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[font=century gothic]Grr.
I either sprained or broke my ankle. meeep.
I wanted to call Ben and talk to him about everything going on in my life now and like see what he has to say but I didn’t. I just would have felt weird calling him and I probably would have cried, because I cry a lot just thinking about everything happening in my life right now.
We played softball. Won our first game. Lost our second. My coach was right, this is our rock bottom. We haven‘t played together as a team since the beginning of June, and now with new players this is definitely our rock bottom. We can only get better from here, and 1-1 is a pretty damn good rock bottom.
The Yankees won today. Yay. They open in Boston on Tuesday. They are going to kick some ass in their series against Boston. Grrr. I HATE the Red Sox.
I didn’t know Minnesota was a state. I mean I did but I like forgot. Because I had to like memorize the states and capitals and stuff last year but like I had a blonde moment and I was like so what state is Minnesota in? And my dad made fun of me. ahahaha. I’m such a blonde sometimes.
Well that’s just a re-cap of my day yesterday. I thought I would make an entry before I went to bed in case I didn‘t get a chance to make one later today, after I wake up from my sleep and stuff.

*Today*
Grrrrr. I woke up early. At like 11:17. And my parents made fun of me because I slept so late. But last night I didn't get good sleep because I was like pissed off and just emotionally drained from everything that's been happening.
Rar. I am very bored. My mom left to go to the Vero mall without me. And like I have nothing to do and I can't really do anything because I sprained my ankle and it's all swollen and all so like yeah.
I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I hate school. And I hate most of the people that are at school. Wait scratch that, hate is such a strong word. I despise most of the people at school with a passion. Except Emily and Ben. And I don't despise Rissa either. Or Bianca or Sarah. Or Blake. Or Sam. Or Jusin or Zach because they are pretty cool too. And Zach smells good. haha. But those are just about all the people I don't depsise greatly.
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[color=black][font=century gothic]I had to wake up early today. Blah. My dad made me wake up 20 minutes early because he was ’kidding’ with me. Not fun. So I went and had breakfast with the team and Christen was like throwing silverware and tapping cups with silverware and all this stuff that was really making me mad. And she almost flipped her chair and broke her head open on the tile, luckily she didn’t, because we need her on the team. So we went and played the Blaze first, who are supposed to be a great team, but we beat them at the state tournament. We beat them today, too. And I pitched great for my first time out in a game situation in over 3 months. It was awesome. And then we played a high school team and they beat us 5-4. It was bad and Emily(our team captain) was all like sad because she threw away two throws that let the other team get two runs. But I still love Emily. Because she is just Emily.
And I supposedly sprained my ankle, but I think I might have broke it and if I did I’m going to cry. It’s all like swollen and hard. It hurts so bad to walk on but on Monday if it still hurts I can wear flip-flops to school. Yay. hehe. I pitched great today. And I had tons and tons of fun. Which is great.
If anyone has broken or even sprained their ankle can you tell me what it feels like. Because I'm really scared that I broke it and I was looking up the symptoms of sprained and broken ankles and their both basically the same. My ankle is really swollen and it hurts to bend it at all, and it sort of hurts to move my toes and walk on it. What does this sound like to you guys?
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[font=century gothic] I have an amazing idea for my science project this year and it’s going to be way, way awesome, because it has to do with softball and my team is going to help me. And I’m not telling anyone what it is though because then somebody could steal it and I would never even know and that would just be mean.
Ahahahaha. I didn't know Minnesota was a state. I thought it was a city in a state. Because you know most teams are like from a city not a state but the Twins are just from Minnesota. What losers. But not losers in a good way. Because Rissa is a loser in a good way, lol, but the Twins are losers in a terrible way.
I watched the Yankees win 6-5 in like 11 innings. They open in Boston on Tuesday. Yay. And I talked to Aj, Wills best friend who is moving to NC, for a while. I didn't have anyone else to talk to. I wish Will would talk to me so I could have at least someone to talk to. I was going to call Ben but I decided not to. Because it's harder for me to talk out loud about how I feel about everything that's going on in my life. It's always much easier to just talk online.
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People suck. Grrr...Rissa is cool. And Vincent and Ben are cool. And Bianca and Sarah are cool. And Emily and the rest of the Wildcats are cool. And other people are assholes. Even more Grrrr....

Vincent made me better again today :o). He keeps making fun of me because yesterday I was coughing because I had something caught in my throat(like a chip or something) and Vincent asked me why I was coughing so I said "I have something caught in my throat" and Vincent totally took it the wrong way. And then I said "Lets not go there" and he was like "Oh I think we've already been there and back". Now what do you think that sounds like? So now he is making fun of me.

Ben tells me to stop looking at his(Bens) butt all the time. hahaha. Funny times. I love Ben. Ben is awesomerestester then most people. Because Ben is just awesome.

Guys are cooler then girls, well most girls. No offense to girls or anything. Because I am a girl, obviously. But guys are much, much, much, cooler because they don't hold grudges. And it's always easier to talk to guys, for me anyways. And it's always cool to be the only girl, hanging out with like 10 guys.

So softball wasn't great last night. There were football players on our SOFTBALL field. And then there were CHEERLEADERS to go with the football players. EW. No offense to cheerleaders. But I don't like the 'stereotypical' cheerleaders. Like the tall blondes that weigh less then 100 pounds and are the most spoiled and bratty people alive. I hate people like that. Grrr. And to top off the fact that cheerleaders and football players took over our field, we picked captain and c0-captain. Maybe I expected to be maybe c0-captain. But I guess I shouldn't have expected that because I have been on the team for only like 5 months while everyone else has been playing for one or two years. Maybe I should just stop expecting things. If I don't ever expect anything then I can't get hurt, right? So I obviously didn't get c0-captain or captain. Blah.

Tomorrow is my softball tournament. And were going to breakfast first. We are going to kick some ass tomorrow. And were going to look fine too, with our black pants with our logo on it and our teal shirts. Yay!

But I'm still not in a good mood. And I have no one to talk to because Will is like avoiding me or ignoring me or something and I don't know Jessicas new phone number yet because she hasn't been nice enough to call me and tell me it. Not that I can even tell Jessica everything without her judging me, thats why I would rather talk to a guy, like Will, or Ben if he would come online. Or call me like he did a couple of weeks ago. And I don't want to call him because he knows I like him and like I just don't want to seem like I'm trying to get him even though he's going out with Alli, because I'm not.

Grrr.. My mom just called my dad fat. And my dad got mad. And he made my mom cry, but not in like a terrible way or anything. And my dad said I put on 10 pounds in the last month. Yeah right. My mom has said I'm getting fatter too. I'm not getting fatter. I have been losing weight, and I noticed it, even if no one else, including my parents, did. And my parents can kiss my ass if they expect me to just let them tell me I'm fat because I will be up in their face screaming in no time. I swear my parents really don't like me. And my brother is out probably smoking pot or doing some other drugs or getting drunk or having sex but my parents are clueless, or they just don't care. More Grrrr.

Ohhhtttaaayy thats it.

Lurrrvvve Crispy*

P.S. Sorry Rissa. I was wrong because my TV was wrong and my dad was wrong, but maybe I was just daydreaming my TV saying that the Yankees were on at 7 on Fox. They are actually on right now on ESPN. And they are winning 3-1. And they are on tomorrow at 4:00. I get to see my shexXi boy(A-rod) and you get to see your shexXi boy(Jeter). Yay for A-rod and Jeter being shexXi. Go Yankees!!