We do have cameras there actually. I know where every single camera is and where it is placed. Although, I do not know how much it actually records and for how long it stays on the recording. I don't think any job is really going to tell you that either. BUT, we're all aware that they are there and if they didn't want us to know they wouldn't put the main video watching place in the office where we all go.

I don't really know how this all started. The lady started talking to me all nicely about the six key dashboard or whatever it was. And she described each column which was basically the sum of everything that I was doing at the register and what keys I was hitting and how my cash handling was. Now, I guess the biggest thing she had to worry about was my price verifying. We weren't told until just a month or so ago that too many price verifys look bad for the store. But, how else do you tell someone the price of something when they ask you? Especially.. in my case, a lot of people were curious about clearance items and for the longest time we did not have each individual item marked. So, it only makes sense to ring it up and check the price cause chances are there wasn't a tag up there anyways. So, then she told me it's highly unlikely that it would happen that much in cosmetics. But, if you want me to get sales there... dont you think I'd have to fucking stand by the counter and ring people up there and help them in MY designated area? HELLO?!?!?! So that was the biggest red flag for them and I guess the other thing was the "hard" key, and I didnt even know what that was. Apparently, its the self-serve button and it's not my fault that things don't ring up correctly or ring up at all... so, I hit the self-serve button. And maybe if we had better communication there we would know what to do when something doesn't ring up. I guess that looks bad for the store also because it messes up the stock room and inventory, which is fine, I understand that. But.. they keep all these things a secret and then bash us with everything at the end like its all our fault and that's not right. So, she asked me what I was doing when I price verify and I told her that was that. Then she went to say she was watching me one time when I was ringing up Jessica. And from right then she started trying to dig my hole and pressure me from then on to the whole situation if I knew what she was talking about etc. etc. Here I was.. thinking if I didn't lie and I was honest it would help me. But, apparently honesty is never really the best policy.

I think they already knew Jessica was stealing things. So, I felt like I had no choice but to admit it because she was. And plus, I didn't want shit to backfire on me like I was stealing that stuff because it was coming out of my department. So, she asked me what I was doing with the price verifying. And that situation just turned bad because then she accused me of assisting her with stealing things. Technically, I never handed her the bag. We put the stuff in two separate bags and left them behind the counter. As far as I knew, she was coming back to pay for the things she really didn't pay for. And when I came back, they were gone. That night she was leaving early - so how is it my fault that the items were gone? Then she goes on to say that whatever happens at that register is my responsibility, so they blame it on me that those items she took was my fault. Then she tried to say it happened more than one time and I said no. And she looked at my funny like she didn't believe me. I coulda swore it never happened more than that. She said like 20 times. I said once. Less than 10. Less than 5. And, I do believe it was only once that it happened and all the other times... she took shit on her own. Yeah, I prob should have said something and I didnt. And yeah, I was wrong for not making her pay for them and going with it. BUT, they're putting all the blame on me and I didn't walk away with any of their shit. Nothing at all. And, I think the most ironic part is that she asked me what products they were. So, if she was really watching the camera and that incident she would have known what they were? So.. she was poking and prodding at me to get information out. Course, there's her job. But, she manipulated me the whole entire way through it and me being under pressure is horrible cause I really dont think before I say things. I wasnt expecting all that. I wasnt expecting any of it, really.

So.. then she goes to say that it may have been like 100 dollars worth of stuff that she took. I did agree, but I think I should have been more specific about that because it made it seem like I've given her at least 100 dollars worth of things when I really haven't at all. Whatever she took that night was probably only like 30 bucks at the most. So.. I was dumb and under pressure and thought maybe if I kept telling the truth it would save my ass and maybe if I just agreed to pay back what was missing - it would save my ass and possibly my job as well and we could just forget about it. But, i guess... that really wasn't the case at all and it all just backfired and hit me in the face. I ended up signing this paper that said I sold things to Jessica that she didn't pay for and that paper turned into..... a paper that said I paid 100 dollars of theft amount. which, i never stole anything.. so its basically admitting i was guilty and that Im a thief, when im really neither of those. And, then she told me she has to file a civil case and I may get fined by someone else and also... that a number of other companies are connected to my work.. so there's a chance that they may not hire me and this stays in effect for five years. So, I didnt know I was signing my life away and she never told me that either. So.. after that... she told me to get my stuff, dont talk to Jessica on the way out, and just leave the store. And Jim told me that was my last paycheck, which I only got 27.68 because of the 100 he took out, and then he said he has to let me go. So, being honest didnt do me any good and she bribed me into signing something that I knew nothing about. So, Im fucked.

My dad called the next day to talk to Jim about it and he said he didnt know anything about it - which is a lie cause he was in the room the whole time AND he fired me. Then he called again and laughed in his face and said I signed that paper and also that he cant talk to my dad about it because im not a minor anymore. And that we needed to talk to the lady instead. Then, somehow we got the number for corporate. They were supposed to call the other night, but they never did. So, we called two times today and I think we kind of got somewhere. He threatened with a lawyer to them and then they made a quick move but the lady he needed to talk to was busy, so she's going to call tomorrow morning, I believe. And all of this had to be done in a short amount of time because the lady had to turn in her case file by Friday. So, I think... we're going to be talking to the lady that can help stop this. Although, Im really not sure. I hope it doesnt turn out to be any bigger than it already is and we can just squash this shit tomorrow and be done. I'd rather be broke for awhile then have to have my parents get a lawyer etc. etc.

So.. that is my current stand of drama. That lady really did pressure me into everything and that is really her job. The same situation happened to my dad when he was working. Except he only paid 50 dollars and his boss said there wasnt even any cameras for proof. So, they basically tear you to pieces till you admit stuff and learn how to quickly manipulate your answers to use them against you and find out more information. I honestly didnt know how much she knew, so I felt like I didnt have a choice but to be honest. I figured they'd put me on suspension or probation and it'd be okay, but... apparently not. I just cant wait for this to be done. But.. I know I didnt walk away with anything from there that I didn't pay for. I think it was all primarily based on accusations and previous events, and the more she badgered me and pressured me about certain issues the more she got out of me and worked with to use against me. And that's how it lead to me signing those papers which i shouldnt have signed. So, hopefully that all gets stopped today and I can just worry about finding another job and that's it.

I have two places that I applied to that Im waiting for results at. And in the midst of that - I ended up volunteering at a senior citizen's place that's connected to the place I applied to. I kinda hope something good can come out of this. I thought I'd at least try to out anyways. It's only volunteering. So, if I dont like it.. it wont be the end of the world if I quit. heh. So, Im starting that on Monday - doing reception stuff. By then.. I'll prob be checking the status of my application and go from there. I dont really know where else to apply at this point. I do know how hard it is to find a job.. and it really does suck. Though, I know my parents are just a wee bit happy I'm home and around more. Only thing though - is I dont want to bum off them to pay for my things. I still got bills to pay. I was almost done paying my first loan too. Arg. Ive been running around trying to find places.

Im baking a cake for my sister's graduation party this saturday. Im pretty much done with it, I just need to put it together and frost it/decorate it. Im quite thrilled. Aside from that - my car has been at a car place since Wednesday. =[ They took it in then, but I guess it wasnt going to get looked at until today. So, I dont really know when Im going to get it back. Its a free inspection though, so that's cool beans. Think it was going in to check the lifespan and see if the air condition could be fixed and apparently I need new brakes again. boo.

It's been awhile since I've seen my boy too. I thought it would be easier to see him with me being out of work now too, but not really. Aha. Now its back to the old days where we work around his schedule. Idk what we're doing tomorrow or when. But... eventually we'll get around to something.

So what did I learn?
I guess the moral of the story is not to let other people control your life or any situation that you are in. Don't ever sign anything that you dont know EVERYTHING about. And.. it seems like telling the truth gets you nowhere else.. so you mine as well lie. what the hell.