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All the pain you put me through, now that we're through and the feelings are gone, I'm starting to realize that you weren't worth it to begin with. I don't know why I wasted so much time on you, I should have realized that my dad only said those things about you because he loves me and he knew that I could do better than you. Since we first talked, I have a job and I'm a lot more mature than I was back then, I've also woken up. I have my first job which I have a chance of losing, I didn't make it in the army, neither did you. I'm meeting other guys and they're way better than you. No, from what it looks like I'm not hooking up with anyone, I have a crush but I don't know if that's getting anywhere. I'm glad that you're out of my life though. The fact that you apologized for everything is worth shit, because you turned around and did the same thing again. Guys know when they're hurting girls and people that are sorry don't do it again. I don't really have much to say about you, except I never hope to talk to you again. I'm not going to say anything bad to you, but I know what you're all about and it's nothing good. You bullshitted me and I was innocent and gullible enough to believe your lies. I've grown up since then, you probably wouldn't like it huh? I should have let you complete your break up with me on Christmas, and if you ended up begging for me back, I should have just let you waste your time. I shouldn't have ever worried about getting closure because now I realize that I didn't need it to begin with. You were a fake, you were never my best friend and I don't know if you ever loved me. I was seventeen back then and I thought you were my first love but that just reflects naivete. I'm so proud of myself that I've let you go and I don't feel any need to contact you. Hopefully I'll meet someone else soon and he'll be better than you, but we'll see what happens, I'm just focusing on life right now. All that I think of when I think about you is anger. Anger is ugly, but after everything that you did to me is now said and done it's hard not to be angry. I just felt like posting this, all that I feel about my ex is anger now. I'll write about everything that happened today tomorrow.
[color=deep pink][font=century gothic] Today has been a relatively good day considering the circumstances. Yesterday was probably one of the worst days that I had ever had in my life.
My parents were fighting all day because my dad no longer collects unemployment or has an income. My mom threatened to kick him out, but he's still here, so that's a good thing [:)].
And my sister had an asthma attack, but she's okay right now.
But today was sooo much better. I had class and we got our tests back and I got a 93% [:)]. Yay! We also had orientation and I won a cup.
I work next on Friday, so I have to be careful and make sure that I'm following directions and just hope for the best. Getting fired right now would really suck.
I don't really have much plans at all today. Jackie still hasn't contacted me about my scheduling, which my mother and grandmother are complaining about. But I refuse to be an annoying pest by calling her, after I just asked her twice yesterday about my schedule and got the same answer, that she isn't done yet and will contact me once she gets done. I'll give her until Thursday to contact me, if she hasn't by then, I will call her. Yesterday I went to try to find out what's going on with my Capital One account, why I had to use my All South card to make my purchase from Aeropostale. I don't like using my All South card because the Army transferred everything from my checking account into my saving account, and every time I use my card an extra $13.95 is coming out. The lady told me to check my balance and everything was okay with that, so she told me that she wasn't exactly sure as to what happened and why I couldn't use my debit card. After going to the bank, my mom and I went to Ricky's, I found my costume, I'm going to be Snow White this year. I also tried on an Alice in Wonderland costume, which was also really cute. I picked out 6 but I tried on two, because I realized that I had my heart set on the Snow White one and that my mom was right, it was only going to be a disappointment if I tried another one on. But if I end up really liking another Alice in Wonderland costume for next Halloween and it looks great on me, I'm going to buy it because that will be the third Alice in Wonderland costume that I've liked. So, I ended up already buying my costume, along with thigh highs and a wig, next paycheck I'm going to buy a red petticoat for my costume. I'll post pictures of myself wearing it when Halloween rolls around and my sister has taken pictures of me wearing it. After Halloween costume shopping, my mom and I went over to the toy store that I work at. I met with Jackie and she told me that she still didn't have my schedule, it looked like she was on the computer and in the process of setting up all of them. I showed my mom the present that I want to get Kate for her birthday, it's called My First Story Reader and they have three different choices, Baby Einstein, Sesame Street and Mickey Mouse. But since I don't have the money right now, my dad said that he'd give me the cash, so I don't know if my parents are going to go along with that gift or if he just expects me to pay him back. But honestly it's the best thing that I saw for Kate's birthday & I don't want to see it get to where I can't afford it, I've seen some of them go for like $6O.OO on the internet. My mom and I were supposed to grab lunch, but that didn't work, we couldn't find a place that wasn't packed with people. Johnny Rocket's line was out the door and Nathan's was very packed too, so we decided to just go home to eat. So far today, I've helped my dad attempt to find the measurements of the house for my mom, for insurance purposes. I'm very tired though and want to sleep, but it's already 11:45 right now and I have class at 9:3O tomorrow morning, so going back to sleep sounds like a really bad idea right now. Anyway, I'll talk to you guys later. I don't know if you should expect an entry tomorrow or not, it depends on how interesting my life gets today :oD.
I don't really have much plans at all today. Jackie still hasn't contacted me about my scheduling, which my mother and grandmother are complaining about. But I refuse to be an annoying pest by calling her, after I just asked her twice yesterday about my schedule and got the same answer, that she isn't done yet and will contact me once she gets done. I'll give her until Thursday to contact me, if she hasn't by then, I will call her. Yesterday I went to try to find out what's going on with my Capital One account, why I had to use my All South card to make my purchase from Aeropostale. I don't like using my All South card because the Army transferred everything from my checking account into my saving account, and every time I use my card an extra $13.95 is coming out. The lady told me to check my balance and everything was okay with that, so she told me that she wasn't exactly sure as to what happened and why I couldn't use my debit card. After going to the bank, my mom and I went to Ricky's, I found my costume, I'm going to be Snow White this year. I also tried on an Alice in Wonderland costume, which was also really cute. I picked out 6 but I tried on two, because I realized that I had my heart set on the Snow White one and that my mom was right, it was only going to be a disappointment if I tried another one on. But if I end up really liking another Alice in Wonderland costume for next Halloween and it looks great on me, I'm going to buy it because that will be the third Alice in Wonderland costume that I've liked. So, I ended up already buying my costume, along with thigh highs and a wig, next paycheck I'm going to buy a red petticoat for my costume. I'll post pictures of myself wearing it when Halloween rolls around and my sister has taken pictures of me wearing it. After Halloween costume shopping, my mom and I went over to the toy store that I work at. I met with Jackie and she told me that she still didn't have my schedule, it looked like she was on the computer and in the process of setting up all of them. I showed my mom the present that I want to get Kate for her birthday, it's called My First Story Reader & they have three different choices, Baby Einstein, Sesame Street & Mickey Mouse. But since I don't have the money right now, my dad said that he'd give me the cash, so I don't know if my parents are going to go along with that gift or if he just expects me to pay him back. But honestly it's the best thing that I saw for Kate's birthday & I don't want to see it get to where I can't afford it, I've seen some of them go for like $6O.OO on the internet. My mom and I were supposed to grab lunch, but that didn't work, we couldn't find a place that wasn't packed with people. Johnny Rocket's line was out the door and Nathan's was very packed too, so we decided to just go home to eat. So far today, I've helped my dad attempt to find the measurements of the house for my mom, for insurance purposes. I'm very tired though and want to sleep, but it's already 11:45 right now and I have class at 9:3O tomorrow morning, so going back to sleep sounds like a really bad idea right now. Anyway, I'll talk to you guys later. I don't know if you should expect an entry tomorrow or not, it depends on how interesting my life gets today :oD.
[font=book antiqua][color=white]first of all i want to thank everyone for their advice yesterday. it really helped, last night i went on aeropostale.com & they're having their bull dog sale, which is very fucking amazing :o], their polos are like $9.99 & their pants are $16.99, so all in all i spent about $33.53. i ordered them in a size small b/c that's my normal sizing, i hope i'm right. today is my day off. i called jackie today abt my scheduling but she wasn't yet done making them, & she told me that she would call me back as soon as she made them. work was good yesterday. i went on break though & i wasn't supposed to, oops. but i wasn't aware of the fact that you only get a 15 minute break if you're working 5 or more hours. now i know though, & i'll only expect to go on a break once i'm working 5 or more hours. i sold someone a gift card & i worked as a sales person too. david & i didn't work @ the same time as eachother, i was in the outlets when he was working & i was kind of tempted to ask my sister if we could go visit toys r us. however i was still dressed for work, so i wasn't going to go in there & be stopped by several people looking to get help on what toys to buy or where something is. i asked my dad if he would drive my mom & i to the outlets, so that we can go to ricky's, & he told me that he would. so this afternoon @ like 12-1 o'clock my mom & i are going to be going there. i don't think that i plan on buying my costume right now, i would actually like to buy it my next pay day only b/c i have like a balance of like only 2OO and something dollars, & that has to last me for like 2 weeks. now that i know what's appropiate for work, i really do want to see what they have. oh, by the way, yesterday i bought an amazing hoodie from old navy after work, i love it <333. it only cost me $15.69 too :), it was originally $29.5O.
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