desperaterain , 26

This is the end for you, my master.

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So, as you can see...
I'm a demon.

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I'm really not.

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Cheese burger.

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I forgot what I was doing. Oh, right!
More Strapping Young Lad to melt your face off.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BW9WUCJSK1E

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Shoutouts to people who responded

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crazycanuck : I have always loved that part of that movie. Too bad it was a movie and probably will never happen to me in real life, although I could do without all the drugs & the ODing ^_^

daisyrosegirl : I don't think they would let you nurse people if you didn't know ANYTHING.

LuzObscura : /win? WINNNNNNNN!

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I've been doing a lot of reverse engineering lately.

Reminds me of Sylar from Heroes.

"I'd like to see how that works."

lulz

Are.you.dead.to.love?

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Shoutouts to people who responded

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daisyrosegirl : Search your feelings. You already know why. You already know the answers.

You already know.

KraZii_BlueZ : HAH! Good one. =P

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LeG-6bpeUkA


"FUCKING
LOVE!!!
The paradox of needing."

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=P

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The point is:
silence is great.

It took so long to remember... just what happened
and I felt so young and passed over
but no one hurt me

but I'm breathing so I guess I'm still alive
even if signs seem to tell me otherwise
with your

HANDS BOUND
and your
HEAD DOWN
and your
EYES CLOSED
you look so precious now.

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Dear Tool,
Thank you for everything.

Really,
thank you.

Love,
Kyle

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P.S.
I wish I could meet a girl who would love me.

P.P.S. I wish I wasn't so emo about it.

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daisyrosegirl :
KraZii_BlueZ :

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Know who you are.

Know who other people are.

When you try to reason with me
know that I don't care, first and foremost.

Know that your concerns are not mine.

Just because it matters to you
doesn't mean shit to me.


The simple fact is this:
no one cares.

Fuck off.
Get out of my life.
Get off my planet, asshole.

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Now to address the cause of your symptoms:
know who you're fucking talking to.

"Meaningless!
Vanity!
Meaningless!
Vanity!
Meaningless!
Vanity!

All is meaningless!
All is vanity!"

These are the words of the teacher

if you choose to argue with them

know who you're arguing with
know what they're saying.


Seek first to understand

then be understood.

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Shoutouts to people who responded

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daisyrosegirl : double hearts for inspiring me
(no that wasn't aimed at you, and thank you for the link on my myspace, that shit was awesome)
KraZii_BlueZ : & heart

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oH hAi interNEATS!

It's tawm, your loveable desktop support hero, shooting you my first blog evah! A couple of days out of the week I don't fix computers and servers here at meebo. One of those days, Tuesdays to be exact, I work for the San Jose State University's radio station 90.5 FM KSJS. In case you haven't checked out my bio at the team page, my radio personality is Garlicjack and, sadly, I no longer have a pink beard.

On my radio show, Cuttin' the Cheese with Garlicjack, I spin what we call Subversive Rock; indie, punk, metal, progressive, shoegaze, psychobilly, electro-pop, I could go on and on but it is pretty much anything with drums and a guitar. We have so much music I can't go an hour without finding some new band and three old ones that I love but had never heard of before.

And yes we literally spin. We don't prerecord our shows like the current trend in mainstream radio. We sit in our 15x15x10-ft room surrounded by thousands of CDs, crates of vinyl, and towers of electronics to shoot out music to our lovely listener(s). Live radio is exciting but hectic. You have to stay at least 2 steps ahead of yourself but shut all of that out for when you talk on the air. You need to know what you've played, what you are about to play, any interesting facts you want to mention about bands, upcoming shows, worthy news, traffic, weather, and cram that all into a short and interesting 30 to 90 seconds.

The Subversive Rock department gets about 50 new CDs a week. I help out and review a few each week. This is really cool because I end up listening to music before it's released to the public. Often times I've reviewed and played a new album on my show before I see it appear on pitchfork. The pretentious part of me likes this fact, then I realize they have a bigger audience than I do and my ego goes back in check.

I do other things for the radio station, namely: take part in promotional events like acting as a guest performer at a local improv comedy club, win donut-eating competitions, and handle lots of paperwork. I'm a manager in the traffic department (not car traffic). We setup the paperwork for the public service announcements and promotional pieces all of the DJs will play. Then we review what the DJs actually do and hunt down the people who messed up with our trusty chainsaw. Don't worry it's a fake plastic one. It does have a red button that makes a really annoying sound.

While the two jobs, Meebo and the radio, don't seem very synergistic, I am picking up some Django programming and database management skills at Meebo that are helping me automate some of the paperwork tasks. This helps keep me focused on what I really enjoy about the station, the music.

Tawm

When I first started writing

I thought I was doing something

contributing to something

sharing something

special.


Now I realize

these ideas are just ideas

and no one will ever care as much

as I wanted them to

nothing will ever matter as much to anyone else

as it does to me

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Shoutouts to people who responded

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crazycanuck : Thank you for completing the lyrics. I'm not being sarcastic (for once). Sometimes that song gets stuck in my head and I can't think of all of them and I go a little insane and then OMG kittens mew mew mew ;)

KraZii_BlueZ : I dunno what it is about you, but you're fun.

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