euji , 22

Today, i had my tutorial for my math. but, my boyfriend got mad coz someone helped me out. he said that he's gonna break up with me coz i had a one on one tutor with a big brudah in our skoo. **sighs** it's my burtdae.. but but but.. well, it's okay. it's our fate maybe?? holler!

February 23, 2011

 

The skoo called for a faculty and teachers meeting for the graduating students. My name was presented and one of my teacher stood up aggressively with a tone and said "OH! THAT GIRL DIDNT COME UP TO ME AND SHOWED UP. SHE DIDNT COMPLY WITH THE REQUIREMENTS.. THIS AND THAT.. BLAH BLAH BLAH.." With that, I wasnt recommended for graduation. WOW!! Im really happy! Supah! Weeeeeehhh!! How nice of him to say that! I just talked to him a week ago and finalized such things.. How dare him tell that to the meeting? Im not supposed to take him as my teacher, but one good friend and a teacher too recommended him coz he's nice, approachable and good? Well, FYI, he is NOT! I heard that this teacher, only likes GIRLS, PRETTY ONE'S, maybe SEXY? and what else? As always, REGRETS are always at the END. What should I do? Im so embarrassed! 

I was called at the Dean's Office twice and asked me about it. I told them about my side. But I dont think they were convinced. Im screwed up! Not my luck. It's like few days away before graduation. Then college life is just way over! But, It turned out that I cant march up or like walk down the isle of END OF SKOO! I guess "SOME TEACHERS" only like some students coz they can get something out from them?? Pfffttt! Benefits!

Teachers are suppose(d) to teach, help, encourage, be therapeutic enough but not spoon feed. Hope they could go attend seminars how to be an effective teacher. Not to make students life miserable.

holler! T_T

Facebook, Friendster, MySpace, TinierMe, KiwiBox, and Other Social Network(s). Searching people you know and add them to your list of friends. And you also wanted to add stranger(s) or people you dont know so you can have lotsa friends.. But, sometimes... When you try to add them... you receive a notification that they rejected your request... How or what would you feel? 

Moreover, we cant please all people right? And they just dont like/want random request. But, we just wanted to make friends.. What's wrong with that? Do you think they are scared of something? (awwmygawd) I wonder why they're like that? Maybe it's just the way they are? Not nice.

But, Im just so happy to those who added me and wanted to make friends. I really feel special! :D Thanks you guys! 

Why is it that when someone comes on your way and tried to mess up with you, you dont wanna talk to them or just like be plastic?

Why is it that when you are just so nice to some people, they just take advantage? **not fair**

Why is it that when someone did something kinda bad and says "IM SORRY" you'd accept that strong word.

Why is it that when it's you who says you're sorry, it's hard for them to respond?

Why is it that things arent just for you? Cant we just change our luck?

Why is it that you give much time for someone to be by hisself or herself and yet they cant give it to you? Even you asked for it for a good purpose?

Man! There are lotsa things to think of. :'(

What can you say? This kind of thing makes me scary.. Hell yeah! For real. :( Everytime the examination papers are handed over,I really get nervous. (it's like... do you even remember what your clinical instructor taught you in the past years??) Going through out the test questions... I could barely understand and get the right answers. And while the reviewer, (of course..reviews us), I ask myself, have you heard of that before? Or was it just now that they shared you this kind of stuff? Or what? 

People around me are somewhat like degrading for some reason(s).. I honestly dont have a good grade.. I flank for how many times, but luckily... I sometimes get high scores. One time, during the rationalization and checking of papers... A seatmate told me that "OH! HIGH SCORE EH? WHY? YOU GOT A GOOD SCORE THAN THE SMART PEOPLE IN OUR CLASS"... Well, is it bad? Or something? For some reasons I dont want to be her friend anymore or seatmate or whatever. Am I really that bad? Or... Oh! I dont know. It just makes me sad and feel like, an idiot.