StarDust5k , 26

hey there. well its wednesdya which means i have class tonight! i barely fit in my desk anymore lol! well like the title says i dont wanna be preggo any more lol! i just want to meet my son so bad. im not even nervous about the actual birth anymore, i just want to do it already. but i have 68 days till due date! im hopeing he comes like a few days earlier! but im sure he wont!

so mark has been working over night since monday. i went and stayed at my aunts last night because she has a fenced in yard and im dog sitting for my parents till sunday so its easier to let max out in the middle of the night at her place. although i didnt get much sleep last night, so i came home today and slept from 10-1 with mark!

ive been a bit overwhelmed this week. my hormones are racing, i feel anxiety like i cant get everything done in time for the baby, plus nothing is ever clean enough. and to top it off, monday will be the death anniversary of my cousin. i know its been 4 years now and yes it hurts less each year, but this year is hard because im having a baby, who will be named after my cousin derek (Zachary Derek) and well everyone is all happy about the baby but he should be here with us. he should be Zacs godfather. it just makes it that much harder. well i guess is hould get my homework done before i go to class.

xo
shan

well im 30 weeks.
its almost midnight
mark is working over night
blah blah blah.
im ready to have Zac!
xo
shan

hey there. well wednesdays are great because it means i dont have to go to campus until monday!!! tomorrow mark has off and i dont have any homework to do so it will be a great day!!! anyways today in spanish class i took my test, whew it was easy and on monday we had our speaking interviews, that was bs but i did ok on it which im fine with!!! i am so over that class! today mark and i went and bought a new coffee table/ end table set. and tonight we are going to take a new belly shot and pics of the table so ill post pics tomorrow.

speaking of mark, things have gotten better around the house. i know i shouldnt complain, he does all of the house work while im preggo, but sometimes i have to ask him 3 times. i have just been so moody and he was not helping. and lately i keep thinking about how he called off our wedding because of his mom and all that drama she caused us and how he let it happen, and it just sucks to think about. he told me back then that he was just scared to get married...to me! wtf i know that was a lie, mark and i are a great couple when no one else is involved. heck i know him better then his own mother knows him, and for him to have to go through that bs is just dumb. he had to lie to me and break my heart and his at the same time all to avoid hurting his moms feelings??? seriously the sooner i move far far away from that lady the better.

anyways i told mark how its been bothering me and i told him that we should have broken up after that. and i meant it. and he kept apologizing and all i can say is that the next time he lets his mother come between us, or anyone else for that matter or the next time he hurts me like that, then its over for real! and right now i guess were just trying to work on our relationship before the baby comes.

on a happier note, last night my belly felt a bit sore and i felt it and it was lumpy, and moving, i think Zac flipped last night!!!! hopefully he did!!! he has been so active today, my belly was jumping!

ok this is long enough!
xo
shan

hey there. today im 29 weeks! only 77 days until my due date! yikes! so anyways ive been busy studying all weekend and dealing with family stuff. my godfather (who used to be my uncle by marriage) got hit by a car on friday. he is handicapped and half of his body is somewhat paralyzed and he was just walking to kmart and got hit by a car. he was on the sidewalk. wtf! he is in pretty bad shape. i went to the hospital yesterday to see him. its bad. he needs to get a lawyer. he pretty much has no one though. and i cannot get involved. anyways i have a huge spanish interview today. we have to pull out a question from a hat and it will be in english and we have to ask it in spanish. and our partner has to answer it in spanish. we have to do 5 each. im goona fail! then a spanish test on wednesday and yikes. only 5 weeks ;eft of the semester and then i get a break! thank god! well not much of a break because then i will have Zac lol and i will be busy!
xo
shan

hey there. well i just got back from my 28 week doc appointment. everything is well. the heart rate was 140. my glucose test came back negative. i was very glad to hear that!!! oh and they baby is measuring big lol i will probably have a 10 lb. baby! tonight we have our first birthing class. we go for the next 4 thursdays from 7-9. other then that every thing is ok. im kind of getting fed up with marks behavior though. i have to ask him 3 times to do something. he would rather watch tv then clean the bathroom. well sorry move back to mommys if thats what you want. he needs to grow up. uggg. im going to clean the bathroom because he wont.

xo
shan