Shorty_2008 , 22

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heys.
i broke down today.
just completely cried my eyes out.
and messed up. screwed up. disappointed.

i feel crappyD:

but anywho.
transformers was good.

may see harrypotter tonight.
i don't know.
marathon might not happen.

i feel bad because of that.

i feel so sick.
blah.
lol.

well, i hope everyone is having a good week.
my dad is gone until thursday.
woot.

take care homefries!
good afternoon and good night!

sab=]

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hello sugarplums!

yesterday was pretty good.
zach got online and wanted to make sure him and i were ohkay.
he said i was acting aloof around him and he wanted to make sure we were good.
it was sweet. kinda odd but ohkay.
he wants to cheer me up after my horrible week with dad.

a part of me thinks otherwise.

i read in bed.
talked to hunter online.
he recorded a song for me.
"always look on the bright side of life" by monty python.
he played the guitar and sang it and whistled.
it was so sweet.

lol.
he's my personal cheerer upper.

i ate dinner.
saw the transformers with ian.

i really hope he's not about to tell me right now that he likes me or something, because i'm not looking for guys right now. lol.

he invited me over for a harry potter marathon which is awesome, and go to the premier showing.
but if he likes me, might be awkward.

yeahhh and he does.
nice sab.

anywho.
more reading.
whoo.

gonna read the last harry potter book finally.

take care homefries!
good morning, good afternoon, good night!
sab=]

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hello sugarplum!

well, yesterday i went to ian's birthday thing.
it was fun.
zach went too.

after 4 days of not talking to him, it felt weird i must say.
i kinda stuck by other ppl and blahh.
he kept looking at me. i could feel it. smiled. i smiled back.
i don't know what to do.
it hurts that i feel that he can just forget all about me, and not say a word to me for 4 days. like i mean nothing.

later that night during pool, he kept touching me, like grabbing my shoulders and rubbing my back while walking by.
i didn't know what to say so i pretended i didn't notice.
then i was in ian's room talking with ian and zach was like right there, kept staying by me.
and asked me if was all right.
i said yeah i'm fine.
but god i don't know anymore. i feel so meaningless.
i didn't even say good bye to him.
i was hoping he would say something to me, maybe ask why i wasn't talking to him or such, but maybe that's why he asked if i was all right. because i wasn't really talking to him. i don't know.

i won some games of pool.
had some drunk mother dance behind me.
had a huge pepperoni stick.

i had a blast! it was fun.
i left at 4 am.
and here i am
hyper as hell
6 am. LOL.

no plans unfortunately.

might read. or something.
i feel kinda down, because i've felt on the verge of a panic attack constantly. and it feels weird.

hope you guys have had a wonderous weekend!
take care homefries!

good morning, good day, good night!
sab=]

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hello sugarplums!

well, last night, me, my brother, aimee, and my dad went to rjay's.

no hot guys there.
my dad has no taste. he said there would be some younger guys there. lol.
but the band was awesome. so yeahh i had fun still.

its been 4 days since i've talked to zach.
lol.

i keep having nightmares.
him wanting me back.
him not wanting to be friends with me or have anything to do with me.
my mother. my father.
all this shit just all at once. i wake up without breath and i'm crying and ughh.

i want one night of sleep.
not three hours of nightmares and lack of air.

so today, i am going to my friend ian's birthday thing.
he said that ppl might ask about me since i'll be the only girl and girls don't usually come over.
lol.

i just want to hang out with ppl.
meet new ppl.
forget all about the stress.

my eye freaking twitched yesterday.
lol.
i take that as a bad sign.

anywho.
i'm reading the lady chatterley's lover.
pretty good so far.
the concept of sex and love and all that.

take care homefries!

good afternoon and good night!

sab=]

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hello dearies!

yesterday i went to the library after i took a nap.
i got seven books:)

i went home.
read 1984, the picture of dorian gray, and alice and wonderland(including Through the looking glass)

i looooves it.
now i'm reading Lady Chatterley's Lover.

i had a dream. a really weird dream last night.
it was like a chucky/freddie type one.
people were sucked through beach chairs and killed in a pool of water.
and the only way to survive was to be on opium. but on the opium there were people who had been killed acting out the dreams. slashing and everything and their eyes were like storm's in xmen. all white.
it was freakyy.

tyler came over last night, because he moved today.
he is in Johnson City right now. 7 hours away.

my dad and brother are going to this bar thing tonight.
i kinda want to go, but aimee asked if i was doing anything and i already said i wasn't. but she could go to. that way we could listen to music, and check out guys. LOL.
yeah yeah, i'm suuuuch a whore. :P kidding.

anywho. tomorrow is Ian's birthday.
and i'm gonna go to his party thing.
of course zach was invited to.
that should make things interesting, but its not like me and him aren't friends or anything. just have gotten to where i haven't talked to him while he was in illinois.
should be home soon or sometimes. idk.

well, that's all i have on my mind to say.
LOL.

take care homefries!

good noon, and good night!
sab=]

ps. i don't know exactly what they mean by banned when they call them banned books, but here is a link to the books.

SITE!

the site for banned books, have more books that wouldn't be in english and are mostly political ideologies.