humanhead , 18

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

although i bring both good and bad news. 2nd day of the year and am loving it! so lets go to the bad news first.

Alvin Ashley W A is no more alive. facing a peaceful death on the 29th of December, Ashley left us for a better birth. so ya. sad news. the rest is good, i assure u

well i got the episodes so i watch all of big bang theory until S5E11 :D and so i've been neglecting my history homework, but i dont really care. i have to wear glasses now, which is annoying because i'd rather not have this thing resting on my nose. oh well!

so 29th my cousin came over, then we made cards for some of her friends. new year stuff. then she had a maths class so she went, then right after her i had a maths class so i had work. and brothers friends were here and they were a bit too loud. then at 7 i went to my cousins and helped out with the cards. then i had to get home. so went there the next day too. and basically did nothing. then in the night their was this temple procession so we went to see it. and i got home at 1.30am and my feet were killing me. went to bed at 2am. then 31st morn i went to get my glasses, went shopping with my mum and got home in the evening.

31st night was really great. spent it next door. so at 9.30 maybe i went next door to make a fruit salad. and then at maybe 10.30 my brother, mum and grandmother came over. then we were talking for a while. then the 6 kids went out side and we were playing this extremely lame but fun game with this weird thing that you can fly up to the sky and then who ever catches it gets to send it next. we had only three of the flying things and six kids so. then it was 12 and there were crackers everywhere, then came wishing everyone. then we had dinner. the four of us got back home, and well, i was dead asleep by maybe 2.30am!

next morning i get up really late. so ya, thats yesterday. and then at maybe one, my cousins came over. we played a game of carom then moved on to cricket. then we were sweaty and tired and kinda bored so since my uncle also came over we all just talked about random stuff. then they all left so i had gorgeous lunch.

and yesterday i also watched lion-king one and two and the third girl next door told me that she has never watched lion-king. which is really scary cause every kid must grow up watching lion-king. so ya, i'll make her watch it someday. so now i have a maths class in a bit. okie three hours from now. so ya.. thus ends today's entry

nearly forgot. 28th woke up early, went with my dad to get my eyes checked. then met my cousins at the dentist and we all went to the second hand book store. got 5 books. and then on the 30th, i got my new wood bookcase which is just awesome.

merry christmas everyone!!!

this christmas was good and bad. so it was good cuz i spent it with my dad. i was dreading that but it went well. my dads mum spoke to me. okie she just wished me for christmas and actually got me a gift. so ya, we may not still be on good terms, but progress! besides that i got so many gifts. my mum actually wrapped our gifts and kept them under the tree. i didnt except a gift from her because she spent a lot to make a wooden book rack for me, which will be here for my birthday. so all went well. got home late. wore a dress for lunch. my dad got us the sparkling wine we wanted. and i didnt get a headache, which i usually do. i got a lot of food items for this guy who works in our garden and our really old paper man.

now comes the bad bits. so i realized that i am not what a certain friend is to me. like he's my guy best friend, i tell him everything. sure, we dont always talk, like 24/7 but i thought we had this connection. now its pretty obvious that i am just a friend to him. so ya, again i've been slapped in the face by life.

so tomorrow i vhave to wake up early since my dads side will be going to spend the day at this hotel. i dont even know where. but he asked me to come, and i am going. so yey! and then, then next day, i had a double maths class. so thats four hours and then dinner at my cousins who live 1/2 hour away! sigh!!!!!! but yey to the christmas-ness of life.

so the project for awesome 2011 is happening. i watched a few vids and jeez! how lucky i am, how lucky you are. the number of charities, america has, the world has. and yet, thousands die due to cancer, poverty, other things. forget illnesses. sometimes there's nothing anyone can do. but being an outcast, just because you aren't what society wants you to be.

you are ugly, you aren't human

you are gay, you aren't normal

you like metal, you are psychotic

you are poor, you are weird

who are we to judge people anyway? so go watch the P4A vids on youtube or go to that site. it'll be worth your time (:

so my christmas wish, okay i have three, for this year would be(they aren't exactly just christmassy, but basically my three wishes before the world ends)

1.to feed at least 10 dogs in the neighborhood. there are many stray dogs and i honestly cant get them cleaned up, take them to the vet or give them a home. i could do that is i had more people involved but sadly, i dont. so my pet dog, passed away on the 23rd of December in 2007 and i was hoping that i could at least on that day, feed some dogs who dont have food in their little tummies. so lets see. and if anyone's reading this, try to help an animal in need.

2. be a good friend to someone. it was always a problem. i cant be a good friend. i muck things up. so i want to mean something to someone. do something special. anyone. not just a friend, a relative, someone i dont know. i wanted to send a few christmas cards to people i dont know. random names and addresses i got off the directory but then i thought, what if they get worried, some stalker or weird person. i would want to make their day but what if the opposite happens? so ya, i want to make someone's day

3. i want to make my family know how much i love them. by family i dont just mean, those i am related to. but those i love, Nisal, my friend, Sam, my cousin. my mother, grandmother, brother. and Sarah, who showed me that life is about having fun. my uncle, for being more of a father to me, than sadly, my own dad. my aunt for always making me know that she is like my own mother. my other three cousins for making me feel so accepted, so loved. and this school friend, for making me feel like a child.

so those are my wishes for this month, season.