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 Is it bad that I'm 18, still living at home and my grandmother, mother and I fight like cats and dogs? My mom's relationship is very similar to my mother and grandmother's relationship with each other. She's always pressuring me into doing something that I don't want to do, or something that I already did.Living here just gets more and more difficult as time goes on. I wish I could just leave, I wish I could find a good job and hang onto it long enough to get myself my own place, that would make me really happy. My mom told me to call Jackie, I already attempted calling her. Her phone isn't even ringing, so I personally think it's off. Why is it off? Maybe she's taking a personal day off from work & doesn't want her cellphone on? Both times that I called her, I got her voicemail without it even ringing. My mom's like, you definitely got fired, and shit, yada yada yada. I told her that I already called Jackie and I'll let her call me back to find out what's going on. I think that if Jackie decided that she wanted to fire me, she'd at least give me common courtesy to call me and wouldn't leave me hanging waiting on an answer, no? I feel like a young teenager saying this but I feel like my family doesn't understand me at all. I'm always fighting with them, because they think that it's good to get on my back about everything. Meanwhile, it's stuff that I plan to do just not exactly when they want me to do it. It just aggravates me so much, I'm no longer a minor, I'm not a dependent, I'm the one who buys my own stuff. Meanwhile, I've lived with other people and I seemed to be a much better person in that environment, everyone saw me as a good person. I mean I think I could succeed at my job if Jackie would keep me around. It takes me a little while to learn how things should run on my own, and you can't exactly explain it to me. I learn by doing it a couple of times and if I did something wrong, I'll figure out what I did wrong and try not to do it anymore. If she tells me that I'm doing something wrong, I generally figure out what I did wrong and try not to do it. I hope that she understands that. entry # 65;; please tell me i still have a job, in spite of the stupid mistake i made Hey! I'm just going to write a simple and short entry. Just because I feel like writing and releasing what's going on in my head right now. Not that it's guaranteed that anyone's going to read this and give me feedback, because no one has responded to my journal in 2 days. It's cool though because I'm just assuming that you're all busy. I woke up at 8:00 this morning to get ready for school. School was okay, we went over the project that was assigned to us for the long weekend. I got most of it wrong but it was a way of getting some knowledge. After school, my sister picked me up, I ate my lunch in the car which was a salad. Then we went walking around the outlets, our first stop was Ricky's. My sister bought a parrot bracelet and wig for her pirate costume. Then we headed over to Icing, so that she could look for hoop earrings. Then I grabbed my cellphone which I had left behind in my sister's car, and walked to work. I got there a little bit before time like usual. I'm hoping that I did okay, considering that today was my trial day. I messed up on the register once and Jackie got really mad about that, because apparently it's a constant thing with me. Honestly my mistake was kind of a silly mistake, other than the fact that our cash drawer would be a little short. I was supposed to give him $9.15 but instead I gave him back $10.00 in change. Here's the thing, the item he wanted to buy was $10.00, he gave me a $20.00 bill, so I thought that it made sense to give him back $10.00. I've since learned to pay attention to the prompts on the cash register & used that example with the next person that I rang up who had cash. I tried paying attention to everything that she said though. I'm really hoping that I still have a job. Jackie didn't say anything, other than the fact that she yelled at me for messing up on the cash register. So hopefully, she hasn't fired me. I'll call her tomorrow morning and find out what's going on for sure. Wish me luck! Laquantra said that I did a lot better than usual and she thinks that I'm going to pick up on everything. Hopefully Jackie thinks the same thing, but Laquantra and Alex don't seem to get short with me like Jackie does. She kept on telling me not to worry, because all I'm doing is stressing myself out and I'm going to definitely mess up if I keep on doing that. Hey! I'm just going to write a simple and short entry. Just because I feel like writing and releasing what's going on in my head right now. Not that it's guaranteed that anyone's going to read this and give me feedback, because no one has responded to my journal in 2 days. It's cool though because I'm just assuming that you're all busy. I woke up at 8:00 this morning to get ready for school. School was okay, we went over the project that was assigned to us for the long weekend. I got most of it wrong but it was a way of getting some knowledge. After school, my sister picked me up, I ate my lunch in the car which was a salad. Then we went walking around the outlets, our first stop was Ricky's. My sister bought a parrot bracelet and wig for her pirate costume. Then we headed over to Icing, so that she could look for hoop earrings. Then I grabbed my cellphone which I had left behind in my sister's car, and walked to work. I got there a little bit before time like usual. I'm hoping that I did okay, considering that today was my trial day. I messed up on the register once and Jackie got really mad about that once, because apparently it's a constant thing with me. Honestly my mistake was kind of a silly mistake, other than the fact that our cash drawer would be a little short. I was supposed to give him $9.15 but instead I gave him back $10.00 in change. Here's the thing, the item he wanted to buy was $10.00, he gave me a $20.00 bill, so I thought that it made sense to give him back $10.00. I've since learned to pay attention to the prompts on the cash register & used that example with the next person that I rang up who had cash. I tried paying attention to everything that she said though. I'm really hoping that I still have a job. Jackie didn't say anything, other than the fact that she yelled at me for messing up on the cash register. So hopefully, she hasn't fired me. I'll call her tomorrow morning and find out what's going on for sure. Wish me luck! Laquantra said that I did a lot better than usual and she thinks that I'm going to pick up on everything. Hopefully Jackie thinks the same thing, but Laquantra and Alex don't seem to get short with me like Jackie does. She kept on telling me not to worry, because all I'm doing is stressing myself out and I'm going to definitely mess up if I keep on doing that. entry # 64;; yikes! close one.Hey kiwis, since I'm pretty sure that all of you are upset with kiwibox 3.0, you can access the alternative here, so be sure to check that out.
I've decided I'm just going to let my journal die. Yes, the period when I've had this journal was definitely a transitional period for me and my subbies were really great people. Yet I only have 60 journal entries in this journal, so it's not that many. I'm probably leaving once the kiwibox we all used to love transitions into kiwibox 3.0, because I don't like the previews of that site at all. I think that I'm going to set up a new blog, probably on opendiary or deardiary, so if anyone's interested in following up with me let me know & I'll send you the new link. Last night's entry was basically just a piece of expression. I see that no one responded to that and that's all good, because most of you probably had no idea what to say. Anyway, yesterday ended up being a good day for me. I thought that I was going to get fired but all I did was get a warning. Here's the story, Jackie left me a voicemail on tuesday saying that she wanted to have a mini conference with me about my job performance. I called her back and she told me to meet with her that afternooon, but I couldn't because of the fact that I didn't have a ride. So yesterday after school, my dad drove me up to the outlets and Jackie gave me the warning. It's basically she sees opportunity in me as a worker, but she also thinks that I'm making alot of mistakes, such as on the register, I've entered wrong dollar amounts and I have the tendency to hand the plastic bag to the customers without closing the register, the fact that I'm smothering customers, also she finds that I'm gravitating towards my fellow coworkers and she's not fond of that either. So on Friday, we have a freight truck coming in and she's going to really watch me, and if I do okay then I'll get to keep my job :). Wish me luck on Friday, and I'll let everyone know how it goes. School went very well for me yesterday, though. We got our tests back for a temporary period of time and he went over them with us. I got the highest grade in the class on my test, which was a 93% that's out of 1OO questions. We also had orientation, which went very well. It was basically a time when we got to meet our new instructors, learn the resources that are available to us, and we went over the rules of the school. I won a green glass mug with the name of our "school" on it, yay :)!!! Anyway, that's all that seems to be going on right now. I'll be sure to update you guys tomorrow on how my trial work experience went, and whether or not I still have a job. Hey kiwis, since I'm pretty sure that all of you are upset with kiwibox 3.0, you can access the alternative here, so be sure to check that out.
I've decided I'm just going to let my journal die. Yes, the period when I've had this journal was definitely a transitional period for me and my subbies were really great people. Yet I only have 60 journal entries in this journal, so it's not that many. I'm probably leaving once the kiwibox we all used to love transitions into kiwibox 3.0, because I don't like the previews of that site at all. I think that I'm going to set up a new blog, probably on opendiary or deardiary, so if anyone's interested in following up with me let me know & I'll send you the new link. Last night's entry was basically just a piece of expression. I see that no one responded to that and that's all good, because most of you probably had no idea what to say. Anyway, yesterday ended up being a good day for me. I thought that I was going to get fired but all I did was get a warning. Here's the story, Jackie left me a voicemail on tuesday saying that she wanted to have a mini conference with me about my job performance. I called her back and she told me to meet with her that afternooon, but I couldn't because of the fact that I didn't have a ride. So yesterday after school, my dad drove me up to the outlets and Jackie gave me the warning. It's basically she sees opportunity in me as a worker, but she also thinks that I'm making alot of mistakes, such as on the register, I've entered wrong dollar amounts and I have the tendency to hand the plastic bag to the customers without closing the register, the fact that I'm smothering customers, also she finds that I'm gravitating towards my fellow coworkers and she's not fond of that either. So on Friday, we have a freight truck coming in and she's going to really watch me, and if I do okay then I'll get to keep my job :). Wish me luck on Friday, and I'll let everyone know how it goes. School went very well for me yesterday, though. We got our test backs for a temporary period of time and he went over them with us. I got the highest grade in the class on my test, which was a 93% that's out of 1OO questions. We also had orientation, which went very well. It was basically a time when we got to meet our new instructors, learn the resources that are available to us, and we went over the rules of the school. I won a green glass mug with the name of our "school" on it, yay :)!!! |
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