desperaterain , 26

How do you properly articulate self hatred?

A series of self-sabotages that ruin any future chances at potential happiness?

How do you warn someone that they're about to enter the gravitational field of a black hole?

How do you stop that gravity from consuming your entire universe?

There was a point in time when the multiverse seemed like more than a theory.  It seemed plausible, probable even.

Now I just don't see how it's possible.

Everything can be so easily consumed by the nothingness.

We are powerless against this mystery
dark matter

I am nothing without my darkness.
I am nothing,
let the darkness in.

DIDN'T THINK ANYTHING COULD GO THIS WRONG!

COMFORT!

soapbox stream of consciousness

step up to the lecture series

cell phones off please

go an hour without your crackberry with internet entertainment instantly catering to your headspace
feeding you what you've been taught to desire

This system loves you
This system loves the meat you provide
This meat you provide loves the system.

I'm truly losing it.

I can't keep my cool

I can't control these primal fears

I will lash out, and soon, if nothing changes for the better.

I hope you can find what you're looking for.

I really do.

Everything I touch turns to alkaline acidity

I don't want to affect you

I don't want my sadness to spoil you


I don't want to be so sad anymore.

When I'm not feeling lifeless & empty
I feel nothing. 

Literally nothing.

Will it matter if such things disappear?