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Let me know, that I'm the oneI forgot to mention, I think, that yesterday an apparently random guy came into work looking for me. Justin was the one that told me, and I asked him to describe the guy for me but he couldn't. Apparently, he cannot tell the difference between a white guy, mexican guy, or a black guy and that is very sad. So, I spent the whole entire night worrying that one of the guys that hit on me would come back into work and try something new. Thankfully, no one came in that I saw and if they did.. they didn't bother me. And all that getting hit on crap is getting really old. They always say I need to do something about it. But, I think I'd like to start over somewhere new. Or just not have to be there as often anymore, because I'm starting to get worried again. And really - I used to never come out of my house because I was getting hit on. People laughed at me when I said this, but it got pretty bad sometimes and I don't want to set myself up for anything like that especially when I don't have muscly boys with me to protect me all the time. Oh well. I still have not told anyone there that I applied at Petsmart. I wonder how well that's going to go over. HAH! But, I think if I'm not getting promoted any faster.. I mine as well go somewhere else where I can get paid more. They should accept that and if they dont they can fire me for all I care. I get three days off in a row. =] mmmm. Kristine keeps saying its because Andy feels bad for me that he scheduled me for six days in a row. Im quite thrilled. And, I still have wednesday and fridays off. So huzzah! I shall be having much more time with the boy, probably. He actually came and surprised me at work. Though, I had a hunch he was going to show up and he def did. heh. Funny how that works. But, it was nice. We kind of ...talked loudly in the store for a wee bit, but he later apologized for everything. Guess he said he didnt want to argue with the little time that we spend talking and seeing each other - so he listened to what I had to say and said sorry and whatever. I'd like to say things will change or it wont happen again, but I doubt that. Saying these things makes me feel like a really big psychotic bitch, but I guess I just take things a bit more personally than I should. But, I really dont like to hear my boyfriend call another girl beautiful and then turn around and say the same thing to me. I dont like that at all. He's always up and down with things... I can never tell what he really means. Arg. I dont know. I guess its over and done with though. =/ At least for now. Oh well. Perfume spilled in my purse. I'm quite saddened because I was in love with this new purse I bought. And everyone that saw it was loving it too. And.. I've washed it like three times and I cant get the stinky smell out of it. =[ It got over EVERYTHING! Arg. Even my wallet. I was brilliant and thought I could wash it outta there, but apparently.. wallets have a lot of cloth type things in them. So, now its kinda bulgy and I pretty much ruined it. It was a nice wallet.. and all the other ones I have are too small. Thus, I needed a new one and I new purse. I bought a new one tonight. Im not as thrilled with this one as the other one, but its pretty big still and I like it. And the night before I bought a new wallet online. <333 I hope its as big as it says it is. It looks really sweet though. bwahaha. Oh yeah.. and I'm not gonna lie... the first half or prob a bit more than half of that entry last night had a different meaning for someone else. Im about halfway done with my homework. Plus, I have the midterm to do which I really have no desire to do at all. poop. I cant wait till schools over. I'll get... maybe like a three week break and then have to start up again. =P Ahaa. think im gonna challenge myself this time.... maybe. Or, perhaps I'll see how the interview at Petsmart goes first before I decide to start taking over the world. =/This happens everytime I see his face. My knees get weak, my heart starts pounding, and my hands get shaky. I could leap into his arms and squeeze him tightly; I would never let go. There's something about him, the way that he looks at me, the way that he touches me; it just feels so right. He makes me feel like a little school girl having to deal with my very first (big) crush. I'll never understand what attracts me to him so much. I'll never know why my heart still yearns for him. It's all a mystery to me. A mystery that I will never understand. Sometimes I think I'd like to start solving this puzzle, but then I wonder if it will really be worth it? Do I give up everything that I have just to be with him? Do I drop everything I've worked so hard to keep just to see if this is real? It sure does feel real; it felt real. But, I guess I'll never really know. I can't forget his face. I can't forget the way he looked into my eyes. I can't forget the way he cried those tears for me; the way that he hugged me so tightly and didn't want to let me go. I can't forget any of it. My mind won't let me. Even if I try, I can't forget it. It feels like my heart is trying to pull me in two different directions. But, I'm not strong enough to take the chances or to take those risks at messing things up. I've worked so hard to get where I am now. I really have. I gave up everything that I had or could have had to be here with him, and I'm not ready to drop it all. Though, I feel like a horrible person for still feeling this way. I want my wounds to heal for good. I don't want these emotions lingering in my heart. I'm kind of a bit upset right now. I dont know where to go with this. And, I found some other things that I'm not so thrilled about either. =/ Though, I dont know if I should say anything about it or not. It could be harmless chatting. Who knows. But, I hate when he calls someone else beautiful and turns around and says the same thing to me. I don't like to hear repeated things, that's when I start to not believe it. I dont want the same old stupid lines someone else is getting. I could just be over reacting. Lord knows that's probably what it is, but I guess that makes all my fears come back.. and maybe there are a ton of wounds that still have yet to heal. The sad part... is that none of that will matter to him. BooooDrama. Drama. Drama. Nothing but drama at my work. I'm pretty much sick of it, really. Two girls dont show up all the time. They don't call nor do they show up. Both of them should pretty much be fired at this point. But, of course, no one is doing anything about it. Which makes me believe they really don't care about anything. One chick was on vacation and came back to find out she wasn't on the schedule anymore for this week, but the other girl didnt show up, so she got to work to cover for her anyways. But, then she's back on the schedule next week and her and the other girl have the same amount of cut hours. We did hire a new person though. I was all excited because he was Italian. Buuuut really... he's pretty darn old and kind of a weirdo. So, it's not all that exciting anymore. haha. I had to train him though on the register and I actually didn't mind it. I was hoping I would be the one to train the new people actually. But, I dont know whats happening to the girls yet. Dont think even they know. It's quite annoying though. We're all fed up with it and it's not really fair to any of us that work there, because we have to pick up their slack and sacrifice our job to do theirs and then we really don't get anything done. Then.. Kristine went and said that now you need a bachelors degree to become an assistant manager. And... if that's the case, Im freaking going to leave for.. for real. Or at least only work there as a side job until they seriously do promote me. But, even so... then Im kinda worried about it cause they transfer people a lot and I wouldnt want to commute to somewhere far from my house. It may help me leave my house, but.... I still wouldnt want to leave everything just yet. Idk. Either way... that's a good couple years away. I guess the point is... Im going to keep job hunting and see if I can find anything else. Which... surprise surprise... I applied at Petsmart on Tuesday afternoon and got a call from them Wednesday afternoon that they wanted to interview me. So, Mike has an interview there on Tuesday and I have an interview there on Wednesday. Kinda makes me laugh. I think...he's hoping we dont end up working together. but, im pretty sure they pay more than Walgreens.. so, I sure would leave. And the nice thing I would really like about Petsmart is that they close at either 9pm or 6pm and that's all gravy with me. I wouldnt mind working with Mike... I dont think. At least I'd still be seeing him.. kind of. But, I guess that could go good or bad. The only thing he said is that there's a difference between hearing about me getting hit on and actually SEEING it.. and something about how he wouldnt be able to handle it. Idk. I just wanted to see if they'd call me for an interview.. cause I really am getting tired of Walgreens.. despite, I have met some really nice people there and all. And speaking of getting hit on... I got my first number just the other day. Not that Im racist er anything, but since I started working there only black guys have been hitting on me. And.. I was kind of talking to this one guy.. just making casual conversation while I was making sure Patrick (the new guy) was doing okay and ringing things up right. Then I walk away and hear him say he needs something and he comes and starts asking me if he can take me out to dinner and a movie. And he wanted to give me his number so I was like.. okay. I wrote it down and shoved it to the side and he's like okay now dont go throwing it away when I walk out the door. then I laughed. He asked for my number but I was like yeahhh no thankss. and, I havent seen him come back in yet. Most guys say they will come back.. and they dont. So, Im quite happy about that. haha. But then.... todayy this mexican guy hit on me. He broke the black guy trend. I've seen him there before.. I rang him up the other day and he just kept smiling at me. so i was like..k that's cool. Then he comes back with his friend today and just sits in the isles watching me and Kristine talk. Then Im facing and he stops me and just starts talking to me and hitting on me. Mind you... his english is still very broken. Apparently, he's from Mexico. I kept laughing at him and told him his english sucked. bahaha. It wasnt that bad, actually.. I was just messing with him. Then he thought I spoke spanish. and.. i dont understand why people think I speak spanish. haha. I asked him why he thought that and he said cause he saw spanish words on my bracelet. Im wearing an organ donar bracelet that says donate life in english and spanish and he said he noticed it. The only thing good that came out of this... was that I got to brush up on my spanish skills. He spoke to me in spanish a little and was surprised I knew so much. So, I told him he cant talk shit about me now cause i understand him. but.. he was a real creeper. He followed me around and wouldnt leave me alone. He wouldnt take no for an answer and even when I said I was taken.. he still persisted. And to top if off.. he thought I was 14. So... I asked him how can I work here and be 14?? And on top of that.. if he thought I was 14 why would he still be hitting on me? Really? That's a creeper right there. And thenn... they were waiting for me outside by my car. I thought for sure they would be there and they were. I sped my ass home. I was doing like 55 in a 45 and saw a cop chillen on the side of the rode. I thought for sure I was gonna get stopped too...which is funny cause i said if i get stopped.. im gonna tell them its too bad cause ive got stalkers. oh well. So far my school is going well. I should have an A in there. This week we're doing a midterm. Im not so thrilled.. cause i dont want to do any more work right now. Gah. I didnt realize class ends kinda soon though too. I think its like the first week or two in August. And then.... I should prob work on .. signing up for new classes for the fall semester before its too late. I hate having this loan over my head though.. and Im already getting another one. gahh. buuuttttt Im trying to put most of my monies away. And Im forgetting about the loan. hah. My mom said she was gonna help pay for some of it, but that didnt happen yet. Im doing what I can though. oh well. I felt like writing.... even though this is crappyyy. Im sad I have to work this weekend. gah. Mike only has to work 6am-10am Sat. and I have to close. =[ sun.. we both have to work. But, im kinda excited cause then i have three days off. after that.. I think im back to working tues and thursdays and then sat and sun. so, i'll now have wed and fri's off till i change it. mmmm! thats exciting. I hope Mike doesnt have to work any of those days. ahh well. I miss my boy. I need more time with him. Im rekindling some friendships. =] It's so nice. And here I am, alas!Hello my loves --
It has been quite some time since I've been here. Feels like ages actually. And, I must apologize for not keeping up with journals. Usually I make time even with the time that I dont have. =P But, ah well. I made up for it. Apparently it's a "Walgreen's policy" that you have to have a degree to be an assitant. I asked Kristine (assistant manager) about this and she said it was a rule. They try to make it better and say that it does not matter what the degree is in, but you must have one. And of course in order to keep moving higher in the company you need to continue your education up to a bachelor's degree. Granted, I was thinking of doing that anyways... but if I stick with Walgreens I could prob get pretty high really fast at the rate I'm going. I'm still debating if I want to wait it out at Walgreens anyways and possibly become an assistant manager after I get my Associates degree.. or just look for a better/higher paying job now. Idk. =/ I do know that for now it's paying my bills and that's what counts. I was enrolled in three summer courses. Keyword: WAS I quickly found out that I was trying to take on a whole lot more than I could handle. Needless to say, I'm only taking one class now. I think if I didn't have to work two jobs I could probably handle it. I guess I failed to remember that summer courses are more fast paced and thus it's 10x the work it would normally be. I'm just not that pro yet. But, I dont feel as bad cause I'm getting a refund of my money and I guess I'm going to use that money to pay off the loan that I still have not started paying off yet. Then the other day I just agreed to take on two more loans, so I really need to get working on that. It's just me and one little Sociology class now. Then before I know it - I'll be enrolling in fall semester courses again. Uhm.. yeah. Kinda seems like I've fallen off the face of the earth. I bet I worried you all not being on here, huh? haha. Well, at least I know Kelli was thinking about me. teehee. But, basically... my routine is getting up, working at home, getting ready to leave for work, go to work, and come home. Sometimes I do more work to save work for the next morning.. and try to find time to talk to my boy in the midst of it all. So.. really... all I do is work these days. I'm finding it harder and harder to get time to see Mike or even just to talk to him. We went out for lunch on Friday though and that was very nice. I think we discussed that we would try this whole seeing each other more on days that we have the time. Mondays he usually works 6am-2pm. I was working Mondays.. but now I'm scheduled back on Tuesdays now and he closes on tuesday as well. So, there's still enough time to see each other on Monday. I hope we do make more efforts.. cause otherwise, I'm going to go crazy. It really sucks not being able to see him as much. I mean, it does make me appreciate my time more with him and all that good stuff. But... it's hard to be away from him and then barely get to talk to him on top of that. I'm starting to feel a bit better about it though because he's calling me more and he started calling me at work randomly just to say hi or just cause he's bored.. and that's an interesting change for him. Seems like he's putting in more effort.. or just showing that he cares more. Sometimes.. he makes it seem like he really doesn't care at all and then I wonder wtf I'm doing with him still. Bleh. And then I get really jealousy and bitchy cause... he hung out with two of his friends one day after the other and did stuff with them. I dont mind him hanging out with friends, I'm not THAT bad. But.. I was upset because he went to see "Up" with Noel and he said he wanted to see it with me. So, I told him I was kinda upset about it and then he said "well, when will we have time to see a movie anyways?" And you knoww... made me feel like poo cause he can MAKE time with his guy friends, but all the sudden we have NO time to go for movies er anything. Idk. And we could make it work... but, I guess it's easier to shrug it off. The plus side was that we both had the same days off (Wednesday and Friday) but, I'm finding I have to work this next Friday and hopefully no more after that. But, then I know Mike has to work one friday next week prob too. but, idk. I just miss my boy. =[ I guess there really isn't much more I can update on. =/ Ellie's in heat.. again. And that's not very helpful for us.. considering we have two male dogs plus her and none of them are neutered. Aha! And Ellie and Vince already did the dirty about two times now, I think it is. So.. there's probably a good chance that Ellie could be pregnant AGAIN. So, that should be an interesting adventure. At this point, I dont think we have the time to handle more puppies. We really don't NEED anymore. I won't lie and say that the money we got for the five of them wasn't good, because it really was. But, the amount of time and care that the dogs need to have is epic. I'm sure we'll be pro's at the rate we're going though. It's so hard to separate them and one would say, "well how come you dont neuter one of them?!?! HELLO?!?!" But, truth be told, I dont know why we havent either. It's a problem. I think I'm done for now. It's hitting 1:30am. I'm a little bit surprised that I'm still not tired at all. Though, I should work on being tired since I've got to work tomorrow. I dont work till 11am. BUT, Im thinking about going in earlier so I dont have to stay later. Causeeeeee Mike just *might* come over after he gets off work too. I hope soo. But, if not... I guess it won't be too bad cause I may possibly see him on Monday. annnnnnddddd the end. Let me blow your mind.I closed with Andy at work on Monday. That was pretty interesting. Mainly because he told me he wanted to promote me. He asked me if I wanted to be an assistant manager. And, I was like... welll chyeah I do! Then I asked him how long it would take to promote me and he said until I had some sort of degree. So, I guess I can't move up until I finish my two years at the community college with my Associates Degree. Which, is pretty lame cause... I've got ways to go. And that's saying that I stay at Walgreens for a year or two. I dont know. He was saying how awkwardly surprisingly good I am at my job. Like... it's a miracle that I can do things so well and catch on very quickly. I mean.. this is my first REAL job and my first time in retail as well. And since the first day or so people were telling me that I'm a quick learner and I pick up things fast. So, everyone relies on me to do things as opposed to everyone else because they know I do it and get it done. I always do have a high ego when it comes to my job, cause I know they wont fire me. hah. And if they do.. good luck finding someone else like me. =P Everyone knows the clearance endstand is my baby. I guess I have what Andy calls "magic hands." I went into work today to get chips, since I was attempting to shop at JC Penny and thats almost right next to my work.. and Kristine was saying how sad she was that I wasnt there to fix it up cause we're having a special visitor coming tomorrow. haha. I think its funny she misses me when I'm not there, and she gets sad when she has other people working with her that arent me. ahaha. Buuuuuut, anyways .. back to this whole promoting thing. I was gonna bring up the thing about being the Beauty Advisor.. but I didnt wanna rub it in there. Cause.. he still, I think, doesnt know that I know he was *considering* me for the position. He always just says nancy and sandee are "competing" for the spot. But, I think next time I see him I'm just going to ask about the position and say I'd like to be considered for it, for real. But, I know if its based on sales then I probably wont get the position cause Nancy is amazing. Supposively, we were number 1 in the district at some point. But, we've been staying within the top three somehow.. and I really think its cause of her. I try as best as I can to get sales, but I cant FORCE people to checkout with me. So, ehhh. oh well. I guess we'll see what happens. Pretty sure we get a raise for being the head beauty advisor.. and that's good enough for me for now. =P haha. I did get out a whole lot today and it was very enjoyable. I went grocery shopping at first, because we really dont have food at my house. The sad part is that I spent like 103 dollars and still.. didnt really get much food to eat. haha. But, I got pretty much everything on sale. I didnt get anything that I had coupons for besides the fiber bars that I got for myself. And I got to use one coupon that came out after I scanned the cereal and then one that popped out, so I just used it. hah. I had one other one too, but oh well. I felt guilty spending that much, but I mean... what can you expect when you gotta feed 8 mouths every single day, eh? And that stuff will prob only last a few days. Sooo... I dont know. I like grocery shopping, but I wish I coulda saved more money. I'm trying my best to help save money though. heh. I am, however, very excited for that movie Public Enemies to come out in theaters. =] =] oohhh yeahhh! Bet it'll be amazing. bwahahaha. Annnd then I went to Jc Penny to look for jeans and a bra. But, had no luck there. I really hate Pennies actually. I think its over priced and their selection on clothes and everything sucks. Khols is def my favorite. hah. Then we (mom and I) went to Best Buy to check out computers and prices. I think Im gonna by myself a new one.. mainly for school purposes. Especially since Im taking online classes and I quite enjoy them and .. these computers are uber old and prob not very reliable anymore. hah. Plus, we have no good programs that I could send my homework to my teachers. I think.. Im gonna save my next couple pay checks and then just buy one.. considering my classes start this upcoming week and I've only got the computer to rely on to do stuff.. unless I start going to Mike's to do homework er whatever. But, with our crazy schedules... that prob wont work out too well either. Arg. Im finally going to see Mike tomorrow though. (it'll be today, technically according to kiwtime) It will make exactly a week since the last time that I've seen him. Blah. I guess he wants me to come get him and he wants to come over tomorrow. So, I'll see him a lot sooner and thats exciting. =] Then we both work Thurs.. I start before him and get home before him. Then, I should hopefully get to see him Friday as well. Then we both work sat and sun. He doesnt remember the time on sat. But, sunday.. I'll be home before him too. so.. ehhh. idk. but im not excited for this upcoming week. =[ when i have 3 nights in a row of closing. yarggg. its so lame. but, at least I get to see him. Im happy about that. heh. My birthdays the 15th. Im wondering if Mike will be around for my bday or not. =/ humph. I guess that's all I really gotta say though. |
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