humanhead , 18

so here i am after a long time. and also after a good scolding. but it was worth it since it gave me a topic for 2010. DEATH!

so well, now my cousins' school principal passed away and they are all sad about it. the girls crying is pretty acceptable but the guys cryin is a bit hard to digest. i dont think that we should respect the dead. i believe in rebirth and i dont think that once a person is dead we should not talk bad about them. for instance if there's som1 i really hate, and he has done a lot of mean things to me.. suddenly he dies. i would find it really unfair if people start talkin bout all the good stuff he did and completely ignoring his bad side.

when i die i wouldn't like it if people talk about wat a good person i was! hell.. am not a good person. sure i haven't done anything bad but again, i haven't done anything good either. so that will hopefully cross out the question, "would you lyk it if people say bad stuff about you when u die?"

also why do some people take death so seriously? i dont get it! isnt death inevitable? we all have to die at some pint or the other. see, my grand aunt has told her niece dat her other g.dad was taken to a better place when he died. and she had wondered about it. later when she was a bit older(i think about 7 or 8 years), she got the whole story about death. now remember, my grand uncle is rly rly old. so once when i went their he told me to save a lot so that it would help with the future, am talking about saving money not tree. so anywayz, i asked him this, "what would happen if i keep saving and before i can enjoy my money, i die?" his eyes widened, like i had said some forbidden word!

now lets get back on to LIFE!
J my freaking friend in school is mad at me. its a long story and am not in a mood to talk about it. just that i dont talk to her, and she doesnt talk to me!
L kinda asked me if i wanted to go for the akon concert that was supposed to happen in SL but i said no. thank heavens or wat a bummer to buy tickets and find out that he's not coming! i mean, i dont like him anyway so ya!
ummm... we had a history test today and am pretty sure that i'll have to redo it. urgh! couldn't be bothered to study. well, actually, i wasnt feeling well.

now i need to put an end to this entry! catya laterr! 

its really hot in here. i cant take it anymore. so bad. never been this way. my grandmother is here. she'll be gone in a few more weeks. thats not really good. i ate a lot today. skipped breakfast but i had some nice chocolate milk in the morning. and then had rice for lunch. pretty heavy. then i had an eclair and some ice cream(which was rich)... so my tummy is full now. the power was gone earlier. for one hour. awful. our computer broke down and i was sick. we had our school sports meet which was nice. there are quite a few new girls this time. there's this one girl and she's a pain in the ass.

i dont like L anymore. he's a weird bitchy person. a typical jerk. so no way. i have better things to do.  so ya. even rush has changed now. i basically dont know him anymore. he's a total stranger. so i'll be clearing my fb friends very soon and i may remove him. he has caused too many problems. stupid!

today is PG's bday. KB is very boring knowing that my journal is only read by me. so i may just stick to my little diary. just that if my mom reads it, she'll be a bit disappointed. so you guyz know dat my dad is an asshole, right?  so i have this party to go for. i hate going but well, its lyke prom in america. its like all of my pals together and its gonna be fun. but there will be guys also. cz well, a girls only party sounds a bit... so my dad has a prob with that since he thinks dat i have a guy. FYI i still dont have a guy. but anyway.. my dad has no business to come into my life now.

boy meets boy...
i read that book recently. and found out one thing. basically, the whole of my family has a problem with homosexuality. isnt that mean! so what if some people are attracted to those of the same sex? well, anyway... isnt that book just simple and true. like, friendship probs. trying to win the heart of some close to perfect person... lovely story

so this is a short update. though loadsa stuff has been going on. my uncle bought two new puppies. ewww.. hate them.. licky and all... well, the... bye! 

so its been quite some time since i last wrote.
just a small simple update
rush-he just left my life. you know, its kinda weird now. he was my other brother. i mean, besides the *real* one. now he's this guy i know.. well, actually, a guy i knew. some where at some moment, our love for each other faded away and none of us tried to stop the fading. now i see him online, or he'll come over but not a smile, a friendly "hi" or a nod. its simply weird

i have this friend. a guy.. he's a bit too special. i mean, he thinks that he's like my only special friend. kinda annoyin at times

my grand aunt is coming next week.. she lives in america. so yey! then on the 13th v r having an alms giving...
school is great...
thats all for now 

2010...
my grandmother asked me today, if i have any new year resolutions, and i said no!
i usually do, but its not worth it. i mean i never get to tick them off of the list.
i bought 2 more grisham books. "king of torts" and "the summons"
my mom actually read "ford county" she's not much of a fan of
1/ grisham
2/death
3/books i like to read

i started piano classes. for now i have art, saturday morning and piano in the evening.
we were planning to go to the beach y'day, but didnt go
today i have this party to go for. in the evening. dont really want to go, because i hate to dress up. even though this is a lil girls party and not many have been invited.

i'm kinda hungry. but my mom is out and my grandmom wont be cooking today. i'm being punished for not eating what she cooks.

well, gonna say good bye for today... 

so i feel much better now. and i have this great idea in mind.
am gonna start a magazine. not now, but when am older. it will be fun and a great experience.
also i want to make this really nice slide show of my childhood. my brother and cousins. all of us.
i 'm gonna make some lovely buns today. hope they come out well. also i want to make some lovely cup cakes later. not today.
the year has come to an end.  cant wait for 2010.
i turn 16, my grand aunt is coming to SL, and so much more

well, dats all for today.