desperaterain , 26

Massive edit.

Typed a bunch of stupid shit.



It is rare that I experience moments of absolute clarity

but I just had one

and I'd like to share it with you.


The only way for me to truly show anyone that I care about them
that I respect them
that I want what's best for them

is to leave.

Get as far away as I can.


As I was recently informed of


I'm toxic.


I will probably only weigh you down.

I should have known this, but I guess we like to be optimistic about our own chances to change.

Maybe I will.

Maybe I won't.

Most Americans claim to not read a newspaper.

We spend a lot of time... entertaining ourselves.

I am disturbed by this

but then - aside from online newspapers
I sure as hell wouldn't be buying the 50 cent copies around town.


This product used to rule people's lives.

This product was... vital, essential, necessary.


What is it now
and where have we come?

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What I wrote in comment to respond to everyone yesterday

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DeadlyDvia- Some of it is indeed my own words. The top two are quotes from There Will Be Blood. (Excellent movie) I should really start using proper notation to avoid confusion. Let's do an edit right now and see how that comes out.

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Em - I needed something to drink because I thought I was dying.
Soda is wonderful for you.

I say you don't enjoy talking to me.
Therefore you don't. See the problem with perception now?

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daisyrosegirl, desperaterain, Isabella2521, starfly_18, Xuu_

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Afterthought:
trigun rules.

"I AM A FALSE PROPHET

GOD IS A SUPERSTITION!"

- Eli Sunday

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"Give me the blood, Eli.
GIVE ME THE BLOOD, LORD, AND LET ME GET AWAY!"
- Daniel Plainview

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Above are quotes from There Will Be Blood. Watch it. Noobs.

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In other news:
Facial lacerations.
Knife in one pocket, flashlight in the other.

Who would have thought the skateboard edge would cut my face so deeply?

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Now I'm a monster...
my blood all runs cold.

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Shoutouts to people who responded

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daisyrosegirl : had a soda emergency... rofl.

Plus, you don't even enjoy talking to me.
So ... win-win?

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Blarg.

But don't I already have one?

Doesn't everyone already have one who can even make that statement?

You are alive, therefore you have a life.

Now, I understand the context of what they're saying - but why do we choose to allow people to express their insipid ideas in such lame terms?

Why not expand?

Why not think really hard about what you want - instead of generalizing to the point of absurdity & nothingness by saying you want what you already have?

If you were a spirit out there in the cosmos - drifting - aware but not conscious - I could see your last thought being "I need a life" right before whatever force resides in the universe puts your consciousness into the kiln and has you come out as a human being.

Does this sound familiar? Are you remembering where you came from?

None of this was ever meant for you.
None of this is yours.
It's ours.
You are ours.
We created you.
We will end you, when the time is right.

But don't worry.

Natural law dictates that you must come back.
Natural law dictates that you must come. :D
Natural law dictates that you must.
Natural law dictates that you.
Natural law dictates that.
Natural law dictates.
Natural law.
Natural.
.
I must come back.
I must come. ;)
I must.
I.
.

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responses to responders responding (RRR)(rawr)

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daisyrosegirl : I think about it a lot. I was never able to kill myself due to self preservation. In that light, I think because of self preservation I am able to not only defend myself - but seek retribution for people's crimes. These injustices are not legal, and more importantly - not moral.

If I have to maim or kill to teach someone a lesson,
consider it catharsis.

In all the world religious views - I am performing a service.
The killers go to hell anyway, why not send a few mother fuckers with me? ;) (if you haven't figured out when I am being cantankerous, sarcastic, and facetious yet... now might be a good time to start assuming I always am)

Xuu_ : lurved it

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Pretty lame horoscope today:
It's cool if you don't feel like going out tonight, because you probably won't miss much. What you see as innocent flirting is being misconstrued. Whether this is a bad thing or a good thing is up to you, but make sure you aren't leading anyone on to heartbreak. This is a good time to plan some activities with your family.

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"That boy needs therapy."

http://songza.com/~5z43kz

You see...

I'm just a dog chasing cars.
I wouldn't know what to do with one if I ever caught one!

I'm an agent of chaos.
You see... the police commissioner
the mob
they're schemers.

All I do is take their little plans & schemes -
and show them how pathetic their attempts to create order really are.

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Shoutem's - NO TRANSFATS

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daisyrosegirl : I hate most people. I think if someone paid me enough money - I could kill.

surgeryIstole : me too. ;) It's a good one, I guess I forgot about it for a while.

Xuu_ : link to scatmanson rofl

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