hiddentruths , 21

Yesterday I had work from 7 to 11, which was close. It's kind of creepy to think that the next time I'll be there will be on Black Friday. However, everyone at work definitely seems supportive of me, Lisa, our team leader, even told me that I'm doing a good job and not to be nervous. I got accused of having an attitude by one of the guests. She told me that there was an error in the pricing, I told her that I don't have any control over that because I really don't. The only thing that I can do for her in that situation is a price change. Most of the guests are very nice though, and I know it's hard for some people to believe because Tim used to work at a deli in a grocery store and he told me that they're all the same, some people would probably agree with him.

Speaking of Tim we should be hanging out soon. I told him to instant message me on whether or not he's free this weekend, and he told me that he would. Yeah, so it looks like it might just end up happening this weekend, yay! I'll keep you updated on what happens with that. Sunday I have things to do though, like I told my mom that I would help her and Kathy set up for the craft fair, and sell things to the church guests, and then I have to work from 2-6. Thinking about it though, it would probably be the best day for me and him to hang out if he doesn't mind picking me up from work, waiting in the cafe area for me to get dressed and punch out at work. Just because I'm pretty sure that my family would insist on him coming into the house and I don't know how he would feel about that.

I definitely overreacted yesterday, because I was mentioning how my sister and I, our first boyfriends were both crazy mofos. Tim knows how crazy my ex was because I've mentioned it to him before, he's lucky not to have a crazy ex girlfriend, lol... crazy exes are no fun. And all he says in response to that is, “good luck in the future.” I took it as him saying that he's disinterested in me or something, yet I don't think that it's like that at all. I hope not at least. I guess I'm not used to a guy that I'm actually really interested agreeing to hang out with me, and talking to him as much as I do... I know a couple of things about him, lol. But like he says I do have really low self confidence.

I'm off for this whole week, no school until next week and I don't have to go into work again until Friday. Friday is also pay day, so that's exciting :). I don't really know what my plans for Thanksgiving, I'm probably going to go to the movies with my family, but my sister is going to have to come into work.

I have no idea what I'm doing today, Mr. Proux gave us some homework, so I might end up working on that.

My first day of my second week of training was today. We were really busy, like we apparently usually are on the weekends. This week is going to be hell on earth because of Black Friday. I'm just hoping that I can handle it, lol. And so are the days after Black Friday, the only places that are going to do any business this year for the holidays are going to be Target and Walmart. I'm just hoping that I can keep this job, I need a place where I can write down that I have actual job experience of 6 months to a year. I have to remember to write down my schedule on Friday, that way I know what's going on and I can keep being reliable.

My bro drove me to and picked me up from work today. I told him about Tim, he didn't really have much of a reaction. We basically just talked about work. Coming home we talked about what I thought of my sister's boyfriend. His dog died yesterday at the age of 12, so I also sent my condolences... I know how much it sucks to lose a pet :(.

This weekend went by really fast and I'm really happy, because I get to see him tomorrow. Yay :)! I have to do some homework, but eh... whatever. I have to work Monday night from 7 to 11, which kind of sucks but hopefully I'll have a nice night without any customers getting mad at me. (Some customers get mad at me, because I'll ask them to put certain things on the conveyor belt for me)

Anyway, I should shower and get some homework in :). Hopefully my life will get more interesting soon.

Toodles.

Today was my day off, I deposited my check from All South into my Capital One account, and basically just lazed around at home all day. I actually have homework but I forgot what it actually is, the only one in my class whose contact information I know is Tim and he hasn't been online.

I also tried to set up a lesson plan, I kind of wanted to read the first story of creation but my mom thinks that it's a bad idea because they're so young. The only reason why I'm setting up our lesson on creation is because the kids know nothing about it. I just don't want to spend the whole class on it, and the way that she's talking about it we might have to.

Tonight was a church night. We, my mom and I, went to the Pot Luck dinner for the priests. It was a really awkward and boring event, we didn't know anyone there. It would have been nice if I had actually known some people there or if we had brought more people from our family with us. It was so bad that we didn't even stay for dessert. I did see Sister Susan though, this teacher at my school when I was in Kindergarten who I hadn't seen in a long time.

I've been talking to my mom about Tim and she says that he sounds nice but she's not going to jump to conclusions until she meets him. She says that I was crazy about Joe and he ended up being an asshole, which is true. I just hope that if things work out between me and Tim, he ends up getting along with my family, and that Joe doesn't become a topic of discussion amongst them.

Tomorrow I have work from 12:00 PM – 3:00 PM, my brother is taking me. My dad's not feeling well and my sister's staying with her boyfriend for another night. I'm kind of curious about what he's going to say about Tim, he knows how badly Joe hurt me. Will he be happy or nervous for me?

That's all that's going on right now, I will hopefully have a better entry for you soon :).

I really like the days when I see Tim, I hope that he likes seeing me just as much. He makes me feel really happy and pretty, he's such a nice guy. Of course my ex seemed just as nice and flattering at first, but something is telling me that Tim is VERY different. I don't think that my trust issues are going to be a problem here, this guy seems like someone that I could definitely see myself falling for.

I told him that I can get short with people sometimes especially if I don't like them, and he said that he doesn't see me doing that :). That's so sweet of him. I told him about my ex, because we started talking about our exes. He's still friends with his ex, I don't know what I think about that, simply because I don't know their situation. He thinks that Joe might be gay, lol... it's a possibility since he was so homophobic. He doesn't like what I say about my ex, he says that he sounds really dick.

We should be hanging out soon, we both really want to. However his friend's 21^st birthday bash is this weekend, and then the following weekend he might have to watch his dad's house but he said that he'd get back to me on that one. Apparently I'm really forward with him, lol... or at least Deveka thinks that I am.

Hahaha... yes, I'm talking about him as if I'm a highschool girl. I need to stop gushing over him, lol. Maybe it's just because he's what I've been looking for quite a while, we have a great connection, I think that he's really good looking, not to mention smart and a really good person. It seems like he thinks pretty highly of me too, he says that I'm a very pretty girl but that I have pretty low self confidence, which is definitely true at times, and when I told him that I can get really short with some people he said that he couldn't see me ever getting nasty with anyone, because I seem too sweet.

As you can tell I'm just really happy right now. Work is going really well too, black friday is definitely going to suck though. Tim told me that he's going to go shopping for skiing gear at this ski shop that he knows of, because they're going to have a really good sale.

Another guy asked me to hang out today, but I'm not really into this guy. To me it looks like he might be the player type, you know the guy who approaches the girl and tries to hang out with her after only just seeing her. He seemed a little bit too smooth, I mean I could be wrong but no... I don't think I would date him. He told me to call him if things change with Tim, I took down his number to be polite but I really don't think I'm going to call him.

So, I think that's all that I have to say for now. I'm going to play Sims 3 before I go to bed, yeppers.

I'm kind of having a good day today. For the first time in a long time I'm actually smiling. I asked Tim if he wanted to hang out with me some time, I found out that he's single and he said yes :). Here's how everything fell into place, I was talking to him about how I had orientation and received a really big compliment from one of the gentlemen who was there with me. He's a married Jamaican guy and he told me that I'm pretty, and that he's going to miss me because he'll be working in the early mornings and I'll obviously be working during the day or nights when Target is actually open. Looking back on it I think it's sweet but it did make me feel kind of uncomfortable that he said that, Tim's take on it was to tell me to be careful because a lot of 40-something year old married guys talk to pretty younger girls and try to get with them, and cheat on their wives. Then, I started telling him how a lot of people think that I'm pretty and he said, “yes, you are a very pretty girl.” I took that as my cue to tell him that I didn't know if he had a girlfriend but I wanted to know if he wanted to hang out, he said yes, and that he doesn't have a girlfriend. And then he asked me what I do during the weekends. Yep, I'm like grinning from ear to ear because I really do like him.

He doesn't have a phone, so I can't call him or anything but I did the next best thing and gave him my number, I think it's his place to call me anyway. He told me that he would give me his number as soon as he got a phone. And now we have each other's AIM Screen names, so that's pretty awesome. I'll keep you posted on everything that happens with him, but there's a very big possibility that I could have a boyfriend soon :).

He doesn't have that much of a social life either, lol... I would think he would because he seems like the kind of person that A LOT of people would like. There are like four people that he talks to and hangs out with on a regular basis. So, we'll probably be spending a lot of time together if we end up dating. I mean I would think that him being a 21 year old guy, he would be getting drunk all the time and partying, but that definitely doesn't seem like the case.

Anyway, I have to stop living in the fantasy world and focus on the now, hopefully we'll be able to hang out soon. I'll let you guys know what happens, but it's amazing that he said yes.

So orientation yesterday was really boring, hahaha... but I'll be working with some pretty nice people. I spent the fifteen minute break talking to these two older women, one of them isn't that old, but they're quite a bit older than me that I know, lol. Now I have training for the next two weeks, I have to go there tonight at 6 to 10.

So that's my life right now, pretty nice, eh?

I've decided that I'm going to try this again, yeppers :). If you want to know what's been going on with my life, just check out my other journal http://ilytoo.wordpress.com/. I'm going to try keep up with this one and that one, my way of doing that is to just copy and paste my entries.