desperaterain , 26

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=knDp8YfwoDk&feature=player_embedded


Yeah.

Listen up, if you still care.


If you're too cool for epistemological studies...

fuck, you must be pretty damn cool.


P.O!

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daisyrosegirl : I really don't trust anyone.
And while we're on the topic - what reasoning might you have that would allow me to make you an exception to that distrust?


KraZii_BlueZ : cough. Really? I don't feel very deep. In fact, touching my skin makes me feel quite... uhh... shallow? lol

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Spotted white

to show you

this person is not trust worthy.

Smelling foul, to warn you.


Smelling of lust, to tempt you.

Smelling of last night's pizza, to remind you that while possessed by Satan - the mundane is all you care to see.


In much the same way you chose to give up at that moment

I have been this way my whole life.

Trying has lead me to my ultimate frustrations and my flirting with failure and the quest for absolute knowledge on the topic of suicide.

If you choose to go

we will miss you.

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daisyrosegirl : It's not redundant.

I'm trying to get to the real reason since you never seem to enjoy giving those out.

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I have seen more than my fair share.

I'm looking in the rear view mirror,
muttering to myself:

was I supposed to turn back there?



Is this the cliff everyone told me to avoid?
The road everyone said is worth chasing, but not a good starting point for trying to lead this rat race?


I know my allusions are starting to outnumber my actual statements.


I'm somewhere else now.

I'll dare you to guess where.


It's nothing like the earlier games we played.

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All it takes is one memory

of when opportunity knocked

and I wasn't able to answer to the best of my ability


I don't know if I'll ever forget this.


I am tormented.

I am losing.

I won't win.


And when the magnetic field shifts, no one will even remember any of this.

So... inconsequential.

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I send them out

to fend people off

sometimes

they don't get it.

I know I wouldn't.


For as direct as I feel

perhaps there are some subtle situations that require a bit more of a touch

so that things don't just fall apart

so that instead of torching everyone alive with my fire of justice and my burning passion for inequity...

I can and finally will be whole.

Alone.

... Forever?

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