I'm sorry if you're reading this. Really.
It's just stupid and stupid and stupid and stupid.
I'm just having too much drama in my life and I want it to be over.
I really like my friend Russell and his girlfriend hates me and I know that nothing will ever happen with Russell but I don't care I still love being best friends with him but his girlfriend is making that impossible.
It's not fair.
I know he won't choose me over her because he thinks he loves her.
If he only knew.


Highschool is just so insignificant.
He's not going to marry her.
And when they break up in 5 months me and him will just be friends again. Because that's how highschool works.



I kind of like this kid. It probably isn't worth it.
I hate boys?

I realized a couple weeks ago that I get the same thing out of good, real, heart felt music that other people get out of organized religion.
I went to see Dashboard Confessionl like a little over a week ago and it was soooo good. I totally love them. And it just made me feel good to be at a concert with people who knew all the words to my favorite band's songs and stuff. Like it was a sense of belonging.


And I'm redoing my room. Which makes me totally happy.
And also I'm really starting to like talking with Kevin. He's really cool in a totally not "ilikehim" kind of way. He's just a cool friend to have.
And I love LesleyAnne sooo much. I don't know. She's soo cool. And hopefully we'll really go to Switzerland in next summer like we totally planned out today. It would be amazing forreal.

I'm just excited for everything but also scared about everything.
I'm gonna die young fosho.


<3

I had a ton of fun with Heather and Emily at Rock the Universe.
It's this huge concert where Christian bands play for 2 nights at Universal Studios and then we hung out at Islands of Adventure each day. It was soooo much fun. And I totally like the music.
But I just don't get the whole religion-God thing.
Like I don't understand how people can believe in that. And they're sooo hypocritical. There was this comedian who was obviously a Christian, and he was talking about how being an Agnostic isn't okay because it "doesn't make any sense."
That really just pisses me off. Like, hey, I'm not critical of your religion, don't be critical of mine.
I just don't understand how people believe in religion, so I don't believe in it.
But the music was still good and it was still a lot of fun and we met a lot of cute boys that we hung out with all night.

And then I got the craziest sense of deja vu.
Like there were these two boys standing near us, and I could have sworn I knew them. But then we started talking and hanging out with them, and we found out that they were from Brazil, and had only been in Florida for a little while.
But then it almost made sense that they were from Brazil, like I already knew that's where they were from.
It was the weirdest thing I've ever experienced.



And now I'm probably going to Universal for Halloween HOrror Nights in 3 weeks. I'm super excited about that also, because I'm gonna see Dashboard Confessional the next night with my bffaeaeaeaeaeae. lolzzzzz.