NoSpiesAllowed , 22

I promise!

Sunday
I woke up at 8AM again and checked my email to see if Nancy sent me anything. She said to call any time after 6AM. I did but she didn't answer so I decided to stay home and work on my project for Monday. I went on a driving lesson and then to Staples to get the materials I needed. I emailed Staci to let her know I still hadn't gotten anything from Tyra (the girl in our group who didn't contribute anything and never contacted us). I watched 2 movies with Jayde and Mom while I did schoolwork. I finished the magnet poem and the lesson plan and did another separate lesson plan for my individual grade. I had planned on talking to a guy that night but by the time I was done with everything I was just so tired that I fell asleep before I had even made it to my bedroom.

Monday
I slept till I don't know when. I got up and...I honestly don't remember anything before class but, yeah, went to class. The lecture was on the art in early childhood environments and then it was time for my group to present. I did the introduction and read the poem. Everyone really liked the poem and it was a good lesson in general. I don't think we did a bad job at all, even if Tyra didn't show. After class I came home and worked on the things I needed for today. After that I went to bed at 2:45AM but Dave called and we talked until a little after 5AM.

Tuesday
I planned on waking up at 6AM originally but set my alarm for 6:30AM because I realized I'd have to much time on my hands if I woke up sooner than that. I needed to force myself to rush so I wouldn't have the time to feel tired haha. I tried to take a nap but couldn't fall asleep so I ended up daydreaming and then started getting ready. I got dressed, did my hair, took my vitamins, ate some peanut butter pretzels, drank some milk, got my stuff, and left. I got to HCC at 8AM. I dropped my chart off at CLC so that I wouldn't have to carry it across campus in the rain. I went to the Clark Library and rehearsed some and walked back to CLC. I was a little early so I could get used to the class again (it's the same class I did an observation at) and set up. Arianna, the little girl I met last time and wanted to adopt so bad, was the first to greet me! Then a few kids talked to me, showed me things, and I felt more comfortable. I taught my lesson and it was awesome! I completely forgot I hadn't had any sleep, haha. The teachers and the lady doing my evaluation loved the lesson (which I'll explain soon) and I actually wanted to keep going. After that was done I walked back to Clark Library and did my reflection on the experience. After that I went to the Urology office (where my mom works during the day) and came back home.

OK, the lesson went like this:
- Introduced myself.
- Read Corduroy by Don Freeman.
- Asked what clothes Corduroy was wearing.
- Asked them if any of them were wearing overalls, too, and agreed with them that they were wearing different clothes.
- Told them we were going to make a chart of the clothes they're wearing.
- Made the chart (using big buttons I made) of who was wearing the items they chose to put on the chart (Jeans, Sneakers, Undershirts, and T-Shirts). I asked them to give me a certain color button if they were wearing that item and then we counted together as I put the buttons on the board.
- Compared the columns to each other (tallest column, shortest column) and figured out what it meant (more people were wearing undershirts than were wearing jeans, etc.).
- Counted all of the buttons on the board.
- Asked if the board would look the same tomorrow and why it wouldn't.
- Said goodbye.

It was so cute though. They asked if they could keep the buttons and I said yes. Then they asked if I was going to come back and I said no because I don't think I am going back. I would love to go there every single day! They're such great kids!

Anyway, I went to bed at 9:30PM

Yesterday
I woke up off and on from 7AM to 9:45AM. When I finally got up I got dressed and all that and kinda chilled out. I read news articles and then went on a driving lesson with my mom. We went to the mall and did some shopping, then to Blockbuster, then to Marshall's. When we got back home the kids were outta school. I chatted with James a bit and then went to class. The first presentations for that class started: ADD and SIDS. After class I came back home and chatted with James some more.

In other news
- Joel and I have kinda broken up whatever romantic thing we had going. We had a couple fights since then mostly because he isn't understanding of things from my point a view and blah...don't feel like going completely into it but right now we're not talking to each other. He needs time.
- Mom was offered a full-time teaching position at ACI (adult education) and she took it. $30/hour.
- There are only 3 more projects to worry about now. For EDUC-111 I have the language development project. For EDUC-112 I have the unit project (4 lesson plans, 10 songs, 10 books, all in the same theme) and the teacher-made material. Both classes also have exams coming up. I also have 2 more observations and 3 more homeworks to worry about in EDUC-111. After all of this is done, my semester is over!
- I'm gonna be a babydoll for Ashley's party tomorrow.

I'm sorry I've been such a bad subby. These days have been too long. All the stuff I'm doing at school...figuring other things out...I feel so tired. My body just slept through my alarm today so I woke up 30 minutes late.

I still got to the Ferret Inn on time. It was a crazy day. There were 2 other volunteers there so it wasn't too bad but after they left it was just...gah! The ferrets didn't wanna get along and it was hot but when we turned the air on there was leaking. For lunch we didn't eat pizza though. We had these sandwiches from a place called Roots. It's all organic stuff. I had part of a tofu sandwich and part of a curry chicken salad sandwich and some chips.

After the Ferret Inn I went to Panera to get a Jones soda and then to the library. I needed to try to find a different book for the magnet lesson (don't like the one Nusrat got) but couldn't find anything so instead I asked Staci if we could change the transition activity to reading a poem about magnets. Then the actual activity can be more about testing objects mentioned in the poem and other objects that don't attract to magnets.

Now my head has frozen...oh yeah, tomorrow is Walk for Paws.

I'm not completely sure what I'm going to be for Ashley's party. I'll figure it out this weekend though. I'll also need to buy materials for the lesson I'm giving on Tuesday...whatever lesson that may be.

I think I'm being broken up with right now? That's what it feels like...gees, haha. Joel is so upset with me because I said that I didn't know if we could make it to forever. I'm being honest! He has said things that really make me question if our lives are at all compatible and...he well, he just said he wished nothing happened between us so yeah, this day has become pretty shitty.

I have to meet with the science group today, in about an hour. Tyra still hasn't sent me her part of the lesson plan. It's not a long part...but whatever.

I have a headache.

I'll update you.

I don't know what to say about my love life other than it is messy and I'm trying to figure it all out before making it messier.

I've decided I want to get into social services/family services instead of education. The child development program I'm in now though largely focuses on education and HCC doesn't have a degree program for child development and I need at least a bachelor's so...yeah.

I talked to my dad about going to financial aide to get a loan like my mom said but he said that for right now I don't need to worry about it - that him and mom will pay for my classes until I'm in the position to so it's OK, as long as I keep doing well. Thank God because I wasn't looking forward to a loan even though I know many people get them.

Ashley invited me to her Halloween party which will be next Friday. I'm going - need a costume. It won't be a lot of people, no alcohol or smoking, and that's the environment I prefer to meet new people in. I'm going to give myself the goal of introducing myself to everyone there (there should be 10-15). I'm only putting it there to help my anxiety. If I go without a mission I might feel more anxious about it than focusing on something, you know?

Class tomorrow. Thursday I meet with my Science presentation group to run through it. The presentation is next Monday. Next Tuesday I have my teaching experience at CLC. I'm also going to Advising to talk about my courses and transferring that morning.

I decided since I update my SAS blog on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, I'll write here on the other days. Oh, SAS is socialanxietysupport.com.

Well I'm feel much better today a majority of the time. I still get to where I feel like I can't move but it's not constant. I didn't go to class last night (don't worry - I told my instructor and group members). I had a fever and my throat hurt so much. Mom brought home Theraflu and more tea, and then she made chicken noodle soup with dumplings. :D

Um...yesterday I watched a lot of TV. My parents bought a new TV on Sunday because the one in the living room kinda broke. We've had it 7 years I think...something like that. But yeah. When I wasn't watching TV, I was sleeping.

Today. CLC called me back so my teaching experience is scheduled now! October 27th at 9:30AM.

I guess not much else is going on. *shrugs*