my dad called me on wednesday night. needless to say it didnt go very well. he wanted to apologize and i was not having it at all. i dont remember what i even said to him. i screamed a lot and i know i told him never to call me again and then i threw the phone and kicked over a chair. i dont know. i just have no idea what to think of any of this. ive been really depressed since this happened. im doing alright now but the past couple days have been pretty hard. i dont know. i just feel like he shouldn't be allowed to contact me, especially to ask me to forgive him. he doesn't deserve that from me. and i dont know, maybe some day i will forgive him but he has no right to ask for it. ugh i dont know i just want this to go away.

i did get my tattoo. im going to ask Audrey to take a picture in a week or so when it's at least semi-healed. i'm really happy with it though

i just got so fucking busy this weekend with Audrey. ugh. Friday she and her boyfriend broke up (fucking finally). i'm thrilled because i hated that guy, but she's pretty broken up about it so i had to go take care of that.
and then Saturday her sister had her baby after being in labor for seriously almost a week so ive been with Audrey pretty much all friday and saturday and then i was pretty depressed today, sunday because of the baby coming. so yeah, thats whats up. and also getting ready to move.

i'm getting my tattoo this weekend.

so i didn't see Audrey and the baby yesterday. meh, oh well. i still can't really tell if i'm getting sick or not but i didn't want to risk it.
i do feel a little better today, though. i'm less congested. i promised Dacota that if it does get worse i'll go to a doctor. so fuck thaaat i really hope it goes away. idk he just worries about me but i really don't think it's anything to worry about. i get sick easier because of my heart thing but that doesn't mean it's going to affect it.
he's also pushing me to quit smoking completely because he's decided thats not good for my heart either which is probably true but i dont really know. i could do it though, if i really wanted to. i'm only at like one a day right now. maybe tomorrow i'll try to skip it.

i just realized that i'm moving in with Dacota in three weeks. holyyyy shit thats so soon but its still not soon enough. im so excited :]

nothing has really been going on. Audrey is babysitting her niece tomorrow and i'm supposed to hang out with them because i love babies but i'm think i'm getting sick AGAIN so i dont know if i will. but idk i guess its good because i always get depressed after i'm around little kids.

this is so irritating though. i feel like i'm still getting over the last time i was sick and Dacota is kind of being annpying about it. i had this heart thing a long time ago and its better and nothing to worry about anymore but it makes me really prone to getting sick and when i do catch something it has a tendency to be a lot worse than it would be normally. and since i was just sick Dacota has decided that i need to go to a doctor but i do nooooot want to.

but uhhhhh yeah thats it