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weight loss. been busy.
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weight loss. been busy.
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decent day, i ate like crap. SXUW
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I've been doing pole fitness for a couple of months…
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 [font=wingdings][color=darkturquoise] o o oo o [font=verdana]I'm A Turtle ![/font] o o o o o o o o o [font=verdana] What a busy fuckin day. I got up at about 8 and got ready for school. We finally started a project a month and a half into school. I feel like this school is wasting my time. i pay 11000 dollars to go to school that's teaching my microsoft word 2003, by the time i graduate it will almost be 10 years old. Thanks school. and they're teaching us CS3 when CS5 comes out in may. Thanks school. by the time i graduate every thing i learn will be obsolete in the job market and i'll have to teach it to myself anyways. what a bunch of horse shit. anyways. we're designing a business package, and i started my business card today and it's pretty damn ugly. oh well. I'll do my letter head and envelope tomorrow and maybe fix my business card. it's due on friday so i have some time to fix it up a bit. And THEN. right after school i had to work. It was okay. kind of boring it was dead and there was nothing to do. but i only worked for three hours so it's not like it was dreadful. I went to the wrestling show after. Saskatoon Extreme Underground Wrestling. A lot of my friends are in it and it's fun to watch. I actually took a few lessons on pro wrestling. It was super fun and I would love to get into it more. One of the guys wants me to be their "manager". Just someone who yells outside the ring and supports them. It's a pretty fun thing to do. Anyways, i work at subway and I ate WAY too much there when i work. I was doing fine with my eating today. I had oatmeal and soymilk and a bit of brown sugar for breakfast. and a tuna sandwich at lunch with chicken noodle soup. and then i ate a fucking footlong subway melt and 2 cookies. but i did drink a lot of water and munched on cucumbers the whole time. oh yeah. munch on them cucumbers. And I have to make a decision about whether i want to cancel my gym membership in the winter because my contract is up. I don't think I will i think i just might sign a cheaper contract. and actually GO to the gym. fuck. I need to exercise to LOSE WEIGHT. I need to lose weight. I want to lose it. It's such a huge struggle. I wish i had a personal assistant who would just make me healthy food and be a personal trainer. lol. it would make life so much easier. i don't have much motivation and self belief. my halloween costume came in from ebay. the first one that i ordered was an extra large and it didn't fucking fit. so i ordered a 2xl. god it makes me feel super fucking fat. i spent 120 dollars on 2 halloween costumes. so it better fucking fit and maybe if i lose weight i can wear the other one next year lol. I just have to get shoes and stockings now. It will be sweet. i'm being dorothy btw. i want a stripper pole. they have pole fitness here in the city. i think i want to join and take classes. and then i want my boyfriend to buy a pole and put it in his room so i can practice while he watches lol. I have a mini dress that i want to look super sexy in (LOSE WEIGHT) but i look super gross in it now because of my back fat rolls. *shudders* Anyways, It's nearing bed time I just have to wash this disgusting make up off my face and feed my cat. And i have to finish watching xmen tonight. I've been trying to watch it for the past three nights but i keep falling asleep. After that i might watch obesessed again. CREEPY MOVIEEEE. night kiwi lovers. the whole 0 ppl that read this. [/font] o o o o o o o o o [font=verdana]And I'm So Cute![/font] o o o o o [smallest][font=verdana][color=white]I'm A Turtle!//©christina_bee[/color][/font][/smallest] bf, school, i'm too fat.[bgcolor=black][bgcolor=white] [color=#000000]L[color=333333]i[color=666666]s[color=999999]t[color=CCCCCC]e[color=999999]n [color=666666]T[color=333333]o [color=#000000]T[color=333333]h[color=666666]e [color=999999]M[color=CCCCCC]u[color=999999]s[color=666666]i[color=333333]c
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Entry: 001 Date: oct182009 [bgcolor=white] [hr color=black] [bgcolor=black] [color=ffffff] Hey guys. My name is Christina. I've been too and from kiwi box for like 6 years. This is about my millionth journal. Just a place to put down some personal thoughts. I won't be describing details of my life to you. [color=CCCCCC]It's just somewhere for me that's private from my personal life that nobody i know knows about to write stuff down. [color=999999] anyways. My boyfriend told me he was taking me out on a date. I thought maybe this time he was actually going to plan something. I guess that's way too much to ask for because he's never planned a nice date or a nice romantic evening for me and that's pretty dull since we've been going out for over a year. Lo and behold he didn't plan a date. He suggested to me that we go see couples retreat at the movie theater. So when we were coming back from his parents farm i said "lets go get movie tickets NOW, so we don't have to wait at the theater." he didn't want to. We get to the movie theater waiting in line, and as we wait in line ALL the movies that were decent to go see sell out when we're second in line to get tickets. So i told him we were leaving. Instead of going on a date, we ending up at his house doing the same thing that we always do. Just hanging out watching movies. [color=CCCCCC] I'm so tired of doing the same thing every time we hang out. I wish he would put some thought into our relationship to keep it interesting. I even game him SUGGESTIONS and he still didn't make any definite decisions. A romance less relationship feels loveless. And it makes me feel like he doesn't think I'm worth it to put time and effort into to make me feel special. [color=ffffff] And along with that my weight issues and eating issues are getting to me so bad. It's so cliche but It's eating away at my self esteem. I'm trying to eat healthier. I used to weight 145 lbs and now I'm just over 200. I feel like a disgusting cow. I've resorted to eating healthy choice soup from Campbell's, tuna salad wraps with lettuce, soy milk and bran cereal with almonds, oatmeal, frozen fruit, some fresh veggies, yogurt, and crystal light and water for drinks. Now all I have to do is make sure that I don't eat so much junk food and take out and get more exercise in. Saying it is so easy but actually doing it is so hard. I want to be able to feel great in my clothes again. It's so much hard work. Too much to deal with, having college and work and boyfriend problems and trying to keep the house clean because of lazy room mates. I need to make a change to make my life a little easier. [hr color=white] [/bgcolor] [bgcolor=black] [font=verdana][color=white]Listen To The Music//© xXx_madgurl_xXx[color=white]xXx_madgurl_xXx's[/user] asdfhaha it's been over a month since i've made an entry. my life is totally boring.
but uh. i booked a flight to HAWAII!! i'm going in june with my best friend michelle. i love her to death!!! <3 i'm excitied. i think i should up date more :P LOTSA PICS: he wants sex... :P which i don't mind.i can't believe it's february now. time flies i guess.
i haven't written in a while. just really haven't been up to it. i finally got a hold of a vehicle. so now i get to drive to work :P which is so much better than leaving an hour and a half earlier just to get to work on the bus. I can leave 15 minutes before work. I changed my hours from 11-7 to 9-5. so i have a lot more time during the day to do what i want.. like go to the gym! It's been really cold here lately. all the way down to -52. So it's been pretty harsh!! but i'm kind of used to it living in that kind of weather for most of my life. i just finished doing a little bit of weights... ooooh the muscle aches! i went shopping with one of my friends today. i haven't seen her since december and she noticed that i lost weight :) yay! that made me happy lol. i've been hanging out with my ex bf a lot more... seems like we're dating again. we fight just like we used to and we talk to eachother like we're dating and we tell eachother that we love eachother all the time. The only difference is that we don't do anything sexual except for kiss. which i don't mind. my friend TB tho... i don't know what to think because he keeps telling me that he wants to be with me and to hang out and we've been a little more open with eachother about our sex lives and i told him how much i've had sex and hes like i bet you're amazing... and keeps telling me that he wants to sleep with me and stuff...i love the guy but i don't know if i trust him enough to do that with him... i'll probly end up going over there tonight tho.. gosh. and we'll probly do SOMETHING sexual together. which i don't mind :P anyways... i think i'm going to go do a few more weights and hop in the showa! EDIT. haha ho shite i almost forgot PICTURES  me and my ex bf kurtis.  Brina Me and Erik. He wants to date me :P but i won't because he's slept with my friend Michelle. lol.  Brina and Me just chillen at the bar!  My Best friend Jack, Brian and Me on my birthday at the bar.  Mike, Best friend Jesse, Me, Brina and Michelle on my birthday :P  k from left to right i'll see if i get this right haha... Maya, Combs, Skyla, Me, Nisa, TB in the white shirt, Chelc, Twizz, Kozie and Fiddz is in the very front with the black shirt :P  Me and Amanda at work with the retardedly big calculator.  Me and Brina at Montana's for her birthday.  Me and Maya! haha i think thats enough pics for now :P twister, on the floor. UNDER the mat. we were totally all over eachother.i had the CUTEST night on tuesday <3
i went over to combs' house for a christmas get together with a bunch of my friends. there was like 15 of us there. we all played twister and trivial pursuit and we watched the simpsons movie. well.. i KIND of did. TB was laying behind the couch and i had just got up and someone took my seat and there were no seats left. so i went and cuddled with cory behind the couch. and he put the twister board over top of us and he started spinning the twister board. and we ended up all over eachother playing twister on the floor under the mat... and. he was like.. wanna make out and i was like k. haha. i'm so glad every one was watching the movie. me and TB slept over at combs house and we watched a bunch of sweet shows on late night tv and cuddled all night. RIGHT before i fell asleep he gave me a light kiss on the cheek <3 UH dies he's sooo adorbale. and i was just talking to him about how bored i am at home. and this is what he said criss.b. . says: i wish i had my xbox with me >±< Kingdom Come. >±< says: i wish i had you with me aweeeee hes sooo adorable. i can't wait to hang out with him again. blahhh i'm so bored at home. kurtis is coming down tomorrow from saskatoon to visit for 2 days. he should be glad my family likes him haha. the only ex bf my family likes. he's the only ex i'm friends with really. oy. anyways. pic time then i'm pcing out. it's a sign pic that i made for TB  and another one that i made for my friend skyla :)  |
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