christina_bee , 24

hmm.

my life lacks substance.

kurtis picked me up from work yesterday.

we sat and talked in my room for a bit.. and like always our past relationship came up. and he's with a girl now. and he was saying he wish he could love her as much as he loves me. he doesn't do half the things for her that he did for me. and then he said to me "maybe we should just.. cut off all communications"

that's like the billionth time he's said that to me. the next time he does i'm going to ask him if that would make it easier to love ashley. and if it does then im going to make him rethink their relationship. i know he loves her.. but there's other things in their relationship that just.. don't work for him. like the fact that she can't have kids. etc etc. and he always said that if it didn't work for them he'd come back to me. I told him last night that i wasn't going to wait for him. and that if things changed that he would have to wait for me.

i think he cried a bit.

work was so slow today and yesterday. i left early today. like an hour early. because everything was done and it was so dead. i'm so glad i got to leave early today. EEK MY SPAGHETTI I FORGOT ABOUT IT. LOL. k the spaghetti is good.

I think.. sometime this week. i HAVE to go get a gym membership. HAVE to. or else i'm never going to beat jesse at this weight loss contest. UGH.

k picture time.

then i'm going.

work is pissing me off.

people are pissing me off.

umm.

yeah. i got drunk last night.

i needed to let looooose. i went to my buddy jesse's. it was alright cept i got pissed off.

yeah.

here's some pics.

from last night.




lol.

wow it's been more than a week without an entry. i've just been so incredibly lazy. nothing exciting has really happend. although i DID meet a really really cute guy a couple of days ago. *dies*

hes like a year younger than me though. but he DOES like me and he wants to hang out with me so YAY. his name is brett. and he actually works with my good buddy aaron.

haha i died my hair SUPER blonde! it still has some pink in it though. so i have like.. black, brown, my natural red color, pink AND super blonde!! haha. it looks SWEET i love it.

i'll probably post a pic of it at the end of my entry.

i SHOULD be going out tonight. but i picked up a saturday shift at work now.. and yeah. 44-48 hours of work a week!! but i need the extra money and i get paid 15 bucks an hour for over time. which is NICE. I need to save up for my new TV.

and i'm wearing heels tonight! eemeegeesh. i haven't worn them since the day that i broke my toe! lol and yes. i wore my heels out with a broken toe.

yeesh.

and i feel so cute right now.

but i still feel fat. lol.

oh well.

my friend julie had her baby!! baby boy!! yay. his name is kayle!! yayayaya. lol. her baby shower is on sunday i hope that i can make it!

but i'd have to get a baby present! i don't know what to shop for for babies!

EEK.

haha.

i'm peacing out. i'll leave you with a picture.

today was fucking boring.

work was boring and slow.

and i'm still training that fugly nasty guy. like.. i don't think you guys understand just HOW ugly i'm tlaking about. it's like. his teeth are black.. well. the teeth he has left.

*shudders*

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ew

my ex *kirby, who just broke up with me*, well his friend's girlfriend asked me if i wanted to play rec soccer. LOL. i don't think i've plays soccer since grade fuckin 5. i said sure if it doesn't conflict with my work etc etc. but.. i dont' think i'm actually going to get into it.

anyways. i played a shit load of halo 3 last night. that was fun.

but other than that i'm fuckin bored.

yup.

i'ma leave you with a pic!


lawl. i love this photo. from left to right:
Tom, Andrew, Leslie and Me.

eh...

i've been busy what can i say.

going home wasn't that exciting. i got to see and hang out with my ex garret for the first time in like a year and a half. omg he's so much taller... drools. lol. oh well.

turkey dinner for thanksgiving was good *canadian thanks giving.

ummmmm went back to work (tuesday) and tomorrow (wednesday) i have to train some nasty ugly guy how to make subway sandwiches *PUKE* i'm not shallow but this guy is DAMN ugly. like.. you don't want to look at this guy. and his name is.. fuckin.. Dieder or something like that.

bleh.

anyways. i had visitors at work today! Skyla came in to say hi and then Combs and TB*the guy i made out with at the bar on friday* came in to get subs. it was awesome :)

and then i got home and played halo3 online with TB and went to the bar and danced a bit and i got to see kyler!! yay.

anyways. i'm done i have to go to bed. i'll leave you with a picture!!


me and my best friend jess!