any means(I wasn't mad no worries). So I said agreed next time no wedding movies. She fell asleep sometime towards the end of the movie. Awwwe how cute. I finished the rest of the movie. I really think that song that he sings to her at the end is really nice. What a nice thought to grow old with someone that you love.

Well, I just wanted to hop on here and write down a few thoughts. So Thank You Wrangler for another great evening. I have really enjoyed the past 3 weeks(almost a month) and I look forward to many more amazing nights. You are amazing!

Love,
Aaron