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|° x -»Not so MiSERABLE.x.TERRORiSTS//HERE i GO SO DiSHONESTLY.«- ||[font=century gothic]
Okay pretty short entry. Speshully for me. I have a really big part of my science project due on monday and my weekend is booked, plus I have softball practice tonight and tomorrow. I FUCKiNG FAiLED Mr. Carlsons math test today. He is such an astro whore. It was FUCKiNG iMPOSSiBLE. No one is going to get a good grade on that test. I might have a D in his class now. C at the most because I already had a 82% and with this test it will bring it down really far because we only have like 4 grades. Getting an F will fucking screw me. I might not be able to to conditioning for school softball, because report cards come out Wednsday and if I have a D in that class I am literally and royally screwed. I am still partially mad at Blake, for some of the things he said last night, but he was a lot nicer about me hating Nicole today. I'm not completely miserable anymore and anytime I think I'm going to cry or get really mad I think about Emily's dad, Coach Joe, or Emily and I always laugh, because I remember some of the silly things they have done or said. AHHHH! Coach Joe and Emily are so awesome. They are totally RAD. lol. I have conditioning for school softball starting a week from Monday(if I don't fail math) so I probably won't be making entries everyday. There were terrorists taking picture of buses Monday and Tuesday of this week at the bus compound for my school, so they could plant bombs, or germs, or other icky things that could kill all of the kids. The FBI were investigating today. I swear to Buddha that is true^. Very scary. I might have nightmares now. Well I really have to go. *Update* GO ME! I just finished my science report in less then a half hour. I only hope it's good enough because if not I might be royally screwed. I can't afford to fail 2 classes this nine weeks. It's only a page long but I put all these spaces in it, like I double-spaced it, and I put 3 spaces in-between every paragraph to make it look longer. Mrs. Hosie will probably get mad that I tired to make it look longer, but it is more then enough information to prove my hypothesis. At least I hope it is. I would interview my softball team and see what they have to say on the subject of my project(Which color softball is easier to hit?) but that would take forever and this thing is due Monday. The OC is on tonight. YAY! I also have softball practice tonight. It might be boring though because tonight is optional, while practice tomorrow is mandatory, so people might not want to come tonight if they have to come tomorrow. In my opinion, we should get all the practice we can, and that is exactly what I am doing, because I know I'm not good enough to practice one night of the week, the night right before game day, and be ready for a tournament. Just not happening. I gotta go to softball now. Wow this really turned into a long entry, considering I said it was going to be short lol. ex'sandoh's x3 Crispy |° x -»MiSERABLE(STiLL)Bush is going ot fuck us all up.//EVERY WiNDOW PANE iS SHATTERiNG.«- ||[font=century gothic]
Well Now I am fucking more miserable then before because Blake is going out with that mexican whore Nicole Hartless. And Blake hates me and I hate him. He told me that I was jealous of that mexican whore and then he told me I was an asshole. And to stay the fuck out of his life. And I told hiim to rot in hell and that I hope he gets that mexican whore pregnant. And I feel like calling him up and saying some stuff to him on the phone but I'm not going to fucking cry again. He's such an asshole and I don't need him. And he still doesn't understand why I hate Nicole so much. It's not just the fact that she's a bitch. I hate her for reasons more then everyone else. I hate her because this is exactly what she does. She makes your so-called friends turn against you. And he doesn't understand that, even though it's happening less then 24 hours after they started going out. So he can kiss my ass. And now I completely and totally intend on beating the shit out of that slut muffin at the Buzz Bake Sale, and if she decides to tell her mommy on me it won't even matter because I can just tell them that I had nothing to do with it and she probably got caught up in a mosh pit or something, and being the frail bitch that she is, she couldn't get out without being trampled. So that should be fun, unless Blake intends on kicking my ass if I kick hers, in which case my dad would start a law suit against them, but only if Blake beats the shit out of me. Tomorrow I have a meeting for school softball. And Coach Mathews is an asshole too, because the meeting is way too early, and I won't be able to get there because it starts at the time that I get off the bus, and I will have to walk all the way across campus in less then like a minute. Not fucking possible. And I'm not sure this day could get any worse. I'm really fucking allergic to something at school and my nose is all stuffed and I can barley breathe right and I feel like throwing up, Bush won, and my future is going to be fucked up because of him, Blake is a fucking bitch that deserves to get herpes from that slut muffin and I am completely and totally miserable. Hope everyone else is feeling better then me. *update* Now Blake wants to be my friend again? Idk if I should believe him. Some of the shit he said to me and about Rissa was just taking it a little too far. I guess I gotta decide. EEeeeek. I need to find someone to talk to. Maybe Emily tomorrow. Or Bri. I could definitely talk to Bri at practice. Well I'm going to go to bed soon. I need sleep. Something that I barely get more thne 7 hours of a night. I need like 10 to be completely functional, but that would mean going to bed at 7:00. YEAH RIGHT! ex'sandoh's x3 Crispy |° x -»MiSERABLE(STiLL)//Election '04, who did you vote for?«- ||[font=century gothic]
'ello lurvlies. I am still pretty miserable, but I know I will have fun at softball practice tonight. Myabe that will cheer me up. I really need some cheering up. Today we talked about the election a lot. A lot of people are for Bush, and I'm guessing their parents are for Bush too. If Bush wins we're all screwed, and my dad is saying that everyone else is saying that this is the election that could make or break my future, along with everyone else's that is my age. I'm too young to vote but I must say, I would vote for Kerry. I'm completely and totally anti-Bush. He has just done too much wrong and someone else deserves a chance, and if that happens to be Kerry, so be it. I am not pro-abortion so please don't leave entries criticizing me. But I am pro-choice, just like Kerry. It's in the constitution that a woman or man has the right of privacy, and the right to do what they wish to their body, and I would rather be pro-choice then keep having my rights taken away. We already don't have the freedom of speech, or the right to bear arms. If they take away the sanctity of a womans body that is totally and completely going against what are country is based on. I'm sorry that's just the way it is. Okay well I have to go find info on my science project so that I don't fucking fail, although I will probably fail anyways. *Updizzle* Most of the people that responded voted for Kerry, although only like 5 responded. But that is still good. My mom was really nice today. She found a whole shit-load of info for me on my science project while she was at work, and even emailed a couple of people from like ASA and ISA to find out why we use the yellow ball. YES! Right now I do not hate my mom. Oh yeah and Nicole Hartless called ME a 2 faced bitch yesterday. Haha. Yeah right. I mean I may be a bitch, but shes not one to be talking. Well I gotta go get ready for SOFTBALL. Yay. I'm happy to be on the feild again after our awful performance on Saturday. And yes Rissa, I still love you even though you would vote for Bush. lol. I guess I really should like Bush too because Kerry likes the Red Sox. lol. OMGosh everyone. The OC starts this week doesn't it? And it's on at 8 this year. Wait no that sucks. I am normally still at practice at 8. AGH. NOOOOOOOOOO. I will have to tape it or something. Arg. Okay really have to go lol. *Another Updizzle* Well softball was not bad. But still not great. It was just me, Emily, Christen, and Brianna. I felt really bad because Coach Jeff was being a bitch to Christen, making her run and all this shit just because we were all fooling around a little, and he knew he could make us all stop fooling around if he made an example out of her. I was really pissed, and Christen said she was going to quit the team. If she quit the team, that would screw us all. It would be a lot of hard work for nothing and everyone would get mad at Coach Jeff for pushing her to quit. But I just talked to her and she said she's not going to quit, and that she was kidding around. I believe that shes not going to quit, but not that she was kidding around. Blake is going out with that bitch Nicole Hartless and I am going to fucking bitch at him about that tomorrow. I hate that bitch. I am completely miserable again. And again I feel like I should go throw-up or something, but I am refraining from doing so. ex'sandoh's x3 Crispy Please just leave a response at the bottom telling who you voted for or who you would vote for if you are too young. No mean comments please, although you are entitled to your opinion, as I am mine. I'd just like to see how people voted. Thanks. |° x -»MiSERABLE(STiLL)//Everything I said was nothing short of a big mistake.«- ||[font=century gothic]
'ello lurvlies This is really pathetic. I am so miserable I think I am making myself sick. My weekend was horrible besides the fact that I spent Saturday with the Wildcats, and now I feel like throwing up. And something is wrong with my nose. I think I'm allergic to something at school, seriously. Because they are still cleaning it up from the hurricanes and today I felt like I had to sneeze all day long and my thraot hurts really bad. It really sucks. Last night after Sam's party I saw a dead body on the side of the road, covered with a sheet thankfully. Some person had died in a motorcycle crash, but I don't know exactly what happened, because he/she was lying about 100 feet down the road from their motorcycle. I thought I was going to have nightmares. I can't get teh mental image of the sheet covering the body out of my head. I'm still really bummed about Saturday. I <3 Emily. She is my bestest buddy. Just talking to her for like 5 minutes today cheered me up. And I didn't even tell her that I was feeling miserable, she is always able to cheer me up without even knowing I'm mad or sad or whatever. I'm really quite mad at my dad. He is now coming with us next weekend to Gainesville for the softball clinic. There are going to be 8 or 9 of us in 1 condominium. I'm just going to ignore the fact that my dad is going to be there, and have as much fun as I want with Coach Joe, Emily, Coach Jeff, Amanda, Lindsey, and Julie and Megan if they come. And to make me even more mad at my dad, he isn't getting the Buzz Bake Sale tickets until tomorrow. And Blake is bringing NiCOLE HARTLESS to the Buzz Bake Sale. I want to jump her at the Bake Sale. It would be so awesome.(Are you with me on jumping her Rissa? lol) I love Ben. He is awesome. Although sometimes he gets on my nerves. Because he talks about him and Alli and I mean I know they are going out, and have been for over a year, but he knows I like him. or maybe he doesn't know I like him. But I surely flirt with him a lot. Which is terrible. But I can't help it. Well I gotta go find info on my science project. I am going to be royally screwed because my research report is due Friday, and I only have the next 3 days to find info on it. Arg. I'm going to fucking fail science. And I'm going to eat some grapes. Now wait. Does eating grapes sound weird to you. This is pathetic. It's the day after Halloween and I'm eating grapes. Well that's not completely true. I did steal a mini-heat bar and 2 mini-almond joys from my parents. Okay I really have to go now. ex'sandoh's x3 Crispy |° x -»MiSERABLE(and no one cares)//Best friends means you get what you deserve.«- ||[font=century gothic]
I am fanFUCKINGtastically miserable. Today softball went terrible, except for the fact that I was with the Wildcats. We played horrible. And in the second game some of it was partly my fault, but if you know anything about softball or even baseball, one person cannot lose the game for you. The first game we just didn't hit and we had some errors in the field, and the other team had better defense and had better hits. In the second game we scored the first run, in the first inning, at our first at bat. Something that rarely happens. That run was made by Emily. We were so fucking siked. So I was pitching and I did really good in the first inning, considering that I was having an off-day anyways. Then in the second inning, w/runners at 2nd and 3rd, a line drive is hit about 3 feet to the left of me. Something I should have had. The ball goes to the outfield, 3 runs score, etc., and the teams just dies. Right then and there. I was pissed at myself, and all of the team, including me, was just flat as Coach Joe would say. FanFUCKINGtastically FLAT. So we lost both games. And the entire team felt like shit after-wards. I wanted to throw-up. And when my parents even mentioned the thought of pizza for dinner I was just about ready to throw-up. Ugh. So then, this made me feel even worse, I see Emily's car drive up next to us on our way home, and I think to myself how much I would rather be in that car, going home with them, because they care. That made me feel even more miserable because I don't want to not-like my parents as much as I do. But Coach Joe and Emily always care. Always. I've known them for less then a year and they always care how I am, and they can tell when I'm hurt, and mad, etc. I've lived with my parents for the past 13 years, 7 months, and a day, and they still can't figure out when I'm hurt or mad or sad or anything. I really want to scream right now. So then we get home and my dad cooks some pork-roll and cheese and I'm trying my best not to cry, and I call Sam and confirm that I can still go to her party and I took a shower. And then this happened to make me fucking cry. I'm setting up the DVD player for my mom and we had to move the TV a bit so I could unplug this thing you need to unplug. So our DVD player is on top of the TV. And it falls on my fucking head. I have a bump on my head and it fell and cut my hand/wrist in 3 different places. And then my mom is like 'Are you okay?' like 400 times and finally I walk into the kitchen to get some water to clean my hand and I say 'Well it hurts' and she goes 'Well it wasn't my fault, I didn't do it on purpose.' Does it sound like I accused her of it being her fault? No. I didn't think so. I wouldn't doubt that she pushed it down on purpose, but I DID NOT accuse her of doing it. What a damn bitch. So now my hand/wrist, head, neck, knee, and both ankles hurt. I can't wait until next weekend when I get to hang with the Wildcats, and then Coach Joe, Emily, Julie, Lindsey, maybe Megan, Amanda, and Coach Jeff. I'm so glad I can get away from my fucking parents next weekend. If only I don't die sometime in-between today and Saturday, which would be just my damn luck. Well I'm watching Gothika and it's scaring the shit out of me, and then I'm going to watch The Blair Witch Project after that so I am going to be scared shitless and probably have nightmares. But maybe it will stop me from crying myself to sleep. *update* Right now I'm watching Halloween. Seems pretty scary. I'm about to go to Wally-World to find something to do for a costume, seeing as I need one for Sam's party. I still feel incredbily miserable and horrible about yesterday, but I am just telling myself that I have almost an enire weekend awak from my parents next weekend. And one thing I forgot to mention yesterday is that my life is no DEAD. Officially DEAD. I have softball Friday and Saturday now, so I guess my life is not DEAD, just pretty damn close. And if I didn't love the Wildcats as much as I do I would not be practicing Fridays with them. But I really love them and I would rather be at softball then at my house, waiting for someone to call me to do something, that probably won't happen anyways. Well I gotta go to Wally-World. HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! And Happy Blue Month to Me! ex'sandoh's x3 Crispy |
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