Okay, well, alot of shit has happened over the past week, seriously.

Aaron and I went further in our relationship. It was nice. Stuff got pretty emotional and I realized that, well, it is not that I am not ready for a sexual relationship, but for the fact that as a couple we are not ready for all of it. More so, he is pretty much not ready. Stuff happened and then, I took it further because I thought he was ready, but then, I firgured out that he wasn't. We were going to just slow things down for a few days, but then, I realized that we should just wait completely for everything. Maybe, this was good because I think I learned a little and grew up a bit.

He changed me a lot in a good way and this has taught me a bit. I learned that everyone is just not the same and not everyone is just as eager as I am and I was and well, Derrick was.
Even though, I really feel a little unbeautiful a bit at times, but that is a whole different story and I am not getting into that through here.
I don't know what to do about it and I just really don't know how to deal with it.
I don't know if maybe all of my waiting because I learned something or if it is also, that maybe, I am pushing the whole situation to the side just because I am tired of dealing with it and maybe I am just running away from it for now. I hope not because then, at some point soon, it will start eating away at me. And that will suck.

Wow, I have not wrote this much in forever.

So, yeah, here I wait again.
But for what, I am not even sure.

I think I will be fine, everything seems fine now.

Well, I got everything packed up at Gina's and tomorrow, Vanessa is helping me bring it over. :]
Done, finally.

That is all, I guess.

-Kali.

Fuck the question I had.
It doesn't matter now.

-Kali.

I don't really know how this shit works now or if anyone will respond, but fuck, it is worth a try.

So, I just have general question...I just don't know how to put it.

So, I will see if anyone responds to this and if so, then, I will put the question on here...

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