celticknot56 , 28   

I finally got a Myspace accout! Here's the link.

http://www.myspace.com/30855586

add me!!!!!!


As the title says, worse summer ever! I lost both of my grandfathers within the matter of months. One in June and one on Sept. 13th. So needless to say I haven't been myself all summer.

I started a new job at Petsmart a few weeks ago. Its going great...I like all but 1 of the girls I work with. She's young and she's still in high school so she doesn't realize what she is doing is uncalled for and way immature. This is her first ever job, she's spoiled and she doesn't know proper work ettiquette. She leaves dogs in the room by thereselves. She's contantly leaving the reception area to go talk to someone leaving customers standing and waiting...she "disappears" when its clean up time...ugh annoying. Anyways so yeah...that is my rant of the day.

http://www.myspace.com/30855586

add me!!!!!!

OK, I know I am not the prettiest thing in the world...but I need advice on how to actually make myself presentable...and maybe even liked. I am 22 and I have only had 2 SERIOUS boyfriends my entire life. Rate me on what you think I would be 1-10 and then tell me why and how I can change.

I have no clue what to do. My grandfather (who was really my only father-figure) died tuesday night. All I want to do is sit and cry and never stop. I don't even want to be in the house because I keep thinking he's just sleeping, or he will come around the corner and scare me like he sometimes did. I never thought he would die so soon. He is only 63. I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye. I'm the only one who hadn't seen him. My mom flew here last week and saw him but I couldn't make it because of my new job. Now I feel guilty. I'll never get to say goodbye to him. Ill never get to tell him I'm sorry for everything I ever did. I can't sleep, can't eat...sometimes I feel I can't breath. I've tried my best to stay strong for my grandmother and mom but I just can't anymore. I just want to be alone and cry as loud as I can but everytime I get a chance...more people are visiting. I've never lost anyone close to me in my entire 22 years of life and here I am crying like a baby. What am I suppose to do? I can't just walk away and pretend like nothing happened. I can't just stop crying on a dime. I just don't know what to do...or say. I can't say anything because when I try it just turns into a crying jumble of words that are so incoherant no one on this planet would understand. I keep asking myself, when am I going to wake up from this dream.

OK, so life is pretty boring for me this week. I volunteered to stay with my grandmother for a little over a week while my parents went and visited family on the east coast. There is NOTHING to do over here but browse kiwibox, ebay and craigslist. I have also been playing The Sims University non-stop it seems like. I have my puppy with me and he is keeping me company. My grandmother has one of my puppies sisters so when shes around I am pretty much obsilete to them.

I went to the BSB concert Friday...it was AWESOME! I'll post pictures when I can get them downloaded on the computer. It honestly wasn't as good as their last tour but it was still good anyways. Nick has a t-shirt on that said "Poverty Sucks" and had a photo of Paris Hilton on it...I was cracking up. It was also a special concert tour night because it was Brian and Leighannes wedding anniversary. They stopped the concert in the middle and Brian made an announcement and brought Leighann and the baby (not baby anymore) out and he gave Leighanne 5 dozen roses...1 for each year they've been married. IT WAS SO DARN CUTE!!!


So I FINALLY quit working at Bally's. It felt so good to walk out of there...omg you just dont know! I was suppose to be on vaca. this week so when I left Friday I turned in my notice. it was great! I got a new job at Petsmart at the new doggie day camp (basically daycare for dogs) I am so excited. I start on the 12th training...then on oct. 8th we officially open. I am going to be making $10 a fricken hour! Full Time/40 hours a week! I think it is going to be sooo much fun.

I am doing an article on cell phones for kiwibox so if you have anything to add feel free to do it. Let me know this basic info

Name, age sex
Type of phone and carrier
Likes and Dislikes
Extra features on your phone
Can I use your name in my article

Thats it! :)

Aight I'm out!...BSB concert photo's below! There not the best but it is as good as my camera phone would do.