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My paper Heart will bleed. R&R&subby.[bg=white]
 [bg=f993c4]aaa[/bg][bg=f46baf]aaa[/bg][bold][color=f993c4][font=perpetua]The Truth About Girls: [/font][/color].........[/bold] [font=perpetua]We Love The Little Things[/font] [bg=f993c4]aaa[/bg][bg=f46baf]aaa[/bg][font=perpetua].......[color=black][3:06 - 1/21/06][/color][/font] [font=trebuchet]Hey what's up. After i posted an entry yesterday, so much happened. My mom called me in to put the dishes away so i went to do that. and then she was all "I told you to put the dishes away in the dishwasher." ANd i said "All i heard you say was dishes." ANd mark came in and spoke loudly "I heard her day dishes and i was outside." i mean, i didn't say she that she didn't say it, i said i didn't hear it. and then he went into this big fit with the belt, and his face was like an inch away from mine, and i have pride so i didn't show fear, so that made him madder. But he apologized later. My brother told him that he wasn't going to listen or do what he said so he was still pissed off about that. I didn't do anything and i got yelled at. Plus, a wine glass broke when it fell out of the cabinet. My fault. I guess. I cut my finger. My room is always clean, but i decided that i wanted to throw away stuff i didn't need. So i did. 3 garbage bags... just from my closet. LOL. I went to bed early... At 11 something. Then i woke up at 9 something. The earliest i've ever gotten up on a weekend. Well, mom made me eat some french toast. I finished writing chapter 12. Only about 1 chapter left. Watched Weekend at Bernie's. I missed the end and some of the beginning and middle. I got up to do something. like put groceries away. I want to go to the mall and buy a new sweatshirt and some other stuff. I have 20 dollars on me, so i can go get one. Mom is giving me 200 and my brother 300. She's buying him a psp and 1 game and i was gonna deal with 100 but she said she'd give me 200 so, soon i will be shopping and will finally get the things i need. LOL. Well, i don't think anything else is going to happen today. Sadly. I'm going to my dad's tomorrow. Have a great day. <3Sabrina :)[/font] [bg=f993c4]aaa[/bg][bg=f46baf]aaa[/bg] [font=trebuchet][color=f993c4][bold]Responders: [/bold][/color] List of responders Caged_Butterfly, christy_smurf, dustysgurl4eva, hansonluverrr, Miss_Muggle, StarDust5k, to_the_end, xx_perfectiion [color=d60270][bold]Subbies: [/bold][/color] List of subscribers AMOR__XO, Baby_D86, Baby_gurlie521, beatinghearts__, blood_and_gold, C0NFiDENTiALiTY, Caged_Butterfly, christy_smurf, CraziiBoNsTer06, daddydollars, dustysgurl4eva, ElmoRocksduh, fxck_me, Geek_in_da_pinK, ghettoroostah, hansonluverrr, IneedLov, juiceBox_action, just__x__ducky, lightmafire08, lizzybones87, millzy1, Miss_Muggle, misslys08, MSUangel23, PuNkIeSkAtErGrL, rolo_luva, S0iNLuV, StarDust5k, Sweet_Girl241, sweetyballgirl, ThatWasThen, to_the_end, x___BangBang, xx_perfectiion, Zeni [/font] [bg=f993c4]aaa[/bg][bg=f46baf]aaa©wannabstar[/bg] My heart is in its saddest state! R&R&subby[bgcolor=black]
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 [color=793732]"Who I Am Hates Who I've Been" By Relient K [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] [color=793732]I watched the proverbial sunrise coming up over the Pacific and you might think I'm losing my mind, but I will shy away from the specifics... 'cause I don't want you to know where I am 'cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been. This is no place to try and live my life. [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] [color=deeppink]My Day! [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] [color=deeppink]Hey. Today was an okay day. Nothing much to say. I found out that me and Jacob have more in common than i thought. I was talking with his sister in chorus and found out that they are from the same part of Hawaii as me. I lived there when i was 2-4 years old. But we were both from Owahoo, or however you spell it. but both of our dad's were in the military stationed at the same base and everything. weird. Well, thanks for saying all that stuff. i would like to hope he likes me, maybe when wer get to know each other better...? it was funny. when i first met him. our eyes met and i got this funny feeling. i don't know. Well, i hope everyone has a great weekend. More to tell on Monday. Even day. more happens. lol. <3Sabrina [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] [color=793732][Pre-Chorus] Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it. See that line. Well I never should have crossed it. Stop right there. Well I never should have said that it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back. [Chorus] I'm sorry for the person I became. I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change. I'm ready to try and never become that way again 'cause who I am hates who I've been. Who I am hates who I've been. [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] [color=deeppink] [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] [color=deeppink] [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] [color=793732]I talk to absolutely no one. Couldn't keep to myself enough. And the things bottled inside have finally begun to create so much pressure that Ill soon blow up. I heard the reverberating footsteps sinking up to the beating of my heart, and I was positive that unless I got myself together, I would watch me fall apart. And I cant let that happen again cause then youll see my heart in the saddest state its ever been. This is no place to try and live my life. [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] [color=deeppink]Fact Of The Day [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] [color=deeppink]Day 2 of not cutting. :) [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] [color=793732][Pre-Chorus] Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it. See that line. Well I never should have crossed it. Stop right there. Well I never should have said that it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.[repeat] [Chorus] I'm sorry for the person I became. I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change. I'm ready to try and never become that way again 'cause who I am hates who I've been. Who I am hates who I've been. [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] [color=deeppink] List of responders blood_and_gold, C0NFiDENTiALiTY, Caged_Butterfly, christy_smurf, Geek_in_da_pinK, rolo_luva, xx_perfectiion List of subscribers AMOR__XO, Baby_D86, Baby_gurlie521, beatinghearts__, blood_and_gold, C0NFiDENTiALiTY, Caged_Butterfly, christy_smurf, CraziiBoNsTer06, daddydollars, dustysgurl4eva, ElmoRocksduh, fxck_me, Geek_in_da_pinK, ghettoroostah, hansonluverrr, IneedLov, juiceBox_action, just__x__ducky, lightmafire08, lizzybones87, millzy1, Miss_Muggle, misslys08, MSUangel23, PuNkIeSkAtErGrL, rolo_luva, S0iNLuV, StarDust5k, Sweet_Girl241, sweetyballgirl, ThatWasThen, to_the_end, x___BangBang, xx_perfectiion, Zeni [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] [color=deeppink]Goodbyes here [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] [color=793732]Who I am hates who I've been and who I am wont take the second chance you gave me. Who I am hates who Ive been cause who Ive been only ever made me... So sorry for the person I became. So sorry that it took so long for me to change. Im ready to try and never become that way again cause who I am hates who Ive been. Who I am hates who Ive been. [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] JJsCherry[color=cyan]©JJsCherry[/user] [font=wingdings][color=FEFEFE]NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN[/font] Will i ever make it home? R&R&subby and i will 2![bgcolor=ff3399][font=Wingdings]
oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo [/font][/bgcolor] [font=Wingdings] nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn «[/font] [color=ff3399][ Entry Number :: 51] [font=wingdings]n[/font] [ Subbies :: 36 ] [font=wingdings]n[/font][/color] [font=Wingdings] nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn «[/font] [bgcolor=ff3399][font=Wingdings] oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo [/font][/bgcolor][font=Wingdings] nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn «[/font] [font=Courier New]I Don't Wish My Life Was Perfect...[/font] Hey. Thanks for responding yesterday. I'm really touched that you care and liked my song. Don't worry about my friend's bf. I tell her everything so she got her bf to say i was, i'm sure he doesn't like me. I mean, i hope he was honest when he said i was pretty, but i know he wasn't flirting, it was a confidence boost. He is so in love with Heather. Well, today was an okay day. I didn't wear my huge sweatshirt today. YOu see, i like my sweatshirts long, so i can wrap myself in it, and well, today i wore one of the ones that actually fit me, but i brought my big one and after second period i changed into it. But the funny thing was, is that i was wearing a sweatshirt i usually don't wear, and my crush was wearing one that he normally doesn't wear and they were both gray. lol. Well, Here was our conversation: Me:What's your name again? HIm:Jacob. WHat's yours? Me:Sabrina. HIm:You look like a sabrina. I'm just talking. Me:No one has ever said that to me before. What was funny is that, he seemed nervous, and i thought it was so cute, and all these girls keep asking him out, and they don't know him, i mean, he jsut moved here. lol. Well, nick kept asking all these questions, He asked him who he thought was the cutest girl in the class, and kept pointing at me, and i was like "Dude, stop doing that." i don't know if he was joking or not, but to me, it seemed like he sorta liked me. i like him as a friend right now, but one day it might change. The really bad thing is that: okay history lesson. I've been cutting since i was in middle school. and now i've made the mistake of making it look like i do it. So, today not thinkingm i took my sweatshirt off, and someone saw it and asked and i lied saying no. and all. i hate lying, but i don't want anyone to know. except ya'll cuz it's not like ya'll are gonna tell or something. Well, yeah. so im gonna cut off the sleeves of a long sleeve shirt and make my own arm warmers. so i don't have to wear a sweatshirt all the time. The reason i wear the sweatshirt isn't to hide the cuts, it's because i can't stand to not wear one. Well, thanks for caring about my depression. I wish i could do a subby appreciation day, but i wouldn't know who to give awards to, cuz all of ya'll are awesome. Have a great day. <3Sabrina [font=Wingdings] nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn «[/font] [bgcolor=ff3399][font=Wingdings] oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo [/font][/bgcolor][font=Wingdings] nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn «[/font] [font=Courier New]Time »4:45 Top » a white v neck Bottoms » pj shorts Hair » curly Nails » sparkly pink Make Up » eyes liner and mascara Scent » crush Accessories » bracelets and pony tail holder Listening To » the fire Talking To » no one Thinking About » him Wishing For » my life to get better Craving » nothing About To » post an entry in my story journal[/font] [font=Wingdings] nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn «[/font] [bgcolor=ff3399][font=Wingdings] oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo [/font][/bgcolor][font=Wingdings] nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn «[/font] [font=Courier New]Just A Little Bit Better Than It Is Now[/font] List of responders C0NFiDENTiALiTY, Caged_Butterfly, christy_smurf, Geek_in_da_pinK, hansonluverrr, StarDust5k, x___BangBang, xx_perfectiion List of subscribers AMOR__XO, Baby_D86, Baby_gurlie521, beatinghearts__, blood_and_gold, C0NFiDENTiALiTY, Caged_Butterfly, christy_smurf, CraziiBoNsTer06, daddydollars, dustysgurl4eva, ElmoRocksduh, fxck_me, Geek_in_da_pinK, ghettoroostah, hansonluverrr, IneedLov, juiceBox_action, just__x__ducky, lightmafire08, lizzybones87, millzy1, Miss_Muggle, misslys08, MSUangel23, PuNkIeSkAtErGrL, rolo_luva, S0iNLuV, StarDust5k, Sweet_Girl241, sweetyballgirl, ThatWasThen, to_the_end, x___BangBang, xx_perfectiion, Zeni [font=Wingdings] nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn «[/font] [bgcolor=ff3399][font=Wingdings] oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo [/font][/bgcolor][font=Wingdings] nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn nn nnn «[/font] x__PinkMoet *Note to self* Stop bieng negative. Escape! R&R&subby and i will 2![bg=black][bg=660000]
[font=webdings]Y[/font][font=times].............................................................................[/font][font=webdings]Y[/font][font=times].............................................................................[/font][font=webdings]Y[/font] [/bg] [font=webdings]Y Y[/font] [/bg][font=courier]Hey. Today was crappy too. My mom's bf is moving out but that isn't that bad. Except that she thinks we depend on him. He needed his own space. i'm with him. But i love heather. I don't know if i told you, but she's dating jeff and when i was about to walk towards the car, he started telling me all this stuff. HIs exact words.Jeff:Sabrina, you are a beautiful girl with an amazing body. After what i saw today. Me:What do you mean 'What you saw today?' Jeff: A part of your bra.(looks at Heather) but that's just what i saw. [/font] [font=courier] He makes me smile and then once more becuz the first one wasn't good enough, and i just thought, i love you heather, you're my bestest friend. she always is there i guess when she can be. But besides that it was pretty much crappy. I mean, she told me that i have no reason to be so negative about myself, but i can't stand it. one day i'm going to a picture for ya'll to see and then ya'll can be completely honest. I know she prolly is telling the truth. i'm not ugly but i can't help but feel less beautiful. I feel scarred. i am, but i feel like this isn't how i was supposed to be, and that something changed. ME. my entire outlook on life. I looked up something and then a page about depression came up, and i read the symptoms and i'm like "Fuck." cuz i've got all the symptoms and knowing you have depression makes you even more depressed. I'm all depressed and i can't stand to be with anyone. I feel so sorry for Olivia. HEr parents go on vacation and leave her in a place she doesn't want to be, and all she wants is her bed. SHe broke down today. After what happened with Jeff. [/font] [font=courier]Here is a song i wrote for Lauren: [bg=CC0000]Escape Everytime I close my eyes I see your face. Everytime I think I about you I lose my breath. Everytime Im near you I die it seems. But without you, I know nothing is the same. I cant wait to see you again. Cant wait to hold you in my arms. And wait till tomorrow ends. I dont know what Id do without you. My heart cant take it. I need to escape it . I need you. Everytime I dare to dream I dream about you. Everytime I go to do anything I can feel you near me, Your driving me crazy. Why cant I just go on with my life? I cant wait to see you again. Cant wait to hold you till tomorrow ends. I dont know what Id do if I had never met you. My heart cant take it. I need to escape it. I need you. So what do you think? BE brutally Honest. Well, I was telling JEff that i wasn't gonna get married and he grabs the pocket of my hoodie and pulls me towards him, really hard, which knocks olivia's drink over in her lap. So not funny. Well, i'll try not to be so depressed for tomorrow. Hope ya'll have a good day. <3Sabrina [/font] [font=webdings]Y[/font][font=times].............................................................................[/font][font=webdings]Y[/font][font=times].............................................................................[/font][font=webdings]Y[/font] [/bg][font=courier]Entry #: 50[/font] [bg=FF0000][font=courier]Time: 4:22[/font] [font=courier]Wearing: clothes[/font] [font=courier]Thinking: about stuff[/font] [font=courier]Plans: none yet[/font] [font=webdings]Y Y[/font] [/bg][font=courier][color=white][bold]Responders: [/bold]List of responders Caged_Butterfly, christy_smurf, fxck_me, hansonluverrr, Miss_Muggle, PuNkIeSkAtErGrL, rolo_luva, StarDust5k, sweetyballgirl, xx_perfectiion [/font] [font=courier]Subbies: [bg=660000]List of subscribers AMOR__XO, Baby_D86, Baby_gurlie521, beatinghearts__, blood_and_gold, C0NFiDENTiALiTY, Caged_Butterfly, christy_smurf, CraziiBoNsTer06, daddydollars, dustysgurl4eva, ElmoRocksduh, fxck_me, ghettoroostah, hansonluverrr, IneedLov, juiceBox_action, just__x__ducky, lightmafire08, lizzybones87, millzy1, Miss_Muggle, misslys08, MSUangel23, PuNkIeSkAtErGrL, rolo_luva, S0iNLuV, StarDust5k, Sweet_Girl241, sweetyballgirl, ThatWasThen, to_the_end, x___BangBang, xx_perfectiion, Zeni [/font] [font=webdings]Y[/font][font=times].............................................................................[/font][font=webdings]Y[/font][font=times].............................................................................[/font][font=webdings]Y[/font] [/bg][color=white][font=times]©wannabstar[/font][/color]Almost one of the Best days ever. R&R&subby and i will 2.[bgcolor=black]before this i never [color=#993333][font=symbol]©[/font][/color] believed in love[/bgcolor][bgcolor=white]Entry 000|Subby Count 000 [bgcolor=white] [bgcolor=black]but now that i am [color=#993333][font=symbol]©[/font][/color] i feel safe[/bgcolor]Today had been a good day, until i got home. I actually talked to that guy i told ya'll about. I mean, everytime i walk by he looks at me, and everytime i talk he looks at me and listens. idk. i just can't get him out of my mind. His voice, his smile, everything makes me crazy. i couldn't go to sleep last night. I wrote this poem in my head: I don't know you, yet i feel like i do. Seems like finally my wishes are coming true, now that i have found you. LIke it? Well, then i walked outside to my bus and found out it was snowing, so today had been one of the best days of my life, until i got here. Mark being an ass, stephen never taking no for an answer, spilling mountain dew near the computer. Damn, such a bad day. Hopefully the snow will stick. I'm praying. I wrote a chap last night. Number 11. Go me. Here is the link if you want to check it out.Dream Lover Today was gonna be subby appreciation day, but i'm in this really bad mood and i don't want to ruin the day, so i'm gonna wait. SO, be ready for a surprise. LOL. Have a great day. <3Sabrina [bgcolor=black]and glad i've finally found [color=#993333][font=symbol]©[/font][/color] my one true love. List of responders beatinghearts__, C0NFiDENTiALiTY, Caged_Butterfly, hansonluverrr, Irish_Baby_Gurl, Miss_Muggle, PuNkIeSkAtErGrL, Sweet_Girl241, sweetyballgirl, ThatWasThen, to_the_end, xx_perfectiion List of subscribers AMOR__XO, Baby_D86, Baby_gurlie521, beatinghearts__, blood_and_gold, C0NFiDENTiALiTY, Caged_Butterfly, CraziiBoNsTer06, daddydollars, dustysgurl4eva, ElmoRocksduh, fxck_me, ghettoroostah, hansonluverrr, IneedLov, juiceBox_action, just__x__ducky, lightmafire08, lizzybones87, millzy1, Miss_Muggle, misslys08, MSUangel23, PuNkIeSkAtErGrL, rolo_luva, S0iNLuV, StarDust5k, Sweet_Girl241, sweetyballgirl, ThatWasThen, to_the_end, xx_perfectiion, Zeni |
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