StarDust5k , 26

hey look, an entry! omg!!!! well my aunt janet died last night. and last friday a girl i knew died of a blood clot...from her c section. her 5 day old baby has no mommy. it makes me sad :( i dont know what i would do if zac didnt have me. so within the past 4 months, my friend bert died, my uncle ken, my aunt janet, kim, and my old english teacher. wtf.

so on friday we leave for vegas!!! i am so excited to get away for a few day, and to finally marry mark. i know we have our ups and downs but he truly is the only person in the world who gets me, and the one thing about us that is crazy, we cant live without eachother, no matter what we do to eachother, we refuse to leave hahah! we have every thing we need for begas, i have my dress, and every thing is ready, we just need to go!!! im nervous though weve never been on a trip together, i hope we have a blast!!!

i will of course post tons of pics.

i had my bachelorette party this past saturday, it was fun, alot of fun, i just wish my friends were not such cheap skates. i paid for most of the event myself. yea stupid.

zac is getting really fussy these days. i guess it happens to most 4 month olds...yes i said 4, he will be 4 months old this thursday!!!! so anyways he has this eye goopy thing going on, he always has a ton of eye boogies, but the past 3 days its been worse. i called his doc and they said to massage it with a warm washcloth. they always say that. he has an appointment on monday the day after we get back from vegas for his 4 month appt to get his shots.

school is driving me crazy. bio class is really hard. i just feel so discouraged because of it. it makes me feel like i will never graduate with a good gpa or ever make it to graduate school. uggg. i will graduate fall of 2011. but still that all depends on if and when i go back to work, if and when we buy a house. i dont like this feeling of the unknown. ya know?

i just want to know that we are goona be alright, and that we are goona make it and have a great life. ha i cahsed in my retirment from the coroners office in order to stay home with the baby, i have 2,000 left of it, and im hoping we get some money from our reception to add to that because i need at least 5,000 in there to not work for another year.

i just dont want to put zac in day care until he is at least one, id perfer one and a half, 2! plus its just not thinkable to work and go to school with these science classes. i know next semester i will get 9,000 for the whole semester, so i should have about 4,000 left for living money for the semester! i just stress about money! and life!!! ugggg

here are some pics!!!


on stage with the trailer park ninjas hahah im drunk


pregame!!!


all the girls well missing 2, on the floor, drunk already before we even left to go downtown!!!


on the bar


with a cop, part of the scavenger hunt


me humping an inanimate object, scavenger hunt as well


meee...there are a ton more on my face book!!!


holding his bottle


zac

hey there. my uncle died last thursday. he was crossing the street and got hit by a van. yesterday was his memorial. i cried so hard i couldnt breathe. he was dereks dad. but he was my uncle no matter how long he and my aunt were divorced. he was my god father. at the service they talked about his neice and nephew. singular. um hello he had alot of nephews and more than 1 neice. it was just hard to digest.

my friend danielle is about to have her baby! i cant wait to meet her little girl willow!

zac is almost 4 months old! well in 3 weeks he will be lol! but still thats right around the corner. he is getting so big and doing so many different things now! he actually know how to play with stuff now and grab stuff.

were leaving for vegas in 19 days. mark still has to get his tie. i have to pick up my dress and get it steam pressed and we have to get suitcases from my moms. for the reception we have to still make favors, get table cloths and figure out a playlist for my ipod bc were just goona play my ipod all night on the dock.

my head is about to fall off

i have a huge bio test thursday and i dint study yet.

xo
shan

its been a while
i have so much to update
but never have time
i dont even have time for school
uggg
pics soon, maybe tomorrow!
xo
shan