communistwhore , 23

Will,

You've been spending a lot of time away from me the last two weeks. That combined with the place you're staying at has made me feel insecure and clingy. Up until we were kicked out, I called you every day asking if you would be home. I can tell it bothers you.
The reason you don't call me or see me a lot lately could be because you really are busy and want to save gas, or because you feel like I lack trust in you and that I'm needy. Either way I feel guilty.
I came over to the house when you were moving things and I felt really out of place. Partly because it seemed like you kept moving away from me and because Bronwyn and Taylor make me feel like I shouldn't be there. I don't trust them and I feel like I have good reason not to. They talk shit about each other all the time, so why should I think they don't still talk shit about me when I'm not around just because they're nice to my face? Sitting on Jesse's porch when they were on Tyson's I wondered how often they do it in front of you and how often you defend me.

These are the things that go through my head lately, and it affects the way I act when I'm in a group with you. I hate it, I dislike myself for thinking like this and I'm trying to find a solution for it. But at the same time maybe my feelings are justified.

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If love had a name
What would you call it ?
I would call it hope or fear
I would call it smile or tears
Because love comes along
To fill us up with hope
Drive away the fear
Put a smile upon our face
And wipe away our tears
If love had a name
It would have to be yours.


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If love had a name
What would you call it ?
I would call it hope or fear
I would call it smile or tears
Because love comes along
To fill us up with hope
Drive away the fear
Put a smile upon our face
And wipe away our tears
If love had a name
It would have to be yours.

then i must not be
the one for you..

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