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[color=black][font=tahoma]E N T R Y # O34[/font] [color=black] Yesterday was quite interesting. Alot happened, but it's not all that important at the time being. heh. See, I forgot to mention the other day that when I was on the phone with Mike.. I believe it was Sunday night.. same night he came over, we were talking about me having his paperclip still and shit, and since he was making marks on his arm and stuff.. I'd get him back for it.. so once my urges were here, nothings holding me back.. so I suppose he took a disk he had and took the metal part on it and sliced his wrists with that, cuz he was bleeding.. and all that shit. He told his Mom that the mark from the paper clip was the puppy, she she somehow believed him. -sigh- Not much I can do to stop the kid..so.. until he stops, I dont think I'll be able too. He made his own privleges.. so eh.. then at lunch yesterday Steph spilled her milk all over her skirt and her sweater, tis was very amusing. After school some little kid came up to me and gave me a tootsie roll, told me he already had two, so I can have that one. I stood there and just stared at him for like 3 mins. then I was like uhh...ookay?? It was odd. Not everyday do you see that one. hah. So, yet another story for you all.. Spirits were upset yesterday. I was gonna clean the puppys box for him.. went outside to get something... just opened the door, and a window popped out. So, I kinda stood there in shock.. like wtf.. and just stood there saying "they're mad they're mad, I didnt do it" I mean the house is old and all.. but I dont believe that to be just a coincidence that it fell out er whatever. I take that shit seriously. hah. Even if I shouldnt. So, went and picked it all up.. got cut like two times.. one wouldnt stop bleeding.. but whatever.. it's better now. I think. So... I added onto my collection of things.. bla bla bla Talked to Mike at 8 as usual. Not very much was said that would be worth repeating. Science test today.. that Im more than likely going to fail.. I found two tests on my desk yesterday morning and I failed them both.. Im slacking.. need to study more, cant let my grades slip right now. Not good. Then have a class field trip to Wisconsin.. The house on the rocks.. it's really gay.. and I dont wanna go. We have to be at school at 6am.. we get a nice coach bus and all, but still.. I hate all those people, dont want to spend more than a regular school day with all of them. damnit. On the way back, we're stopping by some buffet to eat.. and mind you, I dislike eating in front of people.. bleh.. and then we wont be back till like 8pm. It's just bullshit. I doubt I'll be able to get out of it. but eh. it blows. I dont really feel the greatest either, felt like shit all day yesterday.. and still do now. whoop dee doo. http://my.kiwibox.com/journals/journal.asp?id=169818[color=black]©luckys74r[/link] Julie- hah yeah.. couple more days. We could do it though. =D haha yeah.. I dont really like the rides.. amazingly enough. But im a very stubborn person as well. haha. Angie- Well, actually he hasnt been in my room **yet** lol. It wouldnt be that hard to get him into my room either, but with my house.. you know.. everyone always knows what your doing and shit. We just sit and chill in the living room most of the time. Well, there is the fear of the rides.. that and.. I'd probably end up puking.. I cant tolerate that kinda stuff. Too delicate. hah. hope you feel better though chick. Mark- Hope everythings okay for you. Take it easy over there. <3 Julia- hehe. yep yep.. I like calling him kid. =D thanks for leaving a response though. hope you have a good day. Trixie- yah, I know.. I wish you could be all happy and shit again. Im sure that boy is on your mind.. but if you wanna talk then just hit me up alright? I be here. Lurve you. Laura- bah, I know. I dont really like the fact that we both hurt ourselves like that.. but sometimes I guess that's just what makes me and him click so well, bcuz he finally understands, and he wont run from me. haha damn, reading your response.. we sound SO much alike. lol. no lie. haha, your great though chick. What can I say? hehe. your rawk my socks. =D Thanks for everything chick. Made me feel better. =) I LOVE YOU!! Shina- It probably wasnt that important, no worries. Lurve you though. Paperclip-cuts-one of a kind... we are-miss him already-dinner?--bleh--[bgcolor=white][font=wingdings][color=crimson][font=wingdings]«[/color] nn « nn « nn « nn « nn «[/font]
 [CENTER][font=eurostile]HERES MY HEART...[/font][/CENTER] [FONT=eurostile]I feel deprived of love. hah. Feels like somethings missing, but of course something always is. Sunday wasnt that bad of a day.. I suppose. But, I miss Mike already. Sometimes it scares me how much I really need that kid. He had to have been here around 1:30ish.. stood outside for awhile.. then walked around.. came inside.. played mortal kombat.. watched some movies.. had our fair share of kicks..I was sitting on the couch poking the safety pin through my skin and stuff.. was having fun.. Mike gets me back.. pulls out his paperclip..((mind you it's stretched out and shit)) makes a nice scratch on his arm.. by that time I stole it from him..He met me Father, finally. Dad's only input on him was that he was different and the next time he was here.. he'd talk more. But i highly doubt that. He clams up around parents and gets nervous and shit. So eh, i dont know. He left at 4:30.. was supposed to leave at 5.. but some shit happened. so ehh.. was planning on getting me hug.. but but yeah he was heading towards the car.. turned around looked at me,i was gonna go give up a hug, but eh.. his mom's boyfriends's friend was there and he wanted him to hurry up, so i was like yeah whatever.. shit happens..plus he doesnt like hugging people in front of other people..more like that guy in particular. next time im getting it though. although this is pretty damn sad. lmao. just a fucking hug. haha. I suppose we're just the perfect couple though.. both think with the same mind. hah. oh well. So that was that basically.. after he left.. all my happiness just sort of faded away.. felt like shit. Didnt wanna be there, and the scent of him was still in the room, so I I yeah.. I miss that kid so fucking much. I really do hope that this summer, getting together with him will be alot more exciting. hah. but yeah Mike ended up calling me at 8 last night.. usual time and he told me the guy that picked him up told him that I was hot and stuff and that Mike did a good job. =/ Just so happens to be that that guy lives down the street from me somewhere.. hah that's why he picked Mike up. but whatever. Then his ma's bf told Mike he should invite me over for dinner. One thing, Im a picky eater, number two, i dont like eating in front of people, none the less, him and his family. Another thing, When they go to Six Flags this summer, they had the idea of dragging me along bcuz they dont see me much.. but.. hah.. I dont do those ride things.. I dont think I can tolerate that. He asked his mom if he could bring Max instead.. which Im sure he'd have more fun with him than me, checking out other females and whatnot.. Im notthe type of person to go on those crazy ass rides.. soo i dont know. Didnt tell him that though. hah. whatever. My wrist feels alot better though. Not like it matters er anything.. but.. that's one less thing to worry about. Still got Mike's paperclip.. forgot I had it in my hand actually.. might use that one later.. -cough- but uh yeah..I I was licking it the whole time I was on the phone with him too. haha. so he's like "you know Im really gonna have to get that back now dont you" -grins- It was funny though cuz Mike had a dr.pepper when he was here.. and was being a dork.. licking it and shit.. so basically his slober was all over it.. by that time... twas half empty and he gave it to me to hold.. so when he wasnt looking I licked it.. hah. I told him I did after he drank more out of it, but dont think it mattered much to him. -shrugs- either way.. we need to get out more, I think.. only thing he did do was touch my ass. hah. But im not much of an out person.. oddly enough. Maybe cuz im so damn paranoid all the time and hate people eh? But, I glad that he got to come over at least. Just have to wait... another 5 more days... -sigh- Im nothing without him. While he was at his Gma's yesterday in the morning he sat there for like 20 minutes going "hey guess what" -what- "I love you" .. it was cute, I must say. But, I cant get enough of that kid. Sometimes I wonder.... [/font] [bgcolor=black][font=eurostile]ajzgurl69 Arniwyn LiL_Babie_Gurl Numba1Chic cleopat Skribblez67 4M4ND4 orangepinapples1 syCxNxThExHeAdx[/font][/bgcolor][CENTER][font=eurostile][font=wingdings][color=crimson][font=wingdings]«[/color] nn[/font] I'LL LET YOU BREAK IT. [font=wingdings]nn [color=crimson]«[/color][/font][/font][/CENTER][/bgcolor] [color=white]
ajzgurl69- hah, yeah.. I suppose so. Dont really see how though. Mark- hope everythings working out okay with you. <3 Julie- thanks for reading everything. =) hope you have a good day chick. Amanda- nope, havent ever been to that site. =/ dont think it matters much anyways. but oh well. as for the quote.. im sure on some levels it is wrong.. but he's a guy.. what do you expect? He's not the emotional type either.. so ehh. doesnt matter. The puppy's a pug actually. tis very cute. eh, i bet i AM ugly. Eh, clowns used to scare me as well.. after I watched the movie IT.. but now.. they want me... they they need me to be apart of their clan. Angie- sucks that kiwi deleted the response.. thank you for putting some more effort into the response though. heh. I wouldnt have been able to do that much again.. so i appreciate it. =) lol, i dont really like drugs all that much either.. but whatever floats his boat, I suppose. Not much I can do to stop him from anything. lurve you though. cleopat- thank you for the response Dear. Im sure everything will work out fine for you though. take it easy. Shina- no worries hunni. hah i know first hit of weed.. lol.. but despite that, i love the kid anyways. eek, trash. lol i dont know how you can sit there and pick that shit up. hah. i hate doing that. haha but i swear to god that old man was fucking freaky as hell. lol. Mike did come over, obviously, but that little emotional talk was done online.. i dont think i would have been able to do that on the phone or even in person.. heh. but oh well. ooh damn... a whole house to yourself.. lmao.. you be good over there missy. =P Trixie- I suppose, Im alright for the most part.. you take it easy over there chick. Lurve you. Julia- aww, I hope your toes okay. hehe. but yeah.. Im hoping for a long relationship with Mike.. who knows what the future brings though. Im interested in knowing.. but ehh.. I suppose i should just live now eh? xxxxxxxI love Mike
I feel deprived of love. hah. Feels like somethings missing, but of course something always is. Sunday wasnt that bad of a day.. I suppose. But, I miss Mike already. Sometimes it scares me how much I really need that kid. He had to have been here around 1:30ish.. stood outside for awhile.. then walked around.. came inside.. played mortal kombat.. watched some movies.. had our fair share of kicks..I was sitting on the couch poking the safety pin through my skin and stuff.. was having fun.. Mike gets me back.. pulls out his paperclip..((mind you it's stretched out and shit)) makes a nice scratch on his arm.. by that time I stole it from him..He met me Father, finally. Dad's only input on him was that he was different and the next time he was here.. he'd talk more. But i highly doubt that. He clams up around parents and gets nervous and shit. So eh, i dont know. okay okay, so I know what it is.. had a little memory flash there.. about Mike when he said he always wanted to sit and watch tv er something with someone and just sit and cuddle.. and that.. that's what I need. the holding, the loving.. the the whole shabang. -sigh- Having withdrawals already. Didnt think this one was gonna come into play.. damnit... sometimes I really hate me. He left at 4:30.. was supposed to leave at 5.. but some shit happened. so ehh.. was planning on getting me hug.. but but yeah he was heading towards the car.. turned around looked at me,i was gonna go give up a hug, but eh.. his mom's boyfriends's friend was there and he wanted him to hurry up, so i was like yeah whatever.. shit happens.. next time im getting it though. although this is pretty damn sad. lmao. just a fucking hug. haha. I suppose we're just the perfect couple though.. both think with the same mind. hah. oh well. So that was that basically.. after he left.. all my happiness just sort of faded away.. felt like shit. Didnt wanna be there, and the scent of him was still in the room, so I I yeah.. I miss that kid so fucking much. I really do hope that this summer, getting together with him will be alot more exciting. hah. My wrist feels alot better though. Not like it matters er anything.. but.. that's one less thing to worry about. Still got Mike's paperclip.. forgot I had it in my hand actually.. might use that one later.. -cough- but uh yeah.. It was funny though cuz Mike had a dr.pepper when he was here.. and was being a dork.. licking it and shit.. so basically his slober was all over it.. by that time... twas half empty and he gave it to me to hold.. so when he wasnt looking I licked it.. hah. I told him I did after he drank more out of it, but dont think it mattered much to him. -shrugs- either way.. we need to get out more, I think.. only thing he did do was touch my ass. hah. But im not much of an out person.. oddly enough. Maybe cuz im so damn paranoid all the time and hate people eh? But, I glad that he got to come over at least. Just have to wait... another 5 more days... -sigh- Im nothing without him. While he was at his Gma's yesterday in the morning he sat there for like 20 minutes going "hey guess what" -what- "I love you" .. it was cute, I must say. But, I cant get enough of that kid. Sometimes I wonder.... ajzgurl69- hah, yeah.. I suppose so. Dont really see how though. Mark- hope everythings working out okay with you. <3 Julie- thanks for reading everything. =) hope you have a good day chick. Amanda- nope, havent ever been to that site. =/ dont think it matters much anyways. but oh well. as for the quote.. im sure on some levels it is wrong.. but he's a guy.. what do you expect? He's not the emotional type either.. so ehh. doesnt matter. The puppy's a pug actually. tis very cute. eh, i bet i AM ugly. Eh, clowns used to scare me as well.. after I watched the movie IT.. but now.. they want me... they they need me to be apart of their clan. Angie- sucks that kiwi deleted the response.. thank you for putting some more effort into the response though. heh. I wouldnt have been able to do that much again.. so i appreciate it. =) lol, i dont really like drugs all that much either.. but whatever floats his boat, I suppose. Not much I can do to stop him from anything. lurve you though. cleopat- thank you for the response Dear. Im sure everything will work out fine for you though. take it easy. Shina- no worries hunni. hah i know first hit of weed.. lol.. but despite that, i love the kid anyways. eek, trash. lol i dont know how you can sit there and pick that shit up. hah. i hate doing that. haha but i swear to god that old man was fucking freaky as hell. lol. Mike did come over, obviously, but that little emotional talk was done online.. i dont think i would have been able to do that on the phone or even in person.. heh. but oh well. ooh damn... a whole house to yourself.. lmao.. you be good over there missy. =P Trixie- I suppose, Im alright for the most part.. you take it easy over there chick. Lurve you. Julia- aww, I hope your toes okay. hehe. but yeah.. Im hoping for a long relationship with Mike.. who knows what the future brings though. Im interested in knowing.. but ehh.. I suppose i should just live now eh? [x. Your like my first hit of weed x.] -Nothing lasts forever- sore-emotional-cant let him go--sigh-[bgcolor=white]
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Talked to Mike in the morning, then he left, sat around for awhile, Lynsey came over, then Joey came over.. we basically played with the puppy.. all that good stuff. Nothing exciting. They left.. sat around some more. played mortal kombat, damn do I love that game. -grins- soo much blood. bwahhaha. then, spent two hours at the other being as a slave. Sucked ass, I scraped paint off like 9 huge windows.. my right wrist hurts like a bitch. But whatever, doesnt matter. - * * -Oh yeah, and make sure you be careful when you see an old guy out after 10:00. haha. some crazy shit man. We went out to the car and found tulips on the hood. Didnt know where they came from. But there was a old guy walking around.. crazy as fuck. So eh. Could have been him. Anyways, got home, waited for Mike online, since I called his house and no one picked up. And he showed up, thankfully. =D So, sooner or later we ended up in an emotional convo. He was saying stuff about when we break up if we stop talking for awhile, when he's like 30 if i dont mind if he could come track me down again. I highly doubt he'd want anything to do with me by then. But who knows. And he was saying other cute little shit, like how it was tearing his heart that he hasnt seen me in like two weeks.. all that good stuff. really made me think. And then he said I know we wont last forever.. and people probably get sick of the same person after awhile, but i dont wanna lose you.. and he said something about staying with me till he was like 18. - * * - Im not willing to let the kid go, and I can see we're on the same page now. I dont wanna lose him, he dont wanna lose me, Im not sick of the kid, dont think I ever will be either. So.. I suppose, just as i told him, only time shall tell. He's being more emotional than me this time.. for a change. haha. But, he said I was the only one he probably wouldnt be able to get over, and after he leaves.. I dont think I'll be dating for awhile. I'm sure my ugly ass will be single for awhile. but, I cant even look at another guy anymore and think or even pretend like I want him, even if he's cute er something. Mike's the one my heart/mind is set on. Nothings changing that at all - * * -But eh yeah, enough of that. I almost started crying when he said all that shit too. hah. So, if all goes well.. he should be coming over today. His mom went out drinking last night, and he's at his Gma's so he's gonna call her later and see if he can come over. So I have the house duty as usual. Get to clean.. all that good stuff. Should have a good time too. Mike's still planning on getting me back for annoying the hell outta him. haha. So, if Im lucky, Im gonna see him, hug him, get bit by him, and who knows what else. lmao, but dont worry. I stay clean. hehe. damn damn damn, I really like that kid. -sigh- Sorry this got so long as well. 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[color=white] Don't miss out, on anything at Arniwyn[color=ffffff]Arniwyn[/user]'s 500th entry! Come http://my.kiwibox.com/journals/journal.asp?id=228983[color=ffffff]here[/link] to join the madness! [font=webdings]<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<[/font][font=Trebuchet MS] Ally- Hopefully all does go well, and we do have a blast together, usually he's all paranoid bcuz of people being around.. so hopefully he'll manage to loosen up. hehe. I wasnt really trying to force people to feel bad for you or anything, just trying to look out for you Dear. Showing you that I really do care. Maybe other peoples advice would help as well, you can never get enough of that, ya know? Tis why im so grateful to have all my subbys and wahtnot. But your very welcome for me doing that. Take it easy though, hope everythings alright. <3 Julia- haha, yeah funny.. I live with 6 other people as well. so yeah I know what you mean with the whole cleaning bit.. it sucks ass. glad you liked the poem though. =) I thought it was one of my good ones too. hehe. Angie- Well thanks for leaving me something. =) hehe. lurve you. Trixie- Im doing just fine at the moment. Hope your feeling alright though babe. lurve you. Laura- MY SEXXY GIRL YOU!! teehee. lol sorrys bout your light burnning out on you. hah. funny cuz two of the lightbulbs in my house burnt out too. =/ oh well. haha, I wouldnt say im sexilicious.. lol but if you say so. hehe. thank you Darling. But, I think your sexilicous too. lol, It's nice to see the effect I have on people though. hehe. Your too cute. =D Glad you liked the poem too. -grins- I cant wait to show you the other one, I think you'll really like it. <3 I LOVE YOU!!! [x. Tables have turned x.] Poem- Maybe there's hope--ungrounded?-change in plans-[bgcolor=black]
[font=Courier New][[*my.dirty.secrets*]][/font] [/bgcolor]*Entry-031*Time 11:32 [font=Courier New]bleed for me[/font] [bgcolor=black][limg=img9.photobucket.com/albums/v27/Morningstar628/kindcolor.bmp] [x. What's the point in smiling when you have no one to smile for? x.] Tis a very true quote. Indeed. But I've found my reason for smiling. I can truly say that I have. But at the moment it seems that the tables have turned. I didnt talk to Mike last night. I was thinking about calling him, but figured he's grounded and all.. mine as well not even bother. Then I figured he might call me, so i waited for that. And got nothing. so whatever, didnt really bother me much. But i was going through withdrawals. heh. I really do need that kid, otherwise without him, I'd lose my mind. heh. So, he comes online around 9:30ish. I had a feeling he would be.. so I sat around online for awhile, and there he is.. and funny thing is, he convinced his Mom to unground him. But the catch is, he has to mow the lawn for free.. cant get anymore phone calls from the school, and he cleaned the house for her. So he got out of everything. Has his freedom/life back. He's happy. Im happy. So there might be a possibilty of me getting together with him tomorrow as planned. He's still working on getting me back for annoying the hell outta him. hah. So, Im just happy he's ungrounded. So I still have some of my sanity left. that's what matters. I suppose. heh. I dont know. When I saw him get online.. I was so fucking happy. i couldnt believe it. Although, I really dont have much to do today. Lynsey might be coming over.. so I can chill with her. That's about it. Or probably cleaning the house incase Mike gets to come over, and even if he doesnt.. the house needs to be cleaned anyways. Im the only one who does it usually.. I cant stand it looking like shit, so whatever. hah. we shall see.. what happens. I dont want to continue dragging this on, cuz I dont have much to say really. But on thing in particular is one of me friends on here, Ally, also known as beachdevil182.. she's having a hard time at this point. So, if you got the heart, go give her some support. It'd be greatly appreciated. =) And I'll love you forever. hahah. Dogs attacking me now.. lmao. It's funny cuz he reminds me of me. -grins- suicidle spaz. yup. Ah well, I know I said I had some new poems to share with you.. so i dont have anything else to say.. so here it goes... All they want is to see me happy All they need is a smile They'll believe anything but they dont realize the pain behind my eyes the pain behind the smiles It's so hard to smile when you have nothing to smile about no one to smile for when will they realize im really not who they think I am every smile is fake when they say im beautiful they're lying take a look inside the part that matters most right? tell me how pretty my broken heart is tell me, how many times do you think I wish to be here look at how many times I've been stabbed bleeding to death but the demon in me comes out to play at night no one knows what happens when im alone at night but, im tired of faking tired of pretending so I'll pull out the blade the darkness is when they come out blood races out tears being shed all the makeups smearing black streaks going down her face tell me how pretty I am now? look at those scars tell me what you think now? try to understand me now you'll never know why I do what I do so leave me be with these uncontrollable tears as they've all left me and leave me be in the darkness with my blade and whatever happens.. happens... it wont matter anyways ©SCV journal entry here journal entry here journal entry here journal entry here[/bgcolor] [font=Courier New]my lust for blood[/font] [bgcolor=black][rimg=img9.photobucket.com/albums/v27/Morningstar628/vampdude.bmp]Wearing Make-up: none yet Jewlery: necklace, 3 rings, jelly bracelets Eating/Drinking:nothing Person:Ally Kiwi: Shina Subby:Julia Journal: Angie Website:this one Book: Many Lives, Many Masters Quote: You never realize what you have until it's gone Band: D12 Song: Git up Album: D12 World Lyrics [/bgcolor] [font=Courier New]every tear is a tear for you[/font]  Arniwyn beachdevil182 LiL_Babie_gurl Skribblez67 Numba1chic sweetstuff2169 orangeapples1 SyCxNxThExHeAdx responder responder responder responder responder responder responder responder [font=Courier New]only you can save me[/font] [bgcolor=black]  [[ * 4M4ND4AmongtheLiving Arniwyn beachdevil182 InsaneLeo intensify LiL_Babie_Gurl Numba1chic orangepineapples1 playb0ibabiexo Skribblez67 Sme sweetstuff2169 stephy77 SyCxNxThExHeAdx xDarkxAngelx* ]] [/bgcolor] ©Morningstarx628 Julie- Yup yup, thank you much Dear. Hope you have a good weekend as well. =D Angie- hah, i know. That's what I told Mike too, he should do his work, but he said he just didnt do 4 assignments and yet he's still passing the class.. I think he said he had a 78.. which is like what.. a D? a passing grade is a passing grade but still. When i told him he should start, he goes oh great I have another mom now.. then he said j/p.. meh.. he can be an ass sometimes. Im sure things will work out with Jas again, no worries love. You'll be okay. Prince charming will show up again. oh yeah, sorry about not coming back last night either. I was pooped out. <3 Mark- hehe, your very welcome. =D You deserved it too. hope you had a good birthday though. Take care. <3 Jen- Yeah, it does suck that i havent seen him for like 2 weeks.. but i suppose i just gotta stick it out strong and live through it, lifes tough.. bleh.. and oh jebuz Jen. I bet you are too fucking pretty. Cant remember if I seen a picture of you or not, but im pretty damn sure you are. and i highly doubt that your fat too. -shakes head- you dont be so hard on yourself Dear. Trixie- heh, that's cool chick. no worries. Julia- Wow, well I was really surprised that so many people liked my poetry, but it feels good knowing that my writing has such a huge affect on people. heh. hope your alright though hunni. much love to yaz. <3 Shina- bwahahha. I had fun talking to you yesterday. =D Hope everythings okay now. love you. Ally- heh yeah. I suppose your right. I should just get my head outta my ass and start living like I should be. thanks chick. Hope your alright though. Lemme know if you need anything. =) <3 |
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