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By Josh's lack of a response, I've determined that he doesn't want a relationship.

I'm disappointed, but I'd almost been expecting it. So I'm ok.

And I'm currently discussing it with Brett, who, if you recall, I liked several months ago before learning he had a girlfriend.

Yeah. That's all for now.

Wow. So, I haven't updated in a while.

Josh is trying to decide if he wants a relationship. I'm all for it. We're talking almost daily, and hopefully we'll hang out on Wednesday. I'll keep you updated.

I just realized I never told you about January 14th. I went to his apartment, and we hung out. We cuddled for a while, and we kissed for a while. I had a lot of fun.

I went to Indianola and visited with Dan for two days before that. It was great to see him, and we had fun just like in the old days.

So... Sam's Club....

On New Year's Eve, they fired Tammi. I was shocked. Sara and I will have to hang out with her once in a while. I guess she said something mean about the club manager, and someone heard her and turned her in. Oh well.

They made Sara a COS. They also made Paige and Crystal COSs too.

Diane (my TL) and Bob (grocery TL) stepped down. They pulled two night crew guys (Bryan, hardlines TL and Chris, grocery TL) to days. Katie switched from hardlines to Center. Shirley's going to cashier. Brandon's last day is in 2.5 weeks. I haven't seen James in over a week. Rachel's transferring to Walmart... Basically the floor's kinda screwed. The only department doing any good is center.

PostSecret is on Facebook, and they have an anonymous account where you can post things. I made a post just now with a lot of my secrets. Some of them are things that no one knows except for me. Some are things that many people that know me know about.

I think that's all I need to update you on...

When things go well, I'm okay.

When things threaten to change, I get scared...

It looks like things will be changing big time at Sam's.

First of all, all of the grocery associates will likely be quitting in the next three months.

Second of all, my hours are being cut drastically (from 37.5 in a week to 15...).

Third of all, the full time non-team-lead floor partners will likely be switching positions or taking huge hourly cuts/going to part time(they're getting rid of full-timers, I guess, which makes no sense to me since most part-timers don't give a shit about their jobs).

Sam's has been my rock the last year and a half. When I had no clue what my life would bring, I knew that I'd keep working at Sam's. I knew that I'd continue to enjoy it.

Well, I still enjoy it, but for how much longer? I feel like no one in a supervisory position trusts me. Even Jeremy seems to have lightened up a lot. I think they still want me to become a cashier, but I will not.

Do you happen to remember several months ago (April or May) when I was interested in becoming a COS? Well, there's sort of an opening. How do I know? Because the front-end manager went up to Sara and asked her if she was interested. Sara declined. I would like to be a COS.

I don't know. Sam's is just stressing me out at the moment...

Sara and I haven't hung out for a while, but we still talk quite a bit. Sara and her former best friend are now friends again, and the three of us folded clothes and talked together on Wednesday night. That was pretty good. Sara and I haven't gone out for a beer in a long time, but I think we can change that soon.

Sara and her boyfriend, Ryan, are still together. In fact, Ryan gave her a promise ring today for Christmas!!! They are such a cute couple!

I'm still slightly jealous, but my mental health is still fluctuating. I don't think it's right for me to subject a potential boyfriend to something like that. The few experiences I've had like this have not worked out at all.

Brett (the guy I met for beers a couple of times) is still at Sam's, but he's now in produce. That means I see him more at work, but I haven't decided if that's a good thing or a bad thing. He's fun to go have a beer with, but he is a bit of a geek. I enjoy hanging out with him. In fact, after one night at his favorite bar, I texted Sara saying "after a night like tonight, I almost wish Brett didn't have a girlfriend!"

I haven't heard from Dan in ages. I've left him several messages, including Facebook wall posts, txts, and voice mails. It really frustrates me that he hasn't bothered to call me. If I don't hear from him soon, I might even call his house phone. Maybe then he'll talk. I just feel like talking with him, because it's been at least six months.

Taryn and I have talked briefly several times, and she always promises me that she'll call me back within a week. Well, guess what. She has yet to call me.

As far as those two go, it hurts, but if they can't make an effort to call me, then maybe our friendships are completely over. That's really sad, because in college we were practically inseparable. Oh well...

I haven't talked to any of my sorority sisters in a long time. I should call Julie and catch up. I haven't talked to Bonnie since before her wedding, probably 15 months ago. I should call her and chat. I feel like they all forgot about me. I really feel that way. I really think joining that sorority was one of the best things I could've done, but it's slightly upsetting to see that no one seems to remember me.

I got my grades from fall semester. I got 2 As and 1 C. I'm pretty happy with that. Now, hopefully I can do as well with spring semester...

Christmas today was nice. I got a couple of movies, a couple of Wii games, a pair of gloves, a watch, a ticket to see Mamma Mia!, some money, a Japanese puzzle book, a PostSecret book, and a pair of tennis shoes. My cousin also got me a Pepsi t-shirt, which is actually pretty cool.

I've typed a lot here. Hopefully that fills you up somewhat on what's been happening with me. I'm scared about what might happen in the future with me and Sam's, but we'll see. I'll keep you updated.

Merry Christmas!!!

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Shoutouts to people who responded

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joesbabygrl_998 : Hardlines is a section of Sam's club that includes office supplies, furniture, cleaning supplies, pet supplies, restaurant supplies, paper products, things like that. I'm in center section with seasonal, books/movies/games, small appliances, bedding, liquor.

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Work has been going ok. Social life is going ok. Home life is going ok. School went ok.

Nothing new to report, really.

Just letting all of you know I'm doing good, I just don't get on KB too much right now.

Sorry I haven't updated much. Time keeps flying right by me.

Work has its ups and downs. I'm still in Center, but that may change when my availability changes. I might move to hardlines. I'll have to talk to Jeremy about that.

Class is ok.

Anyway, that's about all I feel like sharing right now...

I understand if you don't want to read regularly. I'll kn you if I think you should read it...