Readalottobooks , 25

I wrote a week ago.

Last Thursday night, around midnight, my friend Kim from high school called me. I met her up at Harrington's for a while for a drink. Had lots of fun catching up with her.

Friday night. Went out with Katie, Sara, and Ryan to Old Chicago. Brett's texting me, saying when am I going to be up at Mcguire's with them? Well... I paid for my beer at OC, and go to Mcguire's. I sit by Brett most of the night. He' pulls me in closer. I basically cuddle with him all night, with my head on his shoulder. We held hands too. And touched each others' legs. -sigh- I enjoyed Friday night a lot.

Damn it! I wish Brett were single. I really really do.

I guess I'll have to settle on being his friend with cuddling benefits...

Life is good, for the most part.

Got good mid-term grades. As in history, macro, and algebra. Got a B in chemistry.

Only skipped one day of class, and that's cuz I was really sick a week ago.

I'm extremely tired of being single right now. Extremely.

Idk why. I think i'm just tired of the rut that I'm in.

Work five days a week. Go to class 5 days a week. Go out for beers once, occasionally twice, a week.

that's my life.

I've been slacking off on homework, and I feel so bad about it.

But I'm in an "i don't care" state of mind right now.

i'm going to try to finish off the semester the best i can

i need to go to bed before this turns negative.

and it has the possibility of doing that very quickly.

Life continues to go well. I'm happy. I have friends. I have a social life. I'm doing well in classes. I have not skipped a single class for the first half of the semester. I'm doing well at work. Let me go into detail about some of these things.

My friends are numbered, but we're good friends. Sara and Brett are probably my two best friends at the moment, and Perky and I are still great friends. I text all three of them regularly. I see Sara and Brett fairly often at work, and Dan and I talk occasionally on the phone.

My social life is good. I usually go out about once a week. Actually, last weekend was fun. A few weeks ago, Sara and I went out with Chris in produce to Applebee's. Chris insisted on buying us dinner and a drink. So, I returned the favor at Old Chicago last Friday. We played trivia and had some beers. Good thing I have a credit card and enjoyed it. The bill came to $70. We left around 11 cuz Sara was tired. I decided to give Brett a call, and lo and behold, he was at Mcguires, one of my favorite bars, with his friends. So, after having three Woodchucks, I go to McGuires and have two more with them. Brett and I gave each other backrubs off and on that night. After I got home, I wrote my last entry on Kiwibox, although I don't really remember writing it. I have fun when I go out with Brett and his friends.

I wrote on Facebook a week or two ago that life was great, only one thing could make it better. In all honestly, I love my life right now. But I want to have a boyfriend. I could care less about sex, but I want to have someone to cuddle with, to make out with, to watch movies with. There've been several times lately when I really wish that I could do those things with Brett. He has a girlfriend that's currently in Pennsylvania, and he doesn't seem like the type to cheat, but I think something might be there. Like I wrote last time, Sara thinks there's something going on between me and Brett. She can tell that we like each other. I'm having a tough time distinguishing whether that attraction is as a good friend or as a potential boyfriend. :::pause::: The more I'm typing this, the more I want to be with Brett. I don't know. I won't see him until Friday or Saturday because he's in a long-term sub position right now, but if I break my Facebook fast (see a future paragraph), I would be able to chat with him online at night. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. I'll keep you updated.

Anyway, my sister claimed that I'm addicted to Facebook. So, I decided to challenge that. As of Friday March 13th, 1 pm CDT, I have not been on Facebook. My plan was to go one week without the social networking site. I do miss it a little bit, but I've been getting along just fine without it. The one reason why I might break this fast early is to chat with Brett at night. I think the 72 hours I've gone so far is really great. We'll see what happens when I get off of work tonight.

Classes are going well. I'm actually a little bit surprised that I haven't skipped any yet. I've decided that if I make it a whole semester without skipping, I'm going to reward myself. I'm not sure what, yet, but I'm thinking a new computer. So far two of my midterm grades are up. I have an A- in algebra, and an A in macroeconomics. I'm not too sure how chemistry will be, but I'm fairly certain history will be an A or a B.

I'm still unsure about school for next fall. Originally I was going to go to a four year, but tuition costs are really scaring me. Tuition itself, not counting room and board, is over $20,000. I was hoping to be able to pay most of it out of pocket because I'm semi-doubtful about financial aid that I'd be able to receive. At this point, I might just take some more classes at Scott, even though I don't need any. I want to talk to Brett, Sara and Dan about it.

We're planning on surprising my sister for her birthday. I'm not going to write it on here because I think she might stumble upon it, but she's going to LOVE it!!

Well, that's all I can think of for now.

I'll update soon!!

I haven't written in a while, and I don't plan on updating right now.

I think I like Brett.

I think I really like Brett.

Only one small problem.

Brett already has a girlfriend.

They're in a long-distance relationship.

Sara "can tell that" we "like each other."

Sara wanted me to try to kiss him tonight.

I didn't.

I did give him a good backrub, though.

He gave me a good backrub, too.

:::happy sigh:::

We'll see what might happen.

Ok, well, let's see.

It's been a weird week.

Or two weeks I should say.

I'm still tired of being single. One of my coworkers is in my algebra class, and I think he's kinda cool. Sara doesn't seem to like him, though. Sara wants to hook me up with Chris, the grocery TL. He's really nice, and I think he'd be great. Only one thing. He's twelve years older than me. He definitely doesn't seem that old, though. Perhaps someday something will happen. He doesn't have texting, though, so I'll have to try calling him. He's a great conversationalist.

I'm semi-used to being the only floor partner now. Work's been going ok.

One day, though, my hearing aid battery died. I was in the back crushing boxes, and attempt to switch it out. I dropped the hearing aid. I pick it up and try again. I drop it again, this time a chunk of plastic broke off. I said 'fuck' out loud (I definitely never swear at work), and tried it out. Thankfully it still works. I should get it checked out, though, to make sure that its function hasn't deteriorated. Anyway, so you know the basin of the ear where an in-the-ear hearing aid sits? The top bump inwards basically is gone from the aid. It's got rough jagged edges, but it doesn't impair it, at least as far as I know. The wiring inside is visible, but like I said, I don't think anything is impairing its functionality. It's mainly cosmetic.

Sara and I closed on Tuesday night (two days ago). I walk up to the podium cuz I was depositing boxes into the box bins, and I see a plaque up there. I check it out. Sara was given floor partner of the year at the yearly beginning meeting on Monday. I was shocked and pissed off, so the rest of the night I hardly said anything, and came close to tears a couple of times. After our nightly meeting, since I was done, the managers told me to go home. I did, but I forgot to count my register first. I was not having a good night. Anyway, Sara takes care of my register (actually, Chris counts it). Then, I go out to my car and have a good cry. The rest of the associates start coming out, and then I see Sara. We talk for a while. I told her about how shocked I was about the floor partner of the year thing, but it all was ok. Chris joined us for a while, too.

Even though I definitely don't have money to spend, I've been thinking a lot about buying a new computer. I really don't need one, but I think it'd be great to have a really powerful system with lots of memory and Vista. Maybe I should just wait until Windows 7 comes out. I hear that's supposed to be better than Vista.

So, our dog's been getting really old. She developed incontinence, and has been peeing in the house about once every other day. My dad has threatened to put her down for about the last two weeks, but this week he actually made the appointment. For today. I was expecting to be at class and lab the whole time they took her in, but I got home right as they were leaving for the vet.

I don't know how I feel about it.

She's the only pet we really had, other than fish.

Fish we were fine with if they died. Scoop them out, and flush them.

It sounds like we're getting Savannah cremated. I don't think I like that idea, but my sister's dealing with her death pretty hard. It'd help her out.

Anyway, I think that's all that I really needed to update you on.