WamBAMThnkUMaam , 48

agh, so, I've been working on changing my music productions page, I feel quite accomplished I am getting somewhere with it, haha.
I set up a myspace page, a name, blog.. I have to do banners, info and a picture type thinger, which I need to get on drawing, haha.
mm

between doing that, I've been reading shit for my classes.

I tidied up the hermit crabs cage last night, cleaned out the Mice, and changed Saosin's water, in between talking to Mike.

blargh.
I have to do my german homework, read for Theology, finish reading for English, study for German..

Tuesday is Craigery already.
oohh Tuesday is also stuff a plush day at Alvernia.. yes!

so, yesterday, I learned that i'm pretty well despised by my family, none of them said anything to me, they talked to eachother.
whatever.

and yeah, Mike, I'm not doing for them to be proud of me, it's just that, I would really enjoy having some sort of support system for this, and to not feel like their all against me, becuase my aunt chrissy she just pissed me off completely.. and whatever.

I hung out with Aaron for a bit today.

I soon have to leave to go to my uncle Larry's funeral, I'm going to be there until 9.

uhm, Keli's staying at her mom's until Sunday.

I want to get all of my school work done today, so that I don't have to wory about it over it the weekend. haha.

I really, maybe I should just stop doing Alvernia..
it's just not working and no one in my family. I don't think they are that I go yeah they told me they were proud, but I don't think they care anymore. They only person who has actually expressed to me that they want me to continue to get an education is Mike.
that's fucking sad, real sad. He's not even a part of my family.

my aunt chrissy fucking called me this morning after I called there to find out of he was picking me up and she told me that I should get a bus pass next month, becuase apparently he's throwing up alot, but he runs her everywhere, and she didn't even let me say anything she just fucking hung up on me.

I was late to German by 30 mintues.

Minnie died two years ago today.

oh and since no one read my entry yesteray, mu Uncle Larry died yesterday.

My uncle Larry died yesterday.
he had some rare form of cancer, my mom said.
My cousin Krissy and my Aunt Lu took him to the hospital yesterday, becuase he was throwing up alot of blood. And the ER officials couldn't do anything for him other than keep him on oxygen for him to breath. So my cousin just told them that he wouldn't want to be like that, and that she didn't want him to suffer anymore so they unplugged the oxygen, and after that he died.

Apparently, there was either too much and it went up to his brain, or there was too much blood and a blockage in his brain, and they couldn't reach the blockage. The blockage I guess made him throw up the blood that couldn't get to his brain?

All I know is that Krissy is probably a huge mess because he's her father and, well I know my aunt Lu is becuase he 's her brother, my mom already said that. Krissy's kids are probably in a horrible state, I feel really bad for them, because their small, but yet their big enough to remember him, which is well a good thing.

I have to go to the veiwing on Friday, with my mom.

oh & I'm convinced that I may have killed my hermit crab last night. He molted and I took out the old exoskeleton and well he was supposed to eat that.. Now I feel bad about that one too.

(UPDATE:)
9:22 PM.

I have not killed my hermit crab atleast Bonnie's says that he'll be fine as long we feed hm normal hermit crab food becuase it has all of the vitamins that he needs.

September is just bad month all together.
& no one can tell me opposite.