I have seen more than my fair share.

I'm looking in the rear view mirror,
muttering to myself:

was I supposed to turn back there?



Is this the cliff everyone told me to avoid?
The road everyone said is worth chasing, but not a good starting point for trying to lead this rat race?


I know my allusions are starting to outnumber my actual statements.


I'm somewhere else now.

I'll dare you to guess where.


It's nothing like the earlier games we played.

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All it takes is one memory

of when opportunity knocked

and I wasn't able to answer to the best of my ability


I don't know if I'll ever forget this.


I am tormented.

I am losing.

I won't win.


And when the magnetic field shifts, no one will even remember any of this.

So... inconsequential.

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I send them out

to fend people off

sometimes

they don't get it.

I know I wouldn't.


For as direct as I feel

perhaps there are some subtle situations that require a bit more of a touch

so that things don't just fall apart

so that instead of torching everyone alive with my fire of justice and my burning passion for inequity...

I can and finally will be whole.

Alone.

... Forever?

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And so your riches will never be plentiful enough

Your profits will be marginal, at best.

Your happiness: rising & falling like the graphs the Wall Street Journal is so happy to charge you to see.

Your family: only around you because of the money.

Your life: toiled away working for someone else, or even for yourself, until it is empty, lacking & unfulfilled.

They say the unexamined life is not worth living.

I say I have examined too much.

I have gone to the other polar extreme
and lost myself & everyone else in the process of examination.

Do you feel like you're being cross-examined?

You should.

This isn't a movie.

You might even want to work in movies someday,
but I doubt that they'll let you.


You're a no one.

Go away.

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P.S. If anger is a natural response, what's the deal with the latest trend of being morally opposed to hatred of any and all kinds? Hate is a necessary response to things that are nothing but wearisome & anger-filled.

I'm sorry to ruin your day, (not really) - but these aren't the greatest days upon the face of our planet.
We are not in a golden age.
Because of the technological improvements upon communication, we've realized (a lot more quickly) how shitty our world actually can be.

If you're not outraged, I'm not interested in knowing you.

In short: if you don't care about the state of affairs (and I know apathy is REALLY FUCKING COOL)
why bother wasting my breath on your thick, too-cool-for-school ears & brain?

If you want to run around the world being a fuckhead and disrespecting everything,
do us all a favor and kill yourself, or check yourself into a mental institution until you figure everything out and can come back as a decent person.

Don't forget the golden rule
but remember there is no reciprocity upon it

And Don't lie

And stop making jokes, ever

And stop playing guitar

and ...
fuck it, Kyle, stop QQing incessantly.

K? GL buddy!

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crazycanuck : As I said, maybe you could. I guess I don't give people enough credit while simultaneously giving a lot of people too much credit.
It's a conundrum.

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