Readalottobooks , 25

Well, a few exciting and eventful things have happened recently. Let me fill you in.

Friday was Christmas. It was a nice day. I did well in euchre.

Saturday I worked. I broke down again, this time because I couldn't get spotters to the cooler. Two assistant managers (including my manager) ended up spotting me. Brandi and I had a nice little talk inside the cooler, and it helped. I hate breaking down all the time at work, but I think the cycle is on its way back up :).

Saturday night, I went to karaoke at The Hat. There was a nice little crowd there, and Michael didn't have to work, so he was there earlier than he usually was. He gave the group a Christmas gift, a cowbell. They had fun with it. I had some beer, and it was tasty. Michael gave me a few good night kisses, but he "needed to practice mind over matter" that night. So, that's all I got :(.

Sunday I worked all day again, and it was fairly uneventful.

Monday I had off of work. Nice lazy day, and I worked in my room quite a bit.

Tuesday I had to close at work. It ended up being a decent day. I walked in, and Chris (my team leader) gave me two things to start off the day: 1. the rotation is completely off in the cooler, and Shane's (district manager) coming in tomorrow, so get that fixed. 2. Congratulations, you got associate of the month! I was so excited! I've been in f/c for just over a month now, and I love it. I can't believe it! It's reassuring to know that people really do recognize my hard work, and Chris and Brandi do a good job of that. Later that night, I had to wait an obscenely long time for spotters again, and Coach Kelly called two associates over to help me. They grumbled the entire time about how long it took them to walk back there, and whatnot. I'm like whatever, let's just get this done and over with. I drop what I need to in the freezer, and honk a few times to let them know I'm on my way out. I drive outside, and there's a member right in front of me. Thank god lift #6 has great brakes. I looked at my spotters like I didn't get why they weren't blocking the aisle, and one of them said "I just don't care." I should've reported them to Kelly, but I had too much work to do. And the member who wanted the items actually left before I could get them out because it took too long to get spotters. So I was frustrated. Anyway... COS Julie did send me some help, and it happened to be one of my favorite cashiers, Nate. We talked a lot. I like talking with him. He's pretty awesome. I'm pretty certain that he's gay, and he's not quite out yet.

Anyway, on to Tuesday after work. I went over to Creekside for karaoke. Stacy, Tony, and Michael were already there. Tony ended up having to leave fairly early because of family issues, and Stacy didn't sing because she wasn't feeling well. So, we just sat there chatting, and Michael and Stacy played pool. At one point in the evening, Michael and I talked. He doesn't want to have anything hurt our friendship (or me), so we're just going to be friends. I had a feeling it was coming. I know he's certain this time. So, the three of us had some very interesting and good conversations. We left around 1:30, and Michael and I had shared 3 pitchers of beer. :) I must've been thirsty!

Well, that leads to today. It's been fairly boring and uneventful. Did some shopping, and had lunch with mom and sister. Chris calls, and he's at Old Chicago, so I joined him for a little while before my family's dinner. I did well in trivia. I might hang out with him tomorrow night. Watch movies, or play some wii or something. Drink some beer :). He's just a good friend still. Now that my prospects are currently empty, I'm not sure if I'll try looking for someone or not. I'll still hang out with Chris a lot. I'll still see Michael at karaoke. Derrijk, personally I'm not sure if or when I'll see him again. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what the new year brings me!

Okay, now to get a little philosophical, or at least thinking a little harder. Is it possible to live a dream-free or goal-free life? I have no idea what I want to be when I grow up. I have no idea where I want to be even in a year, or six months. I realize a college education is necessary for so many careers, especially in this day and age, but college is ridiculously expensive, especially when you don't know what you want to do so you take ten years doing it.

I've just been trying to think about my future. I know everyone's into the resolutions, but I'm not really. I just want things to continue to go well. I want to stay healthy (as healthy as I can be, anyway). I want to keep my job, and continue to enjoy what I do. I want to keep up the friendships I currently have, and continue to have a decent social life. I want to continue to keep my spending under control, and work on paying off my car. I want to do well in the classes that I'm currently signed up for, and learn in the process.

I've just been pondering a few things lately. I'm happy, and I love life right now, but I am struggling to figure out how to make it even better. 

Not much I feel the need to update you about right now, except for one thing. Remember my good friend Sara? The one that joined us at OC last week and who I used to work with and go to Harrington's all the time with?? Well, Ryan proposed to her today. I'm curious, because a long time ago she said that if they ever got married, I'd be a bridesmaid. I'm wondering if I'll still be one or not...


I had a really bad day at work on Thursday. I'm usually really happy and cheerful, and with the holidays I usually really am happy. But no. I just couldn't get happy. Amy in Demos tried to play peekaboo (lol) with me, and I just ignored her, so she followed me into the cooler and talked with me for a bit. She's so awesome. I started feeling a little better after that.

My knee is really acting up right now. It's so sore, especially walking long distances or climbing stairs. I've been wrapping it a bit, and that seems to help, and I've been taking ibuprofen, but it's making work extremely hard.

I got an unexpected Christmas present from Chris last night. He gave me a $5 gift certificate to the local ice cream parlor. I feel like I should get him something now, but I have no clue what. I usually love giving to other people, but this year I'm just clueless about what to give. 

I'm really liking freezer/cooler. In fact, I took off my preferences to move to hardlines and center section! I finally have a team leader that appreciates the work I do. It is hard work, and it's very challenging working in such a cold environment, but I like it.

I had two people tell me recently I should go into management. It's not very likely, but who knows what'll happen in the future??

Friday night was awesome. Chris and I went to Old Chicago again, and Sara, Ryan, Darcy and Brett joined us. It was Sara's birthday, so we all had a blast!! I hope she had a good time.

Saturday was a good day. We went to karaoke, and Michael and I sat next to each other. It was weird, because everyone at the table that night had a partner (Stacy had Tim, Tony had Jen). It was an enjoyable night. Michael accidentally forgot to pay his tab, but he took care of that lol. Then, he drove me to my car since I parked across the street. We talked a lot, and did some kissing :). I really like him, but I'd like to spend more time with him away from other people so we can just talk.  I'll see him again on Saturday.

Chris and I went to Old Chicago tonight. We got Jennie (former coworker) and Nate (cashier) to join us, and it was a good time. We played some trivia, and had a few shots. It was a good time, though it ended a bit early.

I got my grades from the fall semester. Not on the dean's list, but I'm still happy with them. A- in public speaking, B+ in psychology of gender, B in precalculus, and B- in western civ. I'm happy with these grades. I could've done better, but I struggled, and my learning styles didn't mesh well with the teaching styles. Plus, for precalc, OC didn't help out much. Next semester I should be doing better.

Well, it's been a few days since I've written last. I have no idea how I did in my classes, but hopefully I did okay. Now I'm off for a month.

It's weird because I really was happy all day Sunday, until the last part of my shift, but it was okay. I walked out to my beautiful new car, and it has reindeer antlers and a red nose on it! I laughed so hard!

Anyway, Monday night comes around, and I'm trying to study for the HUGE test I have next morning. Michael texts me. Calls me sweetie. Says he's been thinking about me, and how sweet I am, and I have the personality he's looking for in a woman. My heart was melting! He thought it through, and decided that we could consider a relationship. :D Needless to say, I didn't get much studying done! I was too preoccupied thinking about him! I'll see him again on Saturday night. We'll see what happens from there!

I went to karaoke last night at Creekside with Stacy, Tony, and Tim. It was pretty good! Tony was losing his voice, so we didn't do our duet, but I did sing three other songs, and they went really well.

Well, I can't think of anything else for now, but I'm extremely happy about the possibility of Michael and I again! 

Last week was crazy. Monday was a bad day for me, and I suffered for it on Tuesday. Wednesday was a snow day, and I worked all weekend. I'm actually starting to like freezer/cooler, but there is a position opening up in center section. We'll see what happens.

Friday night was great! I thought I was going to go to Old Chicago with Chris, but he never responded to my calls and messages.  I texted a few other people to see if they were interested in going out, and I got Sara and Ryan to join me at OC! That was great! We talked a lot and got caught up. Chris eventually joined us later.

Saturday night was good. Went to karaoke at The Hat. It was a small crowd this time, myself, Michael, Chris, Stacy, and Tony. That was fun. I only drank water, so that was a little different, but kind of refreshing. Well, we 'left' at 1:30, but Michael and I talked in the parking lot for a while. He walked me to my car, and we hugged. Started making out. Talked some more. Migrated into my car because it was cold, and continued making out :). Then we started talking. We discussed the possibility of a relationship, and how it likely wouldn't work out because he wants sex, and that's not something I'm willing to do at this time. We agreed we're going to be good friends, and I feel confident we will be. We talked about disappointments, and jealousy, and many other things. Then we made out a lot more, and had some fun in my car. We left the parking lot around 2:45am. So, all in all, I'm perfectly happy and emotionally stable right now (on this issue, at least). I'm surprised. I admit I was really hoping that a relationship might have formed, but for some reason it's like my subconscious already knew it wasn't going to work out and kept me from being disappointed. There was an initial pang of disappointment when he first mentioned it, but it dissipated quickly.

Anyway... I've been liking karaoke a lot. I like hanging out with Stacy and Tony, they're lots of fun and great singers. I've sang once in a while, too, usually at the smaller Creekside where it's more laid-back. I'll be singing a duet with Tony on Tuesday. That should be good! We'll be singing I'll Cover You from Rent.

I'm so ready for classes to be over so I can think about Christmas. I'm still kind of going back and forth over next semester, but I'm already signed up for classes. I might as well take them. They should be good!

Well, that's all I have time for now...