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My HIT LIST> it's getting worse. R&R&Subby.Okay. there must be something wrong with me. i haven't been getting replies on my entries so i don't know if anyone even reads them or not. Anyway. i don't have much to say. I'm still sick. getting worse. My headaches are too. It was pounding so hard, that i thought my brain was having a convulsion or something. not really but it hurt really bad and i wanted to die. Justin is being a pain in my ass. Man, i hate him. if i made a list of all the people i hate and don't hate. The hate list would be longer. most likely. I would call it my HIT LIST>lol.
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 [color=000000]*[font=wingdings]nnnnnnnJnnnnnnn[/font][color=000000]* Okay, the only thing i can think about is this really cute guy. He and his sister moved here from Hawaii. So, today was his first day in my english cp class. and i looked like crap. Well, Nick said i looked stunning, but i didn't think so. I had my pink skirt on and my shirtwent with it, but i always wear a sweatshirt, so that was blue. I had my chucks on. they are black and my shoelaces are pink and blue so that was fine, but still. He is so cute. Man. That's all i can think about. [color=000000]Well, besides that. I can't help but think that over valentines day, i will be alone. I mean, i miss him. 2 years and then he has to move. I feel as if apart of me went with him. But i have to get over him because life goes on, and it's for the best. i guess. I always listen to these depressing songs about lost loves, and all my poems reflect on losing love. i just realized that. and maybe i dont' get attached to anyone is because i don't want to lose what i have. I want the real thing. the head over heels over the rainbow, can't live without you love. Weird huh? i guess that's why i'll never get married. I don't see that happening to me. I am going to take my permit test this week. I know. pathetic. i'm 16 and haven't got my permit. but, i f reak out. i failed it twice because i second guessed my answers and i got scared. i hate failing. and it made me feel worthless. and i'm scared i'll fail again. i don't want to disappoint myself. Even though deep down inside of me, i feel as if i will pass. but i do not want to disappoint myself when i don't. [color=000000]I had the weirdest dream. or one of the weirdest. First of all, i had to ride my bike to school. and on the way it rolled down a hill into a lake. Two mexican guys were in the lake and i asked them to hand it to me. Then it turned into a dog. like the one on peter pan, and i had to ride the dog to school. Weird? i think so. anyway, i ended up missing school and the bus was gonna take me home, but i had to take the dog with me, so... my alarm woke me up. Today was iight. Boring as hell, but oh well. [color=000000]*[font=wingdings]nnnnnnnJnnnnnnn[/font][color=000000]* Subbys [color=000000]AMOR__XO, Baby_D86, Baby_gurlie521, CraziiBoNsTer06, daddydollars, dustysgurl4eva, ElmoRocksduh, ghettoroostah, IneedLov, juiceBox_action, just__x__ducky, lightmafire08, lizzybones87, millzy1, misslys08, MSUangel23, to_the_end, Zeni [color=000000]*[font=wingdings]nnnnnnnJnnnnnnn[/font][color=000000]* Sabrina TriquetraWitch[color=000000]©TriquetraWitch[/user] I feel like i'm fading away. fight with mom. worst. R&R&subby.[bgcolor=dark olive green][color=white][font=verdana]
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To start this off, i was reading over my entries for last week and i think i made a mistake on something. My body temperature isn't 80 degrees. sorry that is like really low. It's 98 degrees. Well, i'm at my dad's. I'm just glad i'm away from my mom. She's just been driving me crazy. more so than usual. I can't even hide and enjoy my solitude in my own room without hearing her big ugly voice through the walls. "Sabrina, fold the clothes." "Do the dishes." "BLAH BLAH BLAH>" I feel like cinderella sometimes. I have to do everything. no time to myself. i mean, i work at school, and the second i get home it's more work. The first thing she says to me when she gets home is "Did you do your chores?" she cares more about chores than anyone else. but i could care less. I have atleast 2 more years, and it's Adios. La Bye-Bye. lol. Well, saturday we got in a huge fight. I mean, a big nuclear fight. worse than we've had in a while. I was trying to write a chapter for my story and she comes in there asking me if i did my chores and all this about finding a little bit of dust. And i was like, you must have been looking for dust. i hate it when she does that. Looks for something worng. she's the most pessimistic person ever. SOmthings always wrong. But i went in there and saw it and remembered that it was something i forgot to dust. I have a bad memory and when i'm thinking of something else, i get easily distracted, i tend to forget to do certain things. Well, i got so mad and she was at me like a wolf that hasn't eaten in days. WTF. who the hell does she think she is. I mean, so what. she's the adult. does that really give her the right to treat me like that. Then she always goes on this trip to try and make me feel guilty. Why do you hate me, why do you treat me so bad. why this and why that. and inside my head is screaming. You're the one who does this to you. If she treated me better, i would try to get along with her. A resolution that has yet to be accomplished and will probably never be. I wrote 2 more poems. I'll let you read one of them and then i'll get to today. Fade I slowly fade away, to a world that no one knows exists. I lay here, eyes closed and hands curled into fists. I'm back once more. Trapped inside the darkest core. My mind consumed with it all. SO i just wait. I wait to fall. Deep down, Just to lose it all. Lose all of me. Silver bullet shot inside so deeply. Taking its time to tear away the fragments that hold me together. Piece by piece with every breath i take. Tears finally come, but it is too late. And for once i wish that i wasn't dead. "Always there." just like you said. But it was all a lie. So that is why i finally say goodbye. Your no longer apart of me. Finally, i am able to breathe. Okay, so i'm at my dad's and last night i took some pills and they did make me drowsy but i was tossing and turning all night. literally.i woke up every hour. But it was still a really good sleep. just because when i did fall asleep i slept good and then i'd wake up and it would be ruined. Well, i hope everyone has a great week. and i might not be able to get on every day this week. I've been trying to keep up with everyone's journals. Sorry if i haven't. Entry #: 41 Wearing: blue sweatshirt, shorts, and cartman house shoes. Eating: nothing Drinking: Mountain dew Thinking: about how life gives you spoiled lemons. Mood: unknown Last thing I said: bow-chika-bow-wow. [bgcolor=white][color=dark olive green] Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black.[/bgcolor] [bgcolor=white][color=dark olive green]Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black.[/bgcolor]Person: ? Kiwi: ? Color: black, blue, red Song: Ohio is for Lovers CD: too many Singer/Group: too many Thanks for subbying!!!!AMOR__XO, Baby_D86, Baby_gurlie521, CraziiBoNsTer06, daddydollars, dustysgurl4eva, ElmoRocksduh, ghettoroostah, IneedLov, juiceBox_action, just__x__ducky, lightmafire08, lizzybones87, millzy1, misslys08, MSUangel23, to_the_end, Zeni Thanks for responding!!!!AMOR__XO, dustysgurl4eva [bgcolor=white][color=dark olive green] Love calculator. Check this out. Pills. He's never home!! 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AM I DISTURBEd? Curse. Will i ever know?g  [font=lucida console][color=black]I Love *Name Here*[/color][/font] g [font=lucida console]I am so pissed off. I mean, i come home to and find that my mom took all my shorts and washed them. the dirty ones were in the basket, but she washed all of them, so i couldn't wear shorts. i change into them at the end of schoo. I mean, she went into my drawers and took them. Lack of Privacy. Well, Last night i wrote a poem. i Have been thinking about this since christmas break but i never finished it. and now i have. here it is: Curse Behind this smile, lies a broken Heart. Behind these eyes, lies a world falling apart. I can't seem to get over this, every dart you throw doesn't miss. It's target is my heart, so bruised and torn. It hurts so much, missing you, it's like a scar from a deadly thorn. The stars predict changes in the air, Change? something i can not bear. Like the thought of Losing you Uncontrollable. i thought you would always be there. Life it doesn't seem fair. Though it never was and never will be. Why can't we just go back to you and me. Alone, in this world, for better or worse, because love, it is a curse. Set me free, but please just don't leave me. So, what'd you think. I got to thinking last night, that i really don't know who i am? i mean, i feel as if i'm pretending and only the the walls of my room do i show my true self. DO we ever really know who we are. i wish i could start over. so many things i wish i could redo. Erase the memories that feel like the flu. the ones that bring me down into my world of depression and pain. Where there is nothing to gain. I seriosly don't know. i mean, are my friends really my friends? or do i just consider them that. i know it sounds weird but sometimes i feel isolated from the world. Like i don't belong. Does that make any sense to ya'll. I'm back to this part of myself that i try to hide, but it just doesn't stay hidden. Tasha even told me last night on the phone that her and Lauren realiZed that i was different lately. quieter, less me. they know the real me. but i don't who that is anymore. she disappeared. endangered. Well, today we watched "Where the Red Fern Grows." it was so sad. i have never read the book or watched the movie before so i had no idea what would happen. the dogs were so cute. and when the one dog died i wanted to cry, but i have never really cried in front of people. before. not counting the time lauren and i were in a fight when i was in 7th grade and i cried cuz i was so mad. It's weird i cry when i'm mad, but not when i'm sad. Oh well. I found out my body temp is low. instead of 98.6, it's like 80 something. and i swear on the son that i'll never have that that is what it is. What is wrong with me? I don't know.[/font] g [font=lucida console][color=black] Subscribers List of subscribers AMOR__XO, Baby_D86, Baby_gurlie521, CraziiBoNsTer06, daddydollars, dustysgurl4eva, ElmoRocksduh, ghettoroostah, IneedLov, juiceBox_action, just__x__ducky, lightmafire08, lizzybones87, millzy1, misslys08, MSUangel23, Zeni [/font] g AngelBaby546 |
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