Shorty_2008 , 22

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well, hello!

:)

anywho.
yesterday i went to ian's for what was supposed to be a star wars marathon.
buuuuut.
we got to talking with his sister about her wedding.
zach came over to burn something.
he got to talking.
and so we just stood in the kitchen talking.

well, everyone else was sitting. i was somehow the only one standing the whole night. lol.

zach was kinda being a dick.
and what ian and i both think, is that he was doing that because he was moving to college today and with our history, he didn't want to start getting attached to me again like he was.

i asked him for a hug.
and he said "i'll see you in memphis"
and i'm like... you'll be in another campus ten minutes away, doubt you will see me ever"

and i knooow what he was referring to.
he will see me again.
he'll call.
or something.
but seriously. a hug?!
once again the attachement factor comes in.
he does still have feelings for me. he's just being a stupid boy. so asdfghkl to him.
he's a dick sometimes.

i got to borrow a bunch of stuff from ian though.
his family loves me.
i got a few books.
and moovies.
which i will be watching the movies in a movie night possibly tonight.

bowling got canceled.
so woot concert is my only plan tomorrow.

i still need to go to memphis.
get my id
and sell my shit.
get el cash :)

one week until college for me.
next friday.
woot.

i got some more textbooks today.
i am SO excited.
yeah, i'm a nerd.

i wrote some today tooo.

oh what i tangled web we weave. scratching nails against pale paper. crimson paint seeping through, playfully dripping. down the page. destory the lies

mhmm.
atleast i'm pretty sure that's what it was when i came up with it hours ago.
lol.

anywho.
take care homefries!

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hey you guys!
so yesterday i went to the park with tyler, racheal, clint, amanda, and clint's little brothers. who are so cute. well, cody anyways LOL, he's like 12

we played soccer and swung on the swings and looked at the yearbook and had fun.

then we went to sonic where tyler and i shared a milk shake.

then i went home and had some food.

was so tired i went to bed at 11 haha

woke up to go get the shot at the doctor's.
that didn't happen.
the health department wouldn't do it for free since i am 19.
it would have been 120$.
fuck that
lol

so i can either just not get the third hpv one.
or go pay 15$ at a regular doctor's office for a free one.
lol

well, i got 3 textbooks today:)

microbiology
sociology
and medea

yay
i wanna read them now.
hahaha
i'm a nerd fo sho


i don't know what i am gonna do for the rest of the day.
dani is off tomorrow and saturday, so hoping i can go sell my clothes for new ones.
and get my student id tomorrow.

maybe tyler is gonna hang with me and we'll go see sherrie
or i can ask my mom to take me or something.

yeah use her after she beat me all these years.
its fair to me anyways.
not really, but whatever.

happy thursday!

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yo yo nikuhs.
lol

that's totally cody's word.

well, anywho.
yesterday i hung out with tyler.
we went through my books.
talked.
watched tv

then aimee, stephen, me and tyler went to bk for foodz.
then we watched discovery channel with my dad.
then nightmare before christmas.

that guy hunter, friend of ours, wants to date me.
but he likes other girls too.
and just complications.
so another turn down.

when will the right guy ask me out, lol. or atleast give me a crush. so i can flirt or something.

tyler would be good.
tyler and i both like each other.
but he's my best guy friend, and lives in johnson city for college now.
boo.
but we dated before so its all good.

moving back to college in a week.
doctor tomorrow morning for shot.

have to choose between bowling... or concert saturday.
no fair.
i want both.

trying to get to memphis to sell clothes and books.
gurr.

need to hang with cody.
he's a sweetie.

tyler wants to hang with me today.
but i don't know.
i wanna do something, but gurrrr.

good morning, good afternoon, good night!
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gooood morning.

yeah, i have lost my ability to stay up late.
so now i wake up before mister sun does.

i used to stay up until 4 am and wake up at 8.
now, i went to bed at midnight and woke up at 5.

BOO.

and i managed to trip over my blankets and hitting my foot on the wooden base of my bed. its now purple.
eating brunch

gonna write.
or do something.

maybe play games.
i wanna go to memphis and get stuff.
oh wells.

take care homefries!
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hey.

so i got back to tenn at 2 am this morning.

my flight was supposed to be at 5.
it got canceled.
then i got put on the 11 flight.
that got delayed due to weather.

so my phone died.
i was stuck in the airport for 7 hours.

UGHHH.
but i'm home now.

hung out with zach.
he's acting strange.

like, he told me he liked looking at my face.
and asked if i'd been with anyone since we broke up
and the whole friends with benefits thing was odd.

the way he was kissing me.
way too romantic-like compared to the way he usually did.
it was slow, and he had his eyes closed.

and he kissed me a lot, rather than me just doing the benefits for him.

i don't know what to think about it, but i'm thinking he hasn't lost his feelings for me like he said.
i know that he is physically attracted to me.
can't be around me without wanting to do things.

but... the way he was acting just seemed like more.
i don't know.
i know its wrong to be friends with benefits with him.
but we dated two years.
and idk. it feels right for some reason.
like being with him, without the pressure of relationship.
i think he just didn't want a relationship.

he's starting college this week.
i leave 5 days after him.

blah blah.
returned books.
hung with aimee.

stuff.

lol

take care homefries!

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